For me, sometimes I look at family members (who I see everyday) or friends (who I see often) and I question if I recognize them. Like is that what they've always looked like. They tend to look different to me. It's also hard to recognize myself in the mirror. It's such a weird feeling but I dont dwell on it. I feel like I'm numb to it now. I never feel present. I've just recently began to even acknowledge it to myself. I've had some trauma as a kid. Death was a huge prescence in my childhood. I witnessed my beloved grandfather die of a heart attack at age 9. I believe I was home from school sick or I was just lounging in my grandparents apt. (They lived in the apt below me, my mom and my brother. I was always very close to my maternal grandparents as my mother was a single mother who worked and went to night college. Father was never in the picture. He is life long drug addict loser. We were never involved with his family either.) I was in the living room watching tv and I hear my grandmother screaming my grandfather's name. I run into the kitchen and he's having a heart attack. My grandmother instructed me to hold a spoon in his mouth so he doesn't swallow his tongue while she called 911. I only remember small pieces of what happened next. I remember the EMTs coming in. I remember my aunt and mom coming home from work while EMS was there. I don't know when my brother came downstairs. I remember being told to go upstairs to our apt and being talked to by my mom's best friend saying my grandfather loved us. My brother and I didn't attend his funeral. That was decided for us by my mother. I remember playing in the street when my family came walking back from it. There is a funeral home 2 blocks from our building. Several other family members died pretty close in years. We are Italian on my mothers side. My grandmother had 4 siblings. They would come over for holidays or stop by since they all lived in the same city. Only 2 ended up having 1 child each so my mom didnt have many cousins. They all died within years of each other and the holiday tables became empty. That was traumatic. My grandmother who I was immensely close with died in 2017. She became diabetic and developed some sores on her legs from always sitting. Thinking about it as an adult, she must have had deep depression. She had poor immigrant parents and worked in a doll/baby dress making factory as a kid. When she got into her 60s, she became sort of agoraphobic. She didnt wanna go anywhere. She just would sit in the kitchen watching tv. We bonded over tv and films. She refused to go to the doctor. Her legs got worst. The day before we basically carried her out the door to go to the hospital, I was sitting in the living room with her and she seemed out of it. When she was admitted to the hospital, they said she had sepsis. She started asking where my grandfather was and he's been dead since '93. She only recognized me. Not my mom, aunt or brother. She was on the mend after a few weeks and was sent to rehab. She had a back slide in rehab. The week that she passed away, I was hella sick with the flu. I was told I couldn't go visit. My aunt called and I could hear my grandmother screaming. This happened a few times the week of her dead. She wouldn't talk just wail. They'd give her the phone and tell her it's me but she wouldn't speak just cry or scream. This haunts me. I wonder if anyone can tell me why this was happening. It still freaks me out. I got a call on a Fri at 1am from my mom saying that don't get upset but she passed away. The rehab just called. I remember dropping to the floor and crawled under my bed and cried. my mom doesn't live too far. She came over but I locked myself in my bedroom and stood under the bed. I think this is where my Ddp started kicking into high gear. A few months later, a close friend/coworker died suddenly at the age of 26. We had spent a few days the week prior hanging out after work even though he hated social activities. We went to a movie screening, play and comedy show all in 1 week. His mom said she believes he may subconsciously have known his time was coming to an end and wanted to spend as much time with me as he could. I think the constant prescence of death has caused my dp/dr. I definitely disassociate a lot. I feel like my life has gone in a fast forward. How am I later in my 30s? I feel like I blinked and all those years were skipped. I dont remember my 20s much or most of my 30s. This seems like it's all over the place but it's the first time I've been able to put pieces together and describe what I've been experiencing. Basically, I feel like I float through life and every day my brain is a white board that gets wiped clean. I'm not present and I become unfamiliar with my surroundings and people.

While they are being advanced all over the planet as a pivotal weapon in decreasing fossil fuel byproducts, sunlight powered chargers have a typical life expectancy of 25-30 years. Specialists express billions of boards will ultimately all should be discarded and supplanted. "The world has introduced more than one terawatt of sunlight based limit. Customary sunlight powered chargers have a limit of around 400W, so in the event that you count the two roofs and sun based ranches, there could be pretty much as numerous as 2.5 billion sunlight based chargers.," says Dr Rong Deng, a specialist in sunlight powered charger reusing at the College of New South Grains in Australia. As per the English government, there are a huge number of sunlight based chargers in the UK. However, the expert framework to scrap and reuse them is deficient. Energy specialists are calling for pressing government activity to forestall an approaching worldwide ecological debacle. "It will be a waste mountain by 2050, except if we get reusing chains rolling presently," says Ute Collier, delegate head of the Worldwide Sustainable power Organization. "We're creating an ever increasing number of sun powered chargers - which is perfect - yet how can we go to manage the waste?" she inquires. • BBC Sounds - The Environment Question - How sustainable are renewables? It is trusted a significant step will be taken toward the finish of June, when the world's most memorable production line devoted to completely reusing sunlight powered chargers formally opens in France. ROSI, the expert sun powered reusing organization which possesses the office, in the Elevated city of Grenoble, trusts in the end to have the option to concentrate and yet again utilize the vast majority of a unit's parts. As well as reusing the glass fronts and aluminum outlines, the new manufacturing plant can recuperate essentially every one of the valuable materials held inside the boards, for example, silver and copper, which are normally the absolute hardest materials to separate. These uncommon materials can in this manner be reused and reused to make new, more remarkable, sun oriented units.
Regular techniques for reusing sunlight based chargers recuperate the majority of the aluminum and glass - yet ROSI says the glass, specifically, is of somewhat inferior quality.
The glass recuperated utilizing those strategies can be utilized to make tiles, or in sandblasting - it can likewise be blended in with different materials to make black-top - yet it can't be utilized in applications where high-grade glass is required, like the creation of new sunlight powered chargers.
Blast period The new ROSI plant will open during a blast period for sunlight based charger establishments.
The world's sun based energy age limit became by 22% in 2021. Around 13,000 photovoltaic (PV) sun powered chargers are fitted in the UK consistently - the majority of them on the tops of private houses.
As a rule, sunlight based units become moderately uneconomical before they arrive at the finish of their normal life expectancy. New, more productive plans advance at customary spans, meaning it can demonstrate less expensive to supplant sun powered chargers that are just 10 or 15 years of age with refreshed variants.
On the off chance that ongoing development patterns are supported, Ms Collier says, the volume of scrap sunlight powered chargers could be colossal.
"By 2030, we believe we will have 4,000,000 tons [of scrap] - which is as yet sensible - yet by 2050, we could wind up with in excess of 200 million tons all around the world."
To place that into viewpoint, the world right now delivers a sum of 400 million tons of plastic consistently.
Reusing difficulties The explanation there are scarcely any offices for reusing sunlight based chargers is on the grounds that there has not been a lot of waste to process and reuse as of not long ago.
The original of homegrown sun powered chargers is simply now reaching the finish of its usable life. With those units currently moving toward retirement, specialists say earnest activity is required.
"Right now is an ideal opportunity to ponder this," says Ms Collier.
France is as of now a pioneer among European countries with regards to handling photovoltaic waste, says Nicolas Defrenne. His association, Soren, accomplices with ROSI and different firms, co-ordinating the decommissioning of sunlight powered chargers all over France.
"The greatest one [we decommissioned] required three months," Mr Defrenne reviews.
His group at Soren has been trying different things with various approaches to reusing what they gather: "We're tossing everything at the wall and seeing what sticks."
At ROSI's cutting edge plant in Grenoble, the sunlight based chargers are meticulously dismantled to recuperate the valuable materials inside - like copper, silicon and silver.
Each sun powered charger contains just small pieces of these valuable materials and those parts are so interwoven with different parts that, as of not long ago, it has not been monetarily suitable to isolate them.
But since they are so significant, removing those valuable materials productively could be a unique advantage, says Mr Defrenne.
"More than 60% of the worth is contained in 3% of the heaviness of the sun powered chargers," he says.
The group at Soren are confident that, later on, almost 3/4 of the materials expected to make new sunlight based chargers - including silver - can be recuperated from resigned PV units and reused - to assist with accelerating creation of new boards.
At present there isn't sufficient silver accessible to fabricate the large numbers of sunlight based chargers which will be expected in the progress from petroleum derivatives, says Mr Defrenne: "You can see where you have a creation bottleneck, it's silver."
In the interim English researchers have been attempting to foster comparative innovation to ROSI.
Last year, specialists at the College of Leicester reported they had worked out how to separate silver from PV units utilizing a type of saline.
However, up until this point, ROSI is the main organization in its field to have increased its activity to modern levels.
Besides, the innovation is costly. In Europe, merchants or makers of sunlight based chargers are answerable for discarding them when they become superfluous. What's more, many blessing pulverizing or destroying the waste - which is far less expensive.
Mr Defrenne recognizes that escalated reusing of sun powered chargers is still in its early stages. Soren and its accomplices reused just shy of 4,000 tons of French sun powered chargers last year.
However, there is potential to do much more. Also, he's making that his central goal.
"The heaviness of the multitude of new sunlight powered chargers sold last year in France was 232,000 tons - in this way, when those wear out in 20 years, that is the amount I'll have to gather consistently.
"At the point when that occurs, my own will likely guarantee France will be the innovative head of the world."

So my friends group, we all turned 25 in the last couple of months— from 2022 we’ve been discussing to have a 25th birthday milestone trip in the summer. That milestone trip was supposed to be in Vegas, but kind of fell through this summer and we planned to postpone it to Oct/Nov this year. Then to makeup for it, we wanted to do a weekend trip to a local city at least this June to do something for our 25th. That fell through too, and we’re now just gonna do a beach visit for one day.
Another detail: one friend wasn’t sure that the Vegas trip was happening a few months ago (it was supposed to) and planned a trip just for her and her girlfriend to go to Vegas during the time window that we were supposed to go to Vegas.
At this point, I’m a bit frustrated with this shit, bc if we couldn’t even plan a weekend trip to a local city (which we decided to do 2 months ago instead of the big Vegas trip) how the hell can I trust that this group will be trustworthy to plan a whole Vegas trip in 5 months from now?
So we’re all chatting in the group chat and my friend says she needs things to be more definitive so she knows what to expect, to which I respond and say
“ Definitely! Yeah I think the ball was dropped a bit for this trip lmao, but I trust that we enjoy eachother enough to prioritize a trip together for our big 25 this year 🤣 just know that I’m 100% on board for it”
Was this shady as hell on my end? I kind of feel bad but also these guys are my good friends and I’m just a bit disappointed in the lack of prioritization.
I love my friends and they’re great, just wondering how to read this situation lol

Pep Guardiola's side arrived in Turkey on Thursday evening on-board their private club plane and were greeted by supporters and tournament representatives. Inter Milan boss Simone Inzaghi is unbeaten in his last SEVEN finals and will hope to extend that streak in Istanbul - as he looks to spoil Man City's Treble dreams in the Champions League showpiece Share your views.

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Phish, Tuesday 06/09/2009 (14 years ago) Asheville Civic Center, Asheville, NC, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 2009 Early Summer Tour
Set 1 : Kill Devil Falls , The Moma Dance , Sample in a Jar , Stash , Dog Faced Boy , Gumbo , Tube , Lengthwise , Divided Sky , When the Cactus is in Bloom ¹ , Bold As Love
Set 2 : Backwards Down the Number Line > Ghost > Fast Enough for You , Halley's Comet > Maze , Alaska ¹ , Theme From the Bottom , Golgi Apparatus , Possum
Encore : Loving Cup
1 Phish debut.
Jamchart Notes:
Backwards Down the Number Line - "Type I" version with great strumming by Trey and a short outro jam that > to "Ghost."
Show Notes:
This show featured the Phish debuts of When the Cactus is in Bloom and Alaska. Before Dog Faced Boy, Trey explained that while living with Fish, he wrote Dog Faced Boy, Tube and Gumbo based on entries in one of Fish's journals. During Dog Faced Boy, Fish left his drum kit and lay down in front of the stage because he didn't need to sing the song. Lengthwise (performed a cappella ) was played for the first time since July 28, 1998 (233 shows). Bold as Love was played for the first time since October 6, 2000 (74 shows).
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Phish, Friday 06/09/2000 (23 years ago) On Air East, Shibuya-ku, Tokyo, , Japan
Gap Chart, Tour: 2000 Summer Japan Tour
Set 1 : Axilla > Taste , Billy Breathes , Poor Heart > Golgi Apparatus > Funky Bitch , The Moma Dance > First Tube > Chalk Dust Torture
Set 2 : Tweezer , Bouncing Around the Room ¹ , The Mango Song , The Squirming Coil > Gotta Jibboo > Meatstick ² > Tweezer Reprise
Encore : You Enjoy Myself
1 Brief outro solo from Trey, which replaced the usual closing guitar lick. 2 First Meatstick to feature Japanese lyrics.
Jamchart Notes:
Funky Bitch - Atypically improvisational must-hear monster.
Chalk Dust Torture - Winning fans in Japan. This huge first-set-closing version raises hell and ends, but then there's a second ending that concludes cacophonously.
Tweezer - Atypically slow but monstrously improvisational version that has several peaks and valleys before speeding-up and concluding in a melodic, triumphant, must-fucking-hear manner.
The Mango Song - Ending jam segment stretches the limits of the basic jam with some nice rhythmic variation, but still stays "in bounds."
You Enjoy Myself - Deeeep, funky jam/groove, and the return of the B&D; segment!
Show Notes:
The Moma Dance included Funky Bitch teases and Tweezer included Funk #49 teases. This was the first ever Meatstick to feature Japanese lyrics and Trey flubbed the words while attempting to sing them. Bouncing included a brief outro solo from Trey, which replaced the usual closing guitar lick. This show was re- broadcast on Japanese television.
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Phish, Friday 06/09/1995 (28 years ago) Red Rocks Amphitheatre, Morrison, CO, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1995 Summer Tour
Set 1 : My Friend, My Friend , Divided Sky , Strange Design > The Oh Kee Pa Ceremony > AC/DC Bag > Theme From the Bottom , Taste , Sparkle > Run Like an Antelope
Set 2 : Split Open and Melt , The Wedge , Scent of a Mule , Cavern > David Bowie , Acoustic Army , Sweet Adeline , Slave to the Traffic Light
Encore : The Squirming Coil
Jamchart Notes:
Run Like an Antelope - Unusual jam. Sort of off-key. Sort of evil. Dissonant and anti-melodic. No real peak; it just fades into "Rocco."
Split Open and Melt - Improvisational playing in several sections tests the rhythmic and melodic standards for "SOAM" in this solid version.
Show Notes:
Part of the soundcheck's jam consisted of 25 or 6 to 4.
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Phish, Thursday 06/09/1994 (29 years ago) Triad Amphitheater, Salt Lake City, UT, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1994 Summer Tour
Set 1 : Llama , Guelah Papyrus , Rift , Down with Disease > It's Ice > If I Could > Maze , Fee ¹ , Suzy Greenberg
Set 2 : Split Open and Melt , Glide > Julius , Halley's Comet -> Scent of a Mule , Ginseng Sullivan ² , Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , Golgi Apparatus
Encore : Highway to Hell
1 Trey sang verses through megaphone. 2 Acoustic and without microphones. Fish on Madonna washboard.
Jamchart Notes:
It's Ice - Good rocking jam with excellent Fish and solid Trey (of course Page is great).
Mike's Song - The 1st jam is rocking and ass kicking, with a clever little "Tweeprise"-like walk up. The 2nd jam is basically a non-vocal version of something very "Simple"-like. Just listen and you'll hear it. The return to "Mike's" has more crazed '94 scream-infused power action.
Show Notes:
Trey sang the verses of Fee through a megaphone. Ginseng Sullivan was performed acoustic without microphones and featured Fish on Madonna washboard.
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Phish, Saturday 06/09/1990 (33 years ago) The Wetlands Preserve, New York, NY, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1990 Tour
Set 1 : Possum , Lawn Boy > Reba , Dinner and a Movie > Bouncing Around the Room > Tweezer , Uncle Pen > Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove
Set 2 : Whole Lotta Love Jam > Harry Hood , The Man Who Stepped Into Yesterday > Avenu Malkenu > La Grange , Fee -> Foam , The Oh Kee Pa Ceremony > Suzy Greenberg > Run Like an Antelope , Hold Your Head Up > Terrapin > Hold Your Head Up , Harpua , Good Times Bad Times
Encore : Take the 'A' Train > Contact
Jamchart Notes:
Foam - -> in from "Fee." Groovy and excellent Page section with solid backing from Mike and Fish. It's all good from there.
Run Like an Antelope - Good exploratory version that gets nicely beyond the standard. Great tension, dissonance and experimental jamming.
Show Notes:
Harpua included Funkytown teases and 'A' Train contained a Dixie tease from Trey. The band launched into the second set-opening Whole Lotta Love Jam as the DJ had been spinning the original Zeppelin version. The opening act was The Aquarium Rescue Unit.
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Trey Anastasio

Trey Anastasio Trio, 2023-06-09 Mission Ballroom, Denver, CO, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-trio-june-09-2023-mission-ballroom-denver-co-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes:
Trey Anastasio Band, 2006-06-09 Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre - Charlotte, Charlotte, NC, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-june-09-2006-verizon-wireless-amphitheatre-charlotte-charlotte-nc-usa.html
Tour: TAB - Early Summer 2006 Tour
Show Notes: This single set performance was as the opening act for Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers. This setlist is unconfirmed as recordings of the performance do not circulate.
Trey Anastasio Band, 2002-06-09 Tower City Amphitheatre, Cleveland, OH, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-june-09-2002-tower-city-amphitheatre-cleveland-oh-usa.html
Tour: TAB - The Dectet Summer 2002 Tour
Show Notes: The rendition of "Plasma" from this gig appears on Trey's live CD of the same name. Trey performed "Ray Dawn Balloon" acoustic.

Mike Gordon

Mike Gordon, 2015-06-09 The Pageant, St. Louis, MO, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/mike-gordon-june-09-2015-the-pageant-st-louis-mo-usa.html
Tour: Mike Gordon - Summer 2015 Tour
Show Notes:

John Fishman

Jazz Mandolin Project, 2004-06-09 32 Bleu, Colorado Springs, CO, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/jon-fishman-june-09-2004-32-bleu-colorado-springs-co-usa.html
Tour: Fish - Jazz Mandolin Project Summer 2004 Tour
Show Notes:

Page McConnell

Page McConnell, 2007-06-09 Bogart's, Cincinnati, OH, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/page-mcconnell-june-09-2007-bogarts-cincinnati-oh-usa.html
Tour: Page McConnell Spring & Summer 2007 Tour
Show Notes: This setlist is unconfirmed as recordings of the show do not circulate.

-franciaország átveszi oroszországtól a második legnagyobb fegyverexportőri címet -az ukrán ellentámadás céljai , nem csak katonaiak vannak -ukrán ellentámadással kapcsolatos pletykák gyüjteménye , inormáció nincs, csak pletykák -baskirok is harcolnak oroszország ellen -ukrán napi videós összefoglaló

gát robbantás

-Kakhovka környéke délben -dél Dnipro Hola Prystan környéke -az orosz hadsereg lövi az evakuálást végzőket , pl: kép , és videó , másik videó , , harmadik videó , még videó , az evakuáló pontot is lövik a kreml terroristái -oroszország rakétázta azt az iskolát, ahova az árciz miatt evakuáltak ideiglenes szállása van -az orosz hadsereg akadályozza az evakuálást a megszállt Olevskyben , oroszország terrorista állam -a tározó vízszintje már annyira alacsony, hogy se az atomerőmű, se a környező települések nem kapnak vizet és a helyzet tovább romlik -a gátszakadást belső robbanás okozhatta -orosz katonák fákon várják, hogy levonuljon az ár , napokig fog tartani -a megszállt területeken Olevskyban oroszország nem engedi az evakuálást, emiatt emberek halnak meg -orosz katonák már decemberben aláaknázták a gátet -több száz állatot sikerült evakuálni khersonban

orosz sorozás/mobilizálás

-már néhány orosz sorozott is van a halottak között -az orosz űrprogramban dolgozó tudosókat is a frontra viszik Uránusz zászlóalj -ukrán katonák LNDNR foglyokkal , sok orosz mobilizáltak az LNDNR hadseregéhez vezényeltek

drónok, rakéták

-FPV drón támadás másik drónról nézve -sikeres drón bombázások , van amelyik 3 RPG7-et dobott le

fegyverrendszerek

-a helyiek már megszokták a HIMARS-okat

friss térképek

-déli front -Russian Invasion - Day 470 , Summary of the situation, including detailed maps.

Veszteségek

-orosz veszteségek , $2.1B in the last 30 days, $88M reported today, 730 troop losses, 7-day troop average: 627, 109 landbased losses, 7-day average: 87 -orosz "2S9 Nona" semmisül meg látványosan -a megszállt Berdyanks az éjjel -orosz 2A36 Giatsint-B 152mm löveg kapott találatot -orosz katona pont a drónról dobott gránátra vetődik -ukrán mesterlövész infratávcsővel -luhanski orosz bázis kapott rakéta, vagy JDAM találatot , orosz tank javító hely kap JDAM találatot -orosz 2S3 Akatsiya kap találatot

ISW

RUSSIAN OFFENSIVE CAMPAIGN ASSESSMENT, JUNE 8, 2023 Ukraine has conducted counteroffensive operations with differential outcomes in at least three sectors of the front as part of wider counteroffensive efforts that have been unfolding since Sunday, June 4. Ukrainian forces conducted a limited but still significant attack in western Zaporizhia Oblast on the night of June 7 to 8. Russian forces apparently defended against this attack in a doctrinally sound manner and had reportedly regained their initial positions as of June 8. Russian forces appear to have executed their formal tactical defensive doctrine in response to the Ukrainian attacks southwest of Orikhiv. Ukrainian attacks in western Zaporizhia on June 8 do not represent the full extent of Ukrainian capabilities in the current counteroffensive. It is additionally noteworthy that the Russian Southern Military District Forces deployed in this particular area are likely to be a higher quality force grouping than Russia has elsewhere in theater, and their defensive performance is unlikely to be reflective of defensive capabilities of Russian groupings elsewhere on the front. Russian forces and occupation authorities continue to exacerbate the humanitarian ramifications of the flooding resulting from the Kakhovka Hydroelectric Power Plant (KHPP) dam break. Russian forces continued to conduct limited ground attacks on the Kupyansk-Svatove line and around Kreminna. Ukrainian forces made limited gains around Bakhmut, and Russian forces conducted limited ground attacks along the Avdiivka-Donetsk City line. Ukrainian forces continued to conduct limited ground attacks on the administrative border between Donetsk and Zaporizhia oblasts. The Russian MoD continues to posture itself as a firm authority over the defense industrial base (DIB) through emphasizing its ability to transport new equipment to the front. Russian occupation authorities are reportedly resorting to punitive measures against civilian populations in occupied Ukraine due to Russian occupation authorities’ decreasing influence over civilians.

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Let me know if you guys are having the same problems 1. Generators sap all powering item in the generator upon login if you put in you powering item in before you logged off 2. Colonist weenie infinity injured on your colony board once he has died and you logged out shortly after 3. Colonist not getting the food out of stockpile even when there is food 4. Colonist got interrupted during landing pad build now you cannot complete it 5. Colonists not applying first aid to other colonists when they are available 1.when you are navigating the hot bar allow us the ability to when we get to the end of the hot bar it goes back to the first slot like you go to the last slot and then you click next again and it resets 2. Towns or city’s as we’ll as explorable astroid belts for materials and you could have certain monster spawns for specific items 3. I don’t know how you would change at this moment but maybe revamp the ui for inventory and npc

Throw away account as this is the only time I have told the entire truth about myself.
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I, 27F, know I have something fundamentally wrong with me. And I always have. Even as a toddler. My father is diagnosed NPD and to say the least I did not grow up in a happy home. I grew up as my mothers protector. I would wait outside their bedroom door until odd hours in the morning if I heard them fighting just to make sure nothing ever got physical. At the same time my mother was embarrassed of me and shamed me growing up because I was a tomboy. I'm thinking this is what turned me into a little sociopath.
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My tendencies started early. I started pathologically lying as a toddler. About weird things too. I also jump at the opportunity to gossip and to manipulate the relationships around me anyway I can. It sucks being so aware of something but not being able to help yourself.
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Lets fast forward to middle school. Jaded perception of myself has already started and I think I am way more important than I am. I am not, internally I know this. I created a series of catfish profiles that lasted from grade 6 - grade 11. The people I was "falling in love with" were not random strangers they were some of my closest friends at the time. And I did not feel remorse. It did however get me in a lot of trouble and I did get sent off to a boarding school for high school.
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Fast forward to high school - I was away from my friends in a school where I knew no one. Not to mention my family was broke and this school was filled with some of the wealthiest in our city. So I lied. A lot. Also had a heightened sense of self importance there even though there was absolutely nothing significant about me. Did not get good grades. Did not have the most money. Just a mopey kid getting into trouble.
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Fast forward to today. Everything has escalated. It's worse because I have years of therapy under my belt so it's almost like I know how to be shitty better. How to seem sincere when I want to. How to make people feel special. Make people feel seen. Make people feel safe. However, quite frankly, I am none of those things. Don't get me wrong, the people I do love I love passionately and would do anything for. But that is a very, very small circle.
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No one in my life knows what actual education I have because I have lied about that. No one in my life knows what I actually do for work because I have lied about that. The life I have painted for myself makes me look pretty great, and it's mostly fool proof in regards to being able to fact check.
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Most of my friends I don't even actually like. Some of the people who think they are the closest to me I don't even care about. But I play the part that I do. Spending time with other people is exhausting even though I do get lonely.
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My therapist thinks I am a good person but even they don't know that most of what I tell them isn't even true.
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Like I said in the subject, fundamentally, something is wrong with my brain. Pretty sure I am some type of aware sociopath. My interactions with people are like moves on a chessboard. I wont ever be able to get help for this because I am too ashamed that this is how I exist.
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At least I look great on the outside.

TLDR at the bottom
I’m in a family with a handful of people who have run for and won several political positions in my hometown. One of my first cousins actually was elected mayor last month. My father was on our school board, and there’s other family who hold different elected positions on different boards.
Our hometown is not too big, it’s a city with about 150,000 people. It’s isolated from much of the rest of our state, and even with our medium size population, it’s a place where everyone kind of knows each other. Well, everyone knows my family and my last name.
With elections comes negativity. I’ve seen my family be praised, and I’ve also seen them be dragged through the mud. Everyone with a negative opinion about my politician family members tends to associate my entire family with what they believe about the politicians.
During grade school, I was made fun of a lot, and people would tell me they made fun of me because they knew my family must be rich. In other words, they treated me like crap because they assumed my family was super well off, and I have such an easy time in life so I deserve to suffer in at least one way. My immediate family is not rich by any means, but nobody believed this.
There are also personal things my family wants to hide so our last name isn’t tainted (they aren’t corrupt politicians, it’s personal things that they hide. Nothing to do with their positions at all). I have fetal alcohol syndrome. My parents hid this even from me till I found out on their own. But nobody knows this, because it would make my family look bad. Knowing that one of us (my mom) had a drinking problem during pregnancy and caused one of us (me) to be disabled could potentially harm my political family members if this information were to get out.
TLDR: people assume the worst about you, and it makes it hard to show others that you are you’re own person.

Reddit Username: PlumpPhoenix
Discord Name: plumpphoenix
Name and House: Torrhen Hornwood
Age: 21
Cultural Group: Northerner (First Men)
Religion: Old Gods
Appearance: Torrhen has short dark brown hair that is at most ear length, and is clean shaven. He is of average height but has a robust build. He is very much a warrior. He is slightly darker than the average Northman, a tan that was obtained over his years as a sellsword in Essos. He has dark gray eyes that are prototypical of a Northman. He dresses simply, wearing furs and leathers with little adornment to them. The only symbol on his clothing is that of his house, that of the bull moose. Even then, the adornment is small in size.
Trait: Strong
Skill(s): One-Handed Swords (e), Two-Handed Weapons (e), Riding , Vanguard (e), Tactician
Talent(s): Games (Board/Card), Gardening, Cooking
Negative Trait: N/A
Starting Title(s): Lord of the Hornwood
Starting Location(s): White Harbor (changed this on advice of another player)
Alternate Characters: N/A
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Bio:
Torrhen Hornwood was born the last of four children to Lord Jorah Hornwood and Lady Alys Glover. His elder siblings in order of birth are Beron Hornwood, Alaric Hornwood, and Alarra Hornwood. As the third-born son and the youngest in the family, it was generally expected that he would not inherit into any lands or holdings. In most other families, it would have been likely that Torrhen would have received a lord’s education from a Maester before going off to find his own destiny and life. However, Lord Jorah Hornwood was a man who was a meticulous planner, and assigned every child’s destiny to them shortly after birth. He had dreams of making House Hornwood a house of great repute and renown, and wished each child of his to form a part of a greater whole. Therefore, Beron Hornwood, as the eldest, was specifically trained to be the lord’s heir, to be a master of diplomacy and intrigue, to charm and to impress. Alaric, the lord’s spare, was educated in numbers and administration, so that he would serve as his brother’s steward and principle advisor. Alarra was raised to be the perfect lady, so that she might help to forge a marriage alliance with another noble house. Finally, Torrhen was raised to be a soldier, so that he might server as the master-at-arms and lead his brother’s armies. Although his father had his plans, he could be cruel in crushing his children’s other interests and hobbies.
As such, when it came to skill at arms, although all the sons received some training, it was Torrhen who was deemed the primary focus of the master-at-arms instruction, and worked in a brutal regime, drilling for hours each day every day. He was additionally brought up learning military strategy and tactics, and studying ancient battles from before and after the Conquest. He did learn what would be considered an acceptable education for a noble in numbers and letters from the Maester, but beyond that his father demanded that Torrhen focus on martial skills. This decision did not disappoint Torrhen, as he largely did not really care about nor have any particular talent or gift for numbers and administration.
He was not particularly close with any of his brothers or sister, in part due to an 6 year age gap between the younger two siblings and himself, and also due to a difference in upbringing, as the other three siblings were educated together largely under the care of the Maester, whereas Torrhen was largely educated out in the field. The only member of his family with whom he was close to was his mother, who secretly taught Torrhen how to garden, as such a hobby was considered by Lord Jorah Hornwood to be beneath Torrhen. On his 14th name day, Torrhen was given a fine crafted bastard sword as a gift and has subsequently used that blade in every battle and fight he has been in.
In 195 AC, when Torrhen came of age, Lord Jorah Hornwood announced that Torrhen would depart for Essos at once, where he would take up residency and arms among the Ragged Standard, so that he would further hone his martial skills in genuine live combat. All the necessary arrangements had been made, and Torrhen departed that evening. Whilst overseas fighting in the Disputed Lands, he became familiar with foreign cultures and developed an interest in them. During this time, he became acquainted with various board and card games that were frequently played among sellswords, and was halfway decent at them. He additionally began to learn the basic tenets of cooking, after he grew tired of eating the same gruel that the Ragged Standard called food. This skill came particularly useful during a difficult campaign in the Disputed Lands, where the sellswords of the Ragged Standard were forced to consume rats and insects to survive. However, life was not all perfect in the Hornwood. In 198 AC, Beron Hornwood disappeared without a trace one evening. Servants had opened his chamber door to find the bed neatly made and empty, with no evidence of any struggle. None of the guards had seen him depart and to this day his disappearance remains a mystery. When Lord Jorah sought to recall his second son, Alaric, home from the Free Cities where he was being educated more deeply in numbers, the ship that was carrying Alaric was destroyed in a storm and sank without even seeing White Harbor. In the face of many of his sons dying and his lifelong established plans being torn asunder, Lord Jorah died in a fit of rage.
The news of Lord Jorah and his two elder brother’s deaths only reached Torrhen in 200 AC, when he had returned to Lys after a final campaign in the Disputed Lands. Upon finding out the news, he chartered a ship to White Harbor, where he expects to assume his duties as the Lord of the Hornwood.
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Timeline:
179 AC - Torrhen Hornwood is born the fourth child of Lord Jorah Hornwood and Lady Alys Glover
183 AC - Torrhen begins learning the basics of gardening from his mother
185 AC - Torrhen begins his training in arms with the Master-at-Arms of the Hornwood
193 AC - Torrhen is gifted his bastard sword
195 AC - Torrhen departs Westeros to join the Ragged Standard and engage in combat in the Disputed Lands
197 AC - Torrhen distinguishes his skill as a commander and fighter in a difficult campaign while in the Disputed Lands.
200 AC - After returning from campaign, Torrhen discovers the news about his father and brothers and opts to return to Westeros and the North.
200 AC - Torrhen arrives in White Harbor. Present Day.
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Hornwood Family Tree
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NPCs
Alarra Hornwood: (Archetype: Castellan) Alarra is not considered a comely nor homely woman and is tall and strong, taller than Torrhen. She wears her dark brown hair with braids and it flows down to her shoulders. She possesses intelligent dark gray eyes, and has a mind suitable for administration and numbers. She enjoys wearing subtle grays and whites as color in her clothing, and wears slightly more elaborate clothing, such as fine linens and silks.
Lady Alys Glover: (Archetype: Trader) Lady Alys, the mother of Alarra and Torrhen, is still alive. She has black hair that has begun to gray, and has brown eyes that are soft. Despite her age, she still possesses a strength in her posture and eyes. She is a woman of average height and build. She dresses similar to her daughter, but wears more reds and grays in the color of her house.
Maester Walder: (Archetype: Medic) The Maester assigned to serve the Lord of the Hornwood. He is a man of middle age, with a slight receding hairline of gray hair.

Chen Li works at Mo city, he works there every day with no hope to be seen for the future… until one night. Chen Li obtains a special ability, an ability to buy “Time” and “Lifespan” from people, sell “Time” and “Lifespan” and also let things speed up “Time leap” and slow down “exhaustion time”. So he begins to build a top-class “Lifespan club”! ... Read Eternal Club - Chapter 192 - MangaPuma. Read more at https://mangapuma.com/eternal-club/chapter-192

Intended Major:
CS or Gen Engineering
Demographics:
Indian Girl, Middle Class, First in family to attend college in US
Stats:
GPA UW/ W: 3.55/4.15 (Had 1 really awful semester)APs (by end of senior year): Human Geography, Physics 1, Lang and Comp, Comp Sci A, Calc AB, Bio, Latin, US History, Comp Sci Principals, Stats, Environmental Science, Macroeconomics, Government
SAT: 1480 (taken 2x)
ACT: 32 (taken 1x)
ECs:
Helped start a Girls Troop within my local Boy Scouts Troop (currently working on eagle project to get Eagle Scout)
Advocacy leader for IL chapter of Encode Justice (Held workshops at Northwestern, Met w IL Senators)
HS Key Club Director of Communications
100+ hours of volunteering
Member of county Youth Ambassador Board
Northwestern internship (Artificial Intelligence project w assistant professor)
UIC internship (Fairness in Machine Learning Research)
Shadowed an IL General Assembly Council woman, wrote 2500 word white paper through girls lead program
Lacrosse for 2 years
Field Hockey for 2 years
Babysits part time (idk if this counts as an extra curricular)
Schools:
UIUC (Reach)
UIC (Safety)
UMD
UMASS Amherst (Reach)
TAMU
Uni Minnesota twin cities
UW Madison
Purdue (Reach)
Virginia Tech
Georgia Tech (Reach)
OSU
Case Western (Reach)
IIT
IU
RIT
Really appreciate any advice!

Hi! My name is Za. And here's my story that makes me sick of my entire life. It is how I caught my ex boyfriend's act of cheating and how he gaslighted and made me held onto it and leave me for another woman. So here's the timeline:
October 1, 2023, we finally became official after how many months of situationship. I was happy, he was happy and we even greeted each other a good morning the next day as Gfs and Bfs. So things went well, we tagged ea/o in relationships posts na makakarelate kami, we even faced every difficulties on our own. I am working, a 9-6 job and at night, I am a student, reviewing for my upcoming board exams. He was unemployed that time. We we're happy and I assisted him sa mga employment requirements, cheered him up and helped him look for a job. So I juggled different responsibilities but I didn't mind because There was never a moment na napapagod ako. Fast forward,
November 5, 2023 - my dad's birthday and my face-to-face graduation finally came. It was a double celebration. He was invitiedby my dad sa bahay namin to celeb with my family. Napakilala ko na siya sa lahat ng family members ko, they knew we were together. They were happy and tinanggap siya despite of them having this standard na dapat ang jowa ko ay graduate din and with work. We didn't mind as long as nakikita nilang hardworking yung person. So masaya kami and all.
November 06, 2023 - Morning, may klase ako sa review center, online lang naman so I can multi task and talk to him. We had an argument, kasi nafifeel kong mayron siyang kinakausap aside from me. May friend kasi siya before na tagging sa jowa postings. Tapos lagi pa siyang nagkukwento na sobrang miss na niya raw GBF niya, kaya I had this gut feeling na parang something's not right. So I tried asking him. I asked him about this certain friend na why is he tagging him sa mga jowa posts, etc. He was mad wala daw siyang ibang kausap. So I said okay, and I'm sorry. In the afternoon, on that same day, we met. We happily ate at Bok Joo chicken sa tomas morato, I even have that pic on my phone na siya ang kumuha. We ate, and while eating I have the courage to ask him "Will you allow me to study masteral next yr in America kung nasan yung kapatid ko?" HE looked at me and he paused for some time tapos saka niya sinagot na "Okay lang suportahan kita jan." He kept on saying na suportado niya ako in everything. Sa pangarap ko maging doctor, sa pagboards, sa pagmamasteral ko at sa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong abutin. Little did I know na these things will be the reason kung bakit siya magcheat. Akala ko genuine ito, but it isn't. 7pm, nasa bahay nila ako, we we're playing jokes, and nakikipaglaro ako sa bunso nilang kapatid. Inintroduce ako niya sa tita niya, pinsan niya and other family members na andon sa bahay na tinitirhan nila. after that, pinakita niya sa akin messaging app niya, saying na "Puro joyride riders na lang yung nagtetext sa akin." But my hyena eye and my flight or fight system decided to fight. So I confronted him "Bakit mayrong Bumble OTP jan sa Texts mo?" Take note, umaga ung bumble OTP same sa umagang nagkaron ako ng guts na he is talking with other woman. Tama naman pala guts ko. I checked his phone, tahimik lang siya and andon lang siya sa side ko silent treatment na naman. Di ko makita sa home screen yung bubmle app, I asked hin kung nasan, inon niya yung google playstore, naka install pero wala sa homescreen. So pano yon? hahaha. Tinignan ko, nothing flirtatious naman. Pero as a man na meron jowa, bakit ka magbumble and dating yung preference mo tas woman? Then I asked him bakit niya nagwa yon. Una, NAghahanap daw siya ng friends, kasi malayo siya sa friends. Sabi ko, I am here, your friends are there one call away. I am here, who can be a friend and a girlfriend. Saka kung Friend hanap mo, hindi dating preference mo. Halos ideny mo na nga ako eh na gf mo ko sa mga kausap mo hahaha. Second, sa sobrang defensive niya, sinabi niya ring "NAkukulangan ako sa time na binibigay mo". Ang sakit marinig nito sa taong minahal mo. Dahil 9-6 trabaho ko, gabi nagrereview ako, sinasabi mo na sinusuportahan mo ko sa mga pangarap ko, tapos maririnig ko, nakukulangan ka sa time na binibigay ko? Sabado linggo, magkasama tayo, breaktime sa offie, ikaw kausap ko. Gabi, kapag may pagkakataon, lumalabas tayong dalawa. Hindi ko alam saang lakas ng loob mo hinugot yang nakukulangan ka sa time sa akin. Huli niyang rason, "Hindi pa pala ako ready magkaron ng emotionaly and financially" tinanong ko siya bakit niya ako tinanong kung gusto ko siyang maging boyfriend, sagot niya " Andon na tayo sa moment na yon h, nagigets mo ba ako?" So yung moment na yon, yun lang yung moment na handa ka para sakin? The rest niloloko mo na lang ako? Nasira ko salamin niya, nasria ko yung dulo ng selpon niya, oo mali yon, pero hindi ko masisis sarili ko dahil sa sobrang galit ko.
Matapos ang araw na yon, naging toxic na ang lahat. Ginagaslight na niya ako na nasira ko salamin niya kung kelan niya kailangan, na pano daw kung nasira ko selpon niya edi hindi siya makakapagsimula ulit sa trabaho? Binigyan niya ako ng choco mucho na white non, dahil paborito ko iyon. Pero wala pa rin. Iyak ako nang iyak, dahil hidni ko alam kung tama pa bang ipagpatuloy yun relasyon namin.
November 11, 2023, nainvalidate ko daw lahat ng feelings niya na gusto niyang magbago, hindi naman madaling magbago at hindi rin madaling maniwala ulit, dahil nasira na yung tiawalang hiningi niya. Nakipaghiwalay na ako. Blinock ko sa rili ko sa fb niya, then blinock niya ako sa twitter.
After non, nag-uusap pa kami sa telegram, ako panga may lakas ng loob maghabol. pero ayaw na niya ayusin sarili niya para samin, para sakin. nagsend siya ng apology message at ito ang laman:
"Hi Cza! How are you? I'm glad na you're kinda okay na. ☺️ I just wanna say sorry again for cheating on you, I have no valid excuse/s, all I really wanted to say na, I sincerely apologize. I'm sorry that I did something you didn't expect. And I'm sorry for wasting your trust kahit g na g ako hingiin yung full trust mo. But I still broke it, I understand if may galit ka pa din saken. I sincerely apologize. You deserve to be happy and loved, not cheated. Sorry if I left you in the air just because I didn't see na, you're seeing me improve. It's just so hard to explain why I cheated because, there's no valid reason for doing that. The reason why I used Bumble is, 100%, just looking for company (Just to really answer your question. But I understand if you don't believe my reason kasi for dating nga naman.) Then, you didn't listened to me while I was really down and alone, nagawa mo pa ding puntiryahin yung ginawa ko than to comfort me. Dapat nga, if down moments, nandiyan ka pa din even I cheated eh, but, mas napili mong puntiryahin what I've done kahit I'm really aware na. Pero I understand, cheating is cheating. I deeply apologize for that. I know na di ka pa ready to enter a relationship again, but sana, whoever the guy you will meet, he's gonna be the best & really gives you what you really deserve. I'm also happy na may nakakausap ka na. ☺️ This is the last time that I'll a message like this and chat or reply to you, for you to move on and let go. (Pero, naiintindihan ko din if di ko mal-let go yung nag-cheat ako sayo. And I understand.) Good luck sa life Czaaaa. I hope you'll be happy always! Good luck din sa career and studies mo! This time, I'll say na you're the best girlfriend I ever had!!! Forgiving, patient, generous, friendly, and crazy at the same time!! You always deserve the best and nothing else. ☺️ Good luck ulit Czaaaaa!!! 🤗 And, good bye.
PS: Sinulat ko to while on break. Hehe"
I wasn't even talking to anyone else before. After that, I tried reaching out via a friend, but wala na talaga. As in wala na. November 11, 2023 things started to get really rough, endless tears, crying, pain, and full of questioning my self na bakit ganon? Ang sakit.
Now, It has been 7 mos, (June 06, 2023) since nung nahuli ko siya. May Bago na rin siyang Girlfriend, and that girl didn't even need to beg to be loved. Ang hapdi sa pakiramdam na ako, triggered pa rin sa lhat ng anything na pwedeng ma associate sa kaniya, na iyak pa rin ako nang iyak, pero siya, parang wala siyang inaapakang tao. He is sleeping with his new girl na hidni niya magawa with me kasi i am living with the same roof ng parents ko.
I gues ang gusto niyang relationship eh yung relationship na pwede siyang matulog sa bahay ng gf niya, and cuddle until they sleep. 100% alam kong physical touch ang love language niya. But if he can just wait for a little more time para maibigay ko yung atensyon ko ng buo to him, but he did not. He chose to be selfish and I am selfishly selfless na kasama siya sa pangarap na binubuo ko. AFter that, nagkajowa siya, nakarecruit pa siya ng mga taong who can throw hate on me. Yung friends ng gf niya bashing my hair. Yung workm8s niya na nagpaparinig when I bought sa gateway sa stall nila. I didn't even know na doon siya nagwowork. Ang weird na they know how i look like pero hindi ko alam kung sino sila. even when we were together, hindi ko naman alam na may ganong friends siya.
Then me, my friends knew what happened. Vocal ako sa soc meds but I chose to not disclose kung sino siya, ano itsura nya. Kumbaga ibash niyo na lang siya sa ginawa niya wag lang sa pagkatao niya. ako, sarili ko lang dinedepensahan ko. Siya cheater siya, ang daming dumedepensa sa kaniya. Nattrigger ako, but Okay lang. I'll live with the pain.
Until now, dumdugo pa rin yung sugat. nabblame pa nga ako na napapaoverthink ko raw yung new girl niya. I mean, bago pa siya magview ng soc meds ko, ranting na ako sa pain ko. Wala akong outlet, wala akong safe spacce. wala akong ginagawa sa new girl niya, nanahimik socmeds ko, di kosiya kilala not until nagNGL sila at nagmessage siya sakin. :) Ginawa tayong panabong ng jowa mo na ex ko ate girl hahahaha. Pinag-away tayo.
For you, I was never ok. remember, situationship pa lang gusto ko nang magdetach kasi pinoprotektahan ko puso ko. But you kept on holding me and ako naman tanga, humahawak pa rin. sana hinayaan mo na lang ako na umalis. kung sasaktan mo lang pala ako.
Mahaba but yun lang.

Hi! My name is Za. And here's my story that makes me sick of my entire life. It is how I caught my ex boyfriend's act of cheating and how he gaslighted and made me held onto it and leave me for another woman. So here's the timeline:
October 1, 2023, we finally became official after how many months of situationship. I was happy, he was happy and we even greeted each other a good morning the next day as Gfs and Bfs. So things went well, we tagged ea/o in relationships posts na makakarelate kami, we even faced every difficulties on our own. I am working, a 9-6 job and at night, I am a student, reviewing for my upcoming board exams. He was unemployed that time. We we're happy and I assisted him sa mga employment requirements, cheered him up and helped him look for a job. So I juggled different responsibilities but I didn't mind because There was never a moment na napapagod ako. Fast forward,
November 5, 2023 - my dad's birthday and my face-to-face graduation finally came. It was a double celebration. He was invitiedby my dad sa bahay namin to celeb with my family. Napakilala ko na siya sa lahat ng family members ko, they knew we were together. They were happy and tinanggap siya despite of them having this standard na dapat ang jowa ko ay graduate din and with work. We didn't mind as long as nakikita nilang hardworking yung person. So masaya kami and all.
November 06, 2023 - Morning, may klase ako sa review center, online lang naman so I can multi task and talk to him. We had an argument, kasi nafifeel kong mayron siyang kinakausap aside from me. May friend kasi siya before na tagging sa jowa postings. Tapos lagi pa siyang nagkukwento na sobrang miss na niya raw GBF niya, kaya I had this gut feeling na parang something's not right. So I tried asking him. I asked him about this certain friend na why is he tagging him sa mga jowa posts, etc. He was mad wala daw siyang ibang kausap. So I said okay, and I'm sorry. In the afternoon, on that same day, we met. We happily ate at Bok Joo chicken sa tomas morato, I even have that pic on my phone na siya ang kumuha. We ate, and while eating I have the courage to ask him "Will you allow me to study masteral next yr in America kung nasan yung kapatid ko?" HE looked at me and he paused for some time tapos saka niya sinagot na "Okay lang suportahan kita jan." He kept on saying na suportado niya ako in everything. Sa pangarap ko maging doctor, sa pagboards, sa pagmamasteral ko at sa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong abutin. Little did I know na these things will be the reason kung bakit siya magcheat. Akala ko genuine ito, but it isn't. 7pm, nasa bahay nila ako, we we're playing jokes, and nakikipaglaro ako sa bunso nilang kapatid. Inintroduce ako niya sa tita niya, pinsan niya and other family members na andon sa bahay na tinitirhan nila. after that, pinakita niya sa akin messaging app niya, saying na "Puro joyride riders na lang yung nagtetext sa akin." But my hyena eye and my flight or fight system decided to fight. So I confronted him "Bakit mayrong Bumble OTP jan sa Texts mo?" Take note, umaga ung bumble OTP same sa umagang nagkaron ako ng guts na he is talking with other woman. Tama naman pala guts ko. I checked his phone, tahimik lang siya and andon lang siya sa side ko silent treatment na naman. Di ko makita sa home screen yung bubmle app, I asked hin kung nasan, inon niya yung google playstore, naka install pero wala sa homescreen. So pano yon? hahaha. Tinignan ko, nothing flirtatious naman. Pero as a man na meron jowa, bakit ka magbumble and dating yung preference mo tas woman? Then I asked him bakit niya nagwa yon. Una, NAghahanap daw siya ng friends, kasi malayo siya sa friends. Sabi ko, I am here, your friends are there one call away. I am here, who can be a friend and a girlfriend. Saka kung Friend hanap mo, hindi dating preference mo. Halos ideny mo na nga ako eh na gf mo ko sa mga kausap mo hahaha. Second, sa sobrang defensive niya, sinabi niya ring "NAkukulangan ako sa time na binibigay mo". Ang sakit marinig nito sa taong minahal mo. Dahil 9-6 trabaho ko, gabi nagrereview ako, sinasabi mo na sinusuportahan mo ko sa mga pangarap ko, tapos maririnig ko, nakukulangan ka sa time na binibigay ko? Sabado linggo, magkasama tayo, breaktime sa offie, ikaw kausap ko. Gabi, kapag may pagkakataon, lumalabas tayong dalawa. Hindi ko alam saang lakas ng loob mo hinugot yang nakukulangan ka sa time sa akin. Huli niyang rason, "Hindi pa pala ako ready magkaron ng emotionaly and financially" tinanong ko siya bakit niya ako tinanong kung gusto ko siyang maging boyfriend, sagot niya " Andon na tayo sa moment na yon h, nagigets mo ba ako?" So yung moment na yon, yun lang yung moment na handa ka para sakin? The rest niloloko mo na lang ako? Nasira ko salamin niya, nasria ko yung dulo ng selpon niya, oo mali yon, pero hindi ko masisis sarili ko dahil sa sobrang galit ko.
Matapos ang araw na yon, naging toxic na ang lahat. Ginagaslight na niya ako na nasira ko salamin niya kung kelan niya kailangan, na pano daw kung nasira ko selpon niya edi hindi siya makakapagsimula ulit sa trabaho? Binigyan niya ako ng choco mucho na white non, dahil paborito ko iyon. Pero wala pa rin. Iyak ako nang iyak, dahil hidni ko alam kung tama pa bang ipagpatuloy yun relasyon namin.
November 11, 2023, nainvalidate ko daw lahat ng feelings niya na gusto niyang magbago, hindi naman madaling magbago at hindi rin madaling maniwala ulit, dahil nasira na yung tiawalang hiningi niya. Nakipaghiwalay na ako. Blinock ko sa rili ko sa fb niya, then blinock niya ako sa twitter.
After non, nag-uusap pa kami sa telegram, ako panga may lakas ng loob maghabol. pero ayaw na niya ayusin sarili niya para samin, para sakin. nagsend siya ng apology message at ito ang laman:
"Hi Cza! How are you? I'm glad na you're kinda okay na. ☺️ I just wanna say sorry again for cheating on you, I have no valid excuse/s, all I really wanted to say na, I sincerely apologize. I'm sorry that I did something you didn't expect. And I'm sorry for wasting your trust kahit g na g ako hingiin yung full trust mo. But I still broke it, I understand if may galit ka pa din saken. I sincerely apologize. You deserve to be happy and loved, not cheated. Sorry if I left you in the air just because I didn't see na, you're seeing me improve. It's just so hard to explain why I cheated because, there's no valid reason for doing that. The reason why I used Bumble is, 100%, just looking for company (Just to really answer your question. But I understand if you don't believe my reason kasi for dating nga naman.) Then, you didn't listened to me while I was really down and alone, nagawa mo pa ding puntiryahin yung ginawa ko than to comfort me. Dapat nga, if down moments, nandiyan ka pa din even I cheated eh, but, mas napili mong puntiryahin what I've done kahit I'm really aware na. Pero I understand, cheating is cheating. I deeply apologize for that. I know na di ka pa ready to enter a relationship again, but sana, whoever the guy you will meet, he's gonna be the best & really gives you what you really deserve. I'm also happy na may nakakausap ka na. ☺️ This is the last time that I'll a message like this and chat or reply to you, for you to move on and let go. (Pero, naiintindihan ko din if di ko mal-let go yung nag-cheat ako sayo. And I understand.) Good luck sa life Czaaaa. I hope you'll be happy always! Good luck din sa career and studies mo! This time, I'll say na you're the best girlfriend I ever had!!! Forgiving, patient, generous, friendly, and crazy at the same time!! You always deserve the best and nothing else. ☺️ Good luck ulit Czaaaaa!!! 🤗 And, good bye.
PS: Sinulat ko to while on break. Hehe"
I wasn't even talking to anyone else before. After that, I tried reaching out via a friend, but wala na talaga. As in wala na. November 11, 2023 things started to get really rough, endless tears, crying, pain, and full of questioning my self na bakit ganon? Ang sakit.
Now, It has been 7 mos, (June 06, 2023) since nung nahuli ko siya. May Bago na rin siyang Girlfriend, and that girl didn't even need to beg to be loved. Ang hapdi sa pakiramdam na ako, triggered pa rin sa lhat ng anything na pwedeng ma associate sa kaniya, na iyak pa rin ako nang iyak, pero siya, parang wala siyang inaapakang tao. He is sleeping with his new girl na hidni niya magawa with me kasi i am living with the same roof ng parents ko.
I gues ang gusto niyang relationship eh yung relationship na pwede siyang matulog sa bahay ng gf niya, and cuddle until they sleep. 100% alam kong physical touch ang love language niya. But if he can just wait for a little more time para maibigay ko yung atensyon ko ng buo to him, but he did not. He chose to be selfish and I am selfishly selfless na kasama siya sa pangarap na binubuo ko. AFter that, nagkajowa siya, nakarecruit pa siya ng mga taong who can throw hate on me. Yung friends ng gf niya bashing my hair. Yung workm8s niya na nagpaparinig when I bought sa gateway sa stall nila. I didn't even know na doon siya nagwowork. Ang weird na they know how i look like pero hindi ko alam kung sino sila. even when we were together, hindi ko naman alam na may ganong friends siya.
Then me, my friends knew what happened. Vocal ako sa soc meds but I chose to not disclose kung sino siya, ano itsura nya. Kumbaga ibash niyo na lang siya sa ginawa niya wag lang sa pagkatao niya. ako, sarili ko lang dinedepensahan ko. Siya cheater siya, ang daming dumedepensa sa kaniya. Nattrigger ako, but Okay lang. I'll live with the pain.
Until now, dumdugo pa rin yung sugat. nabblame pa nga ako na napapaoverthink ko raw yung new girl niya. I mean, bago pa siya magview ng soc meds ko, ranting na ako sa pain ko. Wala akong outlet, wala akong safe spacce. wala akong ginagawa sa new girl niya, nanahimik socmeds ko, di kosiya kilala not until nagNGL sila at nagmessage siya sakin. :) Ginawa tayong panabong ng jowa mo na ex ko ate girl hahahaha. Pinag-away tayo.
For you, I was never ok. remember, situationship pa lang gusto ko nang magdetach kasi pinoprotektahan ko puso ko. But you kept on holding me and ako naman tanga, humahawak pa rin. sana hinayaan mo na lang ako na umalis. kung sasaktan mo lang pala ako.
Mahaba but yun lang.

Date: 06/08/2023
Reading time: 9 minutes, 1872 words

The units of the Azerbaijani armed forces open fire in the direction of the Armenian positions in Gegharkunik

Azerbaijani forces opened fire on Armenian positions in the Tretuk sector, Gegharkunik Province. The Armenian side has no casualties.

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Red Cross visits kidnapped Armenian servicemen in Azerbaijani detention

Representatives of the International Committee of the Red Cross (ICRC) have visited the two Armenian servicemen who were kidnapped by the Azerbaijani military and jailed. Private conversations took place, and they also helped them to make contact with their families.

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Azerbaijan violates Nagorno Karabakh ceasefire

Azerbaijani forces violated the ceasefire in Nagorno Karabakh in the early hours of June 8, the Ministry of Defense said. The situation on the line of contact is relatively stable, the ministry said. Azerbaijan continues to spread disinformation, trying to substantiate the regular ceasefire violations committed by its units.

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Military universities will merge

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Armenia makes every effort to encourage the development of "North-South" and "East-West" directions. Prime Minister

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Azerbaijan attempts to derail agreements, Armenia warns at meeting of CSTO Security Council chiefs

Secretary of the Security Council of Armenia Armen Grigoryan delivered a speech on June 8 at the CSTO meeting of Security Council Secretaries. He said Azerbaijan continues to escalate the situation on the Armenian-Azerbaijani border and Nagorno Karabakh.

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Prime Minister Pashinyan participates in CIS Council of Heads of Government session

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Russia ready to discuss financial issues on building new nuclear power plant in Armenia, says PM Mishustin

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Belarusian leader Lukashenko calls on Armenia and Azerbaijan to find mutually acceptable solution

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Russia aims to block EU from hosting COP29 summit, potentially leaving Armenia and Azerbaijan as contenders - report

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Armenia eager to develop ties with UK, Speaker Simonyan tells Leader of House of Commons Penny Mordaunt

Speaker of Parliament of Armenia Alen Simonyan and his delegation met with Penny Mordaunt, the Leader of the House of Commons of the UK Parliament. The delegation also discussed regional security with their British colleagues and presented the situation resulting from Azerbaijan aggression.

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At CSTO, Armenia’s Security Council chief calls for targeted assessment of the situation in Artsakh

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Russia has no long-term strategic plans in Artsakh. Lilit Gevorgyan

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Armenian Foreign Minister speaks with new Turkish counterpart

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Germany expects immediate release of Armenian POWs kept in Azerbaijan

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Semi-precious stones, precious metals, machinery named top Armenian exports in January-April

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The CSTO countries intend to increase the number of joint exercises

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Armenian President receives Maren Jasper-Winter, member of Executive Board of Friedrich Naumann Foundation for Freedom

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Speaker meets SNP’s Drew Hendry, calls for cooperation between Armenia’s self-governing municipalities and Scotland

Speaker of Parliament Alen Simonyan and members of his delegation have met with Drew Hendry, Member of Parliament of the United Kingdom representing the Scottish National Party. Regional challenges, post-war issues and consequences were discussed at the meeting, the Armenian parliament’s press service said.

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Armenian metal smelting plant will continue its activities in the border area irrespective of Azerbaijan's complaint

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Armenian Minister, German Ambassador discuss the possibility of concluding a migration partnership agreement

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ICJ ruling on Azeri checkpoint in Lachin Corridor expected soon

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2 Ukrainian-Armenians affected in Kakhovka Dam collapse

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In Syunik, United States Ambassador to Armenia observes tense situation at border with Azerbaijan

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Turkey's lira plunges 7.6% to record low

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Christian Lawmakers urged to de-platform Azerbaijan ambassador

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25; graduated with a masters in advertising in December 2020. Bachelors in marketing. Division 1 cross country at 2 of the top schools in the country.
Ended up having to take a job in my hometown because of the COVID job scene. Currently in commercial hvac sales account management. A little over 2 years in the role
I always wanted to do creative advertising strategy, but I have been applying to jobs for the better part of the last 1.5 years and had no luck. The places I apply to don’t even give me a chance to vouch for myself or really take any time at all to look at my experience etc. I often get told that I’m in hvac and not advertising.
The whole interview process and learning about these companies has made me kind of hate it and shattered the image I had in my head about the job/industry. It seems to be very low pay high work/stress/hours with somewhat high turnover. It also seems very robotic and like “let’s circle back !!” fake lingo. I’m not sure if that’s just the places I talk to or it’s across the board. I have talked to a lot of places.
So I’m miserable in the small town I live in and would like to move. I’ve dreamed most of my life of living in Chicago. I cannot find a job there no matter what I do. I have tried marketing, advertising, and sales account management. Also construction and engineering companies. I’ve tried reaching out to people on LinkedIn and email. I’ve tried people I know. I’ve had atleast 30 people from ~my network~ give me referrals and often it’s the same old shit of how I don’t have this wildly specific qualification.
I’ve even tried reaching out to hvac places, but many of them are only looking for super experienced people or they are super far out in the suburbs. I’ve also been told my advertising degree disqualifies me from the job, even though I have it now.
So anyway my lease is up at the end of the month and I’ve decided to say f it and try my luck moving without a job. For me the thought of spending another year in the small city makes me question the point of it all. Everybody here is getting married and hanging out with the same friends they’ve had since HS and unwilling to expand. There is no young single ambitious energy. I have enough in savings /investments to pay the lease multiple times over, and I am 100% debt free.
I am not sure what to do with my career now. It feels like all paths lead to a conveyor belt robotic life. I also feel like I have tried everything and can’t even get the conveyor belt job. Honestly at this point I borderline don’t care what I do as long as it’s like remote and pays well. Would also consider an office job if it wasn’t super micromanaged.
Just not sure where to go here. It just feels like all paths lead to going to a job with people who hate their life and I’m going to be another one of them in 20 years

Basics

My wife and I spent 14 days in Japan in May 2023, our first time in Japan (or anywhere in Asia). We usually got between 8-12 miles daily, though some of that was somewhat by choice, as in places like Hiroshima the transit within the city takes nearly as long as walking, and walking is preferrable to see and experience the city.
All the tips on here and those answering questions on Discord really helped plan things.

What I learned

Pay attention to the square footage of your room. We got a room at an APA in Osaka where it was literally impossible for both of us to stand up simultaneously. Luckily all of our subsequent hotels had room for us both to get dressed at the same time.
Get hotels with onsens/spas. We booked exclusively hotels with onsens/spas. This was crucial. It’s such a great day-ender to go up there for a soak in the hot/cold pools and sauna. They give you robes/lounge clothes and slippers to wear up there. It’s just incredibly cozy. Made me wish it was winter.
Japan is super easy to travel, the easiest country I’ve been to. It seems the country as a whole and everyone in it is extremely detail oriented and considers every possible issue. I’ve never seen workers tasked with holding up a screen for pedestrian protection around a man trimming the lawn until Japan. I’ve never seen a tour bus driver feather-dusting his bus until Japan. Everyone is so calm. I think I heard one person yell in two weeks. Everybody was super patient with our lack of Japanese and general lack of knowledge of their culture.
Note: We’re not really foodies. When traveling we usually just eat whenever we get so hungry that we must, plus the Japanese cuisine doesn’t mesh with our tastes, so this will be light on food.

Day by day

Day 0: Arrived at Haneda in the afternoon, got PASMO cards and caught train to Shinagawa. Then we took the Nozomi to Osaka, purchasing tickets in advance via Smart-Ex. All went smoothly despite the jet lag.
Day 1: Osaka. Mini-pig café, Don Quijote, wandered the neighborhood to the northeast of Umeda Station checking out shops, finished the day in a small bar in Dotonbori.
Day 2: Osaka area. In the morning, we rode out to Nara to see Todai-Ji and the bowing deer. The temple was stunning. In the afternoon, we went to a Hanshin Tigers game, which was great, though we were baking in the sun. It’s crazy how many beer vendors Japanese baseball games have. I didn’t go 30 seconds without a beer girl passing by. We ended the day with dinner at Snow Lion, a Nepali restaurant that was extremely tasty.
Day 3: We activated our JR West Sanyo-San-in Area passes and headed west on the bullet train then a slow Sanyo Line train, bound for Onomichi. I rented a bike from Trek, took the ferry to Setoda and rode the Shimanami Kaido. I rode a bit south after I got off the ferry in Setoda, across the next big bridge. Then I turned around and biked back to Onomichi. It was a beautiful ride, but the parts near the Onomichi end could be skipped. Too much traffic and development. While I did this, my wife wandered around Onomichi, visiting Cat Alley and taking a ropeway ride. After that, we met up and headed for Ōkunoshima, aka Rabbit Island. This was a cool little side trip, but not sure it was worth the time expenditure. Finally, we ended the long day traveling to Hiroshima to check into our hotel. Family Mart was our main meal, because the restaurants in Tadano-Umi were all closed on Monday, and we had time to kill before the next train back to Mihara.
Day 4: We took a train and ferry trip to Miyajima and took the ropeway to the top, then walked the rest of the way to the top. It’s a beautiful island, but pretty tourist trap-ish. Later in the day we picked up Carp tickets for a future date, then checked out the Atomic Bomb Dome at night. The main meal, at Okonomiyaki Teppan-yaki Momiji-Tei, was extremely good Okonomiyaki.
Day 5: Day trip to Hakata, with a stop for the Hello Kitty exhibition at a hall near Shin-Yamaguchi Station. After Hello Kitty, we headed to Nanzoin, the reclining buddha statue and temple. It’s a wonderful place, the nice ladies at the train station will loan you some cover-up cloth if you have tattoos or your shorts are too short. After Nanzoin, we got some Hakata ramen at Ramen Stadium in the giant mall, then wandered the streets of Hakata a bit, stopping at Kushida-jinja Shrine. Back in Hiroshima that evening, we visited Sam’s Café, an American-themed bar with more memorabilia than you’d think possible. The proprietor is a wonderful older gentleman who loves America.
Day 6: We started the day at the Peace Museum. This is an extremely moving visit. A late breakfast here featured the fluffiest egg souffle I’ve ever seen. Later, we went to the Carp game.
Day 7: Shinkansen to Himeji Castle. We scheduled ourselves a four-hour layover, which was just about perfect to walk up there, see the castle and walk through it, check out the garden, and walk back without feeling rushed and with time to grab train snacks. Then we caught the Super Hakuto to Kurayoshi where we met a friend and ended the day with some onsen time at Izanro Iwasaki in Misasa Onsen.
Day 8: Tottori Sand Dunes, Sand Museum and a trip to Refresh park Yumura, which is a very nice onsen with the standard indoor, gender-separated areas, plus some cool outdoor spots for all genders, including a little cave. You wear a swimsuit for the outdoor parts.
Day 9: I wasn’t feeling great, so I did nothing while my wife and friends went to Lake Togo area near Kurayoshi for a waterfall hike. Then we boarded the Super Hakuto for Kyoto, where we stayed.
Day 10: We got an early start to see as many temples as possible in Kyoto before our 1pm train to Tokyo. We were able to get to Kiyomizu-dera, Ginkakuji and Shimogamo-jinja before time ran out. We used the city bus, which wasn’t that bad. They weren’t quite on time and we had to let a couple pass by at the very start of our day because they were too crowded. We added our PASMO card numbers into the Smart-Ex app so boarding the Shinkansen was super easy. In Tokyo, we stayed in Ueno, which was a great spot with good accessibility to the rest of the city and lots of action and places to eat and drink.
Day 11: We started with a trip to Sanrio Puroland, which took even longer than planned due to some train delays. Our train went out of service at some point on the trip. Puroland is kind of odd. But it wasn’t too expensive and my wife loved it. On the way back we stopped at Gotokuji Temple, the waving cat temple and later caught a glimpse of the waving cat train at the nearby Miyanosaka Station. For a nightcap, we checked out Asakusa Rockza.
Day 12: Shopping/sightseeing in Akihabara. Yodobashi Camera is absolutely massive. I preferred it over Bic Camera. After some other miscellaneous shopping near Tokyo Station, we later walked from our hotel over to this cat-themed bar.
Day 13: Near Nippori Station there’s a cat-centric neighborhood, Yanaka Cat Town. We stopped at a cat store or two as well as a cat art gallery. I got a great foot massage in this area, as well. This area was so cool we skipped out on our tickets to TeamLabs. For a nightcap, we went to one place in Golden Gai. That area is absolutely overrun with tourists.
Day 14: It was super rainy, and we didn’t have all that much time to kill before our flight, so we checked out the Tobu train museum. Definitely worth a visit if you like trains. Though kind of hard to figure out how to drive the trains if you don’t speak Japanese. Then we proceeded to Narita on the Skyliner. Note, there’s a slight discount for foreigners if you buy online.

Tell me if you think it's canon worthy, compared to my new version...
THEDARKLORD2000's avatar THEDARKLORD2000 Jul 7, 2022 Premium Galleries T LITERATURE The Origin of The Silver Bandit Deviation Actions
Literature Text Name - The Silver Bandit
Real Name - Aliza Yashnikov
Age - 26
Height - 5'6"
Weight - 115 lb
Eye Color - Green
Hair Color - Silver
Occupation - Owns Silver Sword ind. , and is a trained surgical assistant
Allies - The Vengeance, Silver Sword, Heather Raven, Meghan Taylor, The Dutchess and Phillip Edwin
Foes - The Defenders of Earth, Roger Crilly, A.U.S.S.I, and The Assassin's Organization
Powers - highly trained assassin, martial artist, markswoman, swordswoman, Olympic-level gymnast, also has super strength (up to 12 tons), heightened senses including; foresight, pre-cognition, combat empowerment, and durability, also has probability manipulation, as well as longevity.
Origin Story - At just the age of 9 her father shot her mother and used her to get away, after that incident she wandered southern Russia eventually being captured by war trafficker's, after a few months she managed to escape and continued to wander around eventually coming across France who in which a police officer found her and put her in a foster home.
She stayed with a kind and loving family for almost 3 years until one day they were walking down a street and her foster parents were assassinated, she ran from the scene being chased by the assassinators coming up to a dock and boarded a cargo ship, she got on just as it was leaving escaping her assailants.
She ventured off hiding in a cargo crate, ending up in New York City, she lived on the street for a long while until a young man found her, he gave her his sandwich and revealed himself to be Roger Crilly, He brought her to his building and gave her a room to stay in.
After a few months she grew to trust him, and he offered her a way to get back at the people that hurt her, she of course reluctantly agreed, he took her to a room where a man named Dr Wilson was, they gave her a special serum that made her super strong and she began training under Roger's wing.
One day she was tested by having to kill an unknown man, at first she resisted but she ended up killing the man anyway, Roger knew she was ready, he gave her a job to go and kill his older brother Charlie, who was in a hospital in LA do to a cancer in his brain, she went off with Roger's other brother Jett and poisoned Charlie.
Aliza came back victorious earning her right as an official Assassin member, eventually she met another assassin named Reed Smith, whom she fell in love with, one day she found out she was pregnant and tried to hide it from Roger, who ended up finding out anyway.
He attempted to kill the child before it was born but Aliza fought back, and ended up on the run, she came up to Reed who reveled that he was indeed a clone of the original who died several years ago because of treason, she fought him vigorously, but Jett ended the fight by shooting the clone through the skull.
Jett helped Aliza hide from his younger brother, Jett eventually reveled that the man she had shot long ago was in fact her father, he helped her find a safe place to live which was in LA where she started a new life under the name Alisha Young and became an assistant surgical nurse to Aaron Thompson.
After a few years she reveled to Aaron (who was the Vengeance) that she was the Silver Bandit, to in which he of course thought that was the coolest thing he ever heard, they helped each other on missions every now and then.
While she was acting as a nurse, she started a new company where refuge assassin's could stay and help people who needed it most, she ended up being one of the many heroes who died due to the actions of the Dark Lord, but was eventually ( along with everyone else) revived a couple decades later, when she came back she found out her son was an adult and older than her in fact, and was carrying her name as the Silver Bandit.
He of course willingly gave her, her title back and named himself the Black Mamba, she continued to work as a vigilante sometimes helping the main heroes and even ended up helping Charlette Swiftly ( Charlie's granddaughter) fight Charlie and his team, after the fight ceased with Charlie in a coma, she went back to fight crime off the streets and ultimately gave up her life fighting the Dark Redeemers.

One of my bridesmaids, my cousin who I’m very close with, is driving me a little crazy. And I hate typing that because I love her to death.
She’s in an open relationship, which is great and seems to work for her. We had an engagement party with all the wedding party members a few months ago and she hit it off with a groomsman, who is also in an open relationship. Great, awesome, good for them. I’m all for good people sharing good times as long as it’s consensual. They hooked up. It didn’t go well.
Apparently his partner was upset from the beginning. Now my cousin tells me that her partner is also upset, after the fact. Apparently her partner is considering not even coming to the wedding now (which is unfortunate because I really like her) and I’m getting the sense that she (my cousin’s partner) blames me. Which I guess is fine if she needs somewhere to place blame that isn’t herself or her partner. But it’s a little frustrating because I never wanted or encouraged them to get together and it has caused some tension within my own relationship because FH is not a fan of the situation at all. Apparently his groomsmen is also claiming that he “caught feelings” for my bridesmaid. Which is also frustrating because as I understood it, they are both emotionally committed to their partners but have situations where they can sleep with others in a purely physical context. So it’s none of my business but he keeps dragging my FH into it by venting to him and then my FH is all tense but doesn’t want to talk to me about it because it involves my cousin.
Now we have a bacheloette coming up where we are renting a place in the city near us with all the bridal party members. My cousin is stressing out about everything from the cost, to what everyone will eat and when, to what appliances and dish-ware will be in the house. My partner and I are covering significant portions of the cost and planning energy - we are buying all the food and alcohol to stock the rental house for the weekend, we found and rented the location and house with approval and input from the group, FH will be cooking dinner for everyone on the first night. My sister (MOH) is putting together a weekend plan that is specific enough that we have a few options for meals, activities, and entertainment without it being so stringent that everyone will feel forced into activities they might not enjoy or be able to afford. My stance from the beginning is that if anyone can’t or doesn’t want to participate in anything for any reason, there’s no judgment from us.
One bridesmaid declined to attend completely due to other commitments, a groomsman will be leaving early due to a work thing, and a few people have opted out of certain activities that they aren’t interested in or don’t want to pay for, which is more than fine. It’s a group of 20 total so my hope is that splitting up into smaller groups won’t be weird.
Months ago my cousin told me that she wanted to take a more significant role in the planning and was prepared to take on larger costs because she’s a few years older than me and my siste MOH and can handle additional responsibilities.
She just called me and had a lot of vague concerns about “everyone’s” ability to stay fed and hydrated and well rested through the whole weekend. She doesn’t know the rest of the group. So far, everyone has told me and my MOH that they’re down for the plans that have been proposed (which include a ba club night - something I specifically requested). Most of my friends and I are all in our mid-20’s and enjoy city nightlife (maybe because we feel COVID stole our early 20’s? Idk.) My cousin wants to change all the plans around and keeps saying that she thinks we (me, my partner, and my MOH) “don’t understand how to plan for such a large group” and that we “don’t realize that everyone will get cranky if they’re too tired or hungry”.
We have built in rest time to the schedule, all meals, and as I said, FH and I are buying all the groceries/ food to have in the house for the weekend.
It feels like she basically wants to sleep and lounge around a box of pizza all weekend. Now she’s giving me one word answers and silence so I can tell she’s upset. Our plans were communicated months ago and she kept saying she was totally on board and that she wants to make sure the weekend is “everything I want it to be.” But now it feels like if we do anything other than what she wants, she’ll be upset.
My general feeling is that we are all adults, not 5 year olds, and if someone needs time or wants to opt out of an activity they can do that. A number of people already have, so I feel like I’m not being unreasonable. Everyone else has praised us on how this whole thing seems so fun and feels so inclusive and welcoming.
But who knows. Maybe I’m a bridezilla who shouldn’t ever want to have fun in my life.