Hotel near little caesars arena

Since this a hot topic for day pass holders, allow me to share my experience as a premium pass holder.
Warning: long post ahead. Ibigay niyo na sakin to, 20 f*cking K ang ibinayad ko. Ignore niyo na kung may typo or wrong grammar. pagod & disappointed after conquest. Uunahin ko pa ba magproofread?
This is my personal experience. I do not represent all premium pass holders.
I bought premium pass with one goal in mind: I WANT TO MEET OTV&F ESPECIALLY THE ROOMIES! I don’t care about the music night nor the booths. I just want to meet them.
D1: I was not able to attend due to personal reasons so I did not meet Queen Poki, Michael and Aria. I thought it was okay to skip D1 cos I still get to see them on D3 (Smx main stage: Offline Feud)
D2: I enjoyed the booths. They sell cool stuff. My only comment is that it’s so crowded. I tried roaming around hoping I can see other OTV&F, but Im not lucky enough.
Mainstage: sykkuno’s valo match: no priority given to premium pass holders. If you want to get a spot near the stage, you have to be early. People camped near the stage hrs before the program, So I ended up watching the match at the far back. sykkuno’s valorant match is insanely long (21-19) but I still enjoyed it.
(Ok, this is kinda my fault. I assumed the m&g will be similar to Twitchcon m&g) BOY WAS I WRONG. It’s more similar to a KPOP M&G. NO F*CKING SIGNATURES ALLOWED. Lilypichu & Igumdrop M&G: Fans got 10-20sec to meet each of them. Staffs alternately get 4 premium pass holders and 2 day pass holders. The 2 girls are really pretty and nice. I got a decent pic with Jaime but my pic with Lily is a disaster. It’s blurred AF + it’s off centered: imagine a full body picture except Lily’s whole shoes were cut off & there’s only 2 of us but you can easily insert a third person beside me. Ps: I also heard some premium pass holders were asked to wait on the first floor for a few mins cos the area for premium pass is full.
Tried music night for the sake of it. Artists are great but you can tell that most of the crowd are just waiting for The rose. I ended up enjoying it cos I got to listen to new artists (I dont know any of the artists, not even the rose). Good thing they have a bar. The cocktails are also okay for its price. Tried all 3 cocktails. Yung light ang nagdala. Char. I liked URF the most.
D3: this is the most impt day for me. Initial sched published: 11-12:30 rae,syk,leslie m&g (conrad) 2-3 roomies panel (conrad) 4:30-5:30 offline feud (smx mainstage)
I already planned my sched for D3 but lo & behold, @12:55AM, Conquest announced that they are moving the roomies panel to a new venue: MOA Atrium stage. A PUBLIC PLACE. They literally moved a supposedly private event to a public place + they moved the sched to 3:30-4:30. right before OTV Feud. If you want to watch both, you have to run from MOA atrium to smx mainstage.
M&G: the staff announced that instead of having individual pictures, we’ll have a group photo (3 fans + the roomies). This is to accommodate more fans. You can clearly see the disappointment from premium pass holders. Imagine paying 20k, only to get a group photo with the roomies + 2 strangers. And since you have 2 strangers also wanting to talk to them, i ended up just hugging them cos the staff is in a hurry. What an experience. 🙃
Now I have a picture of me, rae, leslie, sykkuno and 2 strangers. THIS IS THE ONLY MEMORY THAT I HAVE OF RAE. Lol. I got to have a little chat with Rae’s mom and sister + a solo pic with the 2 of them while queuing and I must say, I enjoyed that more.
Roomies panel: ended up not seeing this. They said people started camping at the atrium as early as 10am. @1pm, there’s so many people waiting already so I decided to prioritize otv feud instead since I am yet to see poki, aria & michael.
Offline feud: Went there @2 hoping I can still secure a spot near the stage) when I got there, people were already camping in front and no vacant seats left. At this point, I’m just mentally tired of all the disappointments that I just accepted the fact that this is not my lucky day. So I just sat on floor at the side while waiting for them to arrive. I still watched their segment and I must say, Poki eating Jollibee while playing is a really good advertisement.
Highlight of my D3: Funniest thing is that I got more decent pictures with Yvonne & Blau and I only got Blau, Leslie and Yvonne’s signature, which I got OUTSIDE CONQUEST (around 9-10AM @starbucks). YES. OUTSIDE CONQUEST. Fans started camping starbucks cos there’s higher chance of us meeting them there than inside SMX. LOL. I feel bad for the streamers tho. i think they got culture shocked. 🙃
And now I realized. I bought the premium pass because of the roomies but I ended up having the worst memory with them. I have a better memory of all the other things except the one that I was looking forward to. Idk what I did wrong. Maybe I’m just unlucky.
Note: all of them are so nice and pretty and I have mad respect to all of them for enduring PH’s heat and their patience especially when they’re getting swarmed by fans when all they ever wanted is to buy a cup of coffee, but damn, this event is so messed up in so many level. I hope they did not get traumatized and would still want to come back here in the future.
So yeah, is my experience worth 20k? You be the judge.

ive been writing down a list of suggestions i think would be fun to add to the game and wanted to post em here to see other peoples thoughts!! its a little longer than i thought it was but i wanted to offer explanations and examples of what uses i thought the suggestions could have.

• a hotel: i think it would be interesting both from a gameplay standpoint and an actual useful standpoint to have a hotel system. pay at the front desk for x amount of time (one night, one week, etc) and you can use that room while you search for an apartment (if thats how you play) or just to have a place to shower and dry off later.

it could also add an interesting feature of having people visit from out of town and maybe if a murderer is an out of towner, the case could go cold if they leave town.

• more npc interactions: just having more dialogue options with npcs would be really nice. for example, i was investigating a murder and i ended up finding the partner of the victim who didnt know their partner was dead, and i really wish id been able to say like, hey this person has died.

and i know others have mentioned a friendship system of some sort with other people, which i think would also be nice. friends would be more willing to give information, and if you had to pay them for info, it could take the form of buying drinks/dinner.

• more non-work and home spaces: more spaces for npcs to hang out and be found. hell even if the npcs could sit around the park(s) and chat, it would be a fun addition!

ik the game is a dystopia, so it makes sense there are fewer places, but i think it would be neat to see people at least doing SOMETHING else besides work and home? see them doing more things. or at least do things at the places we have; seeing them going to the clinics, to the pawn shops, the grocers, that sort of thing. make it feel more lived in.

• character appearance: but this is just the life sim in me who loves to dress up all of the characters i play as but it would also be nice to have more things to spend money on, clothes and shoes etc.

the clothing could and SHOULD have utility though; if you're wearing a coat you should get colder significantly slower, if you have an umbrella equipped, the wet effect should be at a minimum, stuff like that.
it would be interesting if we could steal peoples' clothing and face repercussions of that, like if you're wearing someone's shirt and talk to them, they can accuse you of stealing their shirt and get hostile.

It's not even my birthday yet, but I am blown away by the number of cards I have already received. My mailbox was filled multiple days in a row! I'm especially touched by people who just had my address on hand still and thought to send me a birthday card. Thank you so much!
u/Rura_Penthe924 Thank you for the space postcard! I can't believe we can see something that's 75 million light years away. Thank you also for the kind birthday message about new experiences! trying to go visit my bff in California this year and that will be a new experience for me
u/ninajyang Thank you for the birthday cake birthday card! I love love the color combo of the black, gold, and teal! I have a couple fun things planned for my bday this week, mostly focused on food lol but also on playing mini golf
u/TyeDyeAmish Thank you so much for the Zombie Party birthday postcard! It's so cool; very on theme!!! Also love the little holographic popcorn sticker you used on the back!
u/okayflan Thank you for the "celebrate today!" birthday card and the confetti (aka stickers). The way you taped them in there with a giant "x" made it look like they're trying to escape lol. They were all really cute but the girl and the little bear in the upside-down umbrella was my favorite
u/ezw_ Thank you for the large birthday card with the very beautiful pictures of the beach! I'd love to be lying in a hammock near crystal blue waters right about now! I think my mailman will definitely be impressed with the number of cards I got this year. He is probably very confused about what goes on around here, because every time I put a card out for him it's headed to a different country. Thank you for wishing me "minimal bees," that made me laugh
u/SherlockLady Thank you for the handmade purple Halloween-themed birthday card! I laughed at the first line of the message being "These Markers suck!" Art is a struggle lol. I loved the black envelope, and black and white cat stickers and washi, too. Thank you, also, for the bounty of stickers! This purple poison apple is dope
u/canameow Thank you for the truly amazing haunted house post card with the ghost cats! It's so perfect! I love all the washi you used on the envelope and on the card, and the stickers, especially the little ghost eating a donut. Thank you also for your kind words about my card-making! I LOVE the halloween papers you sent. This purple and black one is SO beautiful. I will definitely be able to use them. Thank you also for the little cat envelope filled with ("questionable" lol) cat stickers and Halloween stickers :)
u/Neona65 WOW! This embroidered card is GORGEOUS! I love the colors. The bright yellow and soft pink look amazing on the black background! I can't believe you can sew thread into paper like that. Thank you for taking so much time and care to make me something so lovely for my birthday! I like that it has 6 petals, too, for the 6th month :)
u/oneiricOstrich x2 This is the most immaculately decorated envelope I've received so far! I love how every inch of it is covered in something shiny or colorful or spooky! Even the stamps are on theme! Thank you for the "Trick or Treat" birthday card and for the Raspberry Paper postcard (it's so so cute!); both are great. I love the kitty bookmark, too, as I am always searching for a bookmark and just end up using random pieces of paper or receipts lol

Hey y’all - just wanted to see if anyone’s had experience in this arena. My toddler (a little over 2) has been home with me since day one. She’s never been dropped off for any type of daycare, etc. We’re expecting #2 on July 6 (EDD, could be soonelater). We just got a notification email that a toddler summer camp we were on a waitlist for has a spot for her - it’s for 6 weeks starting on July 5. It’s for a couple hours in the morning.
Would this be too much change at once? I was thinking it might be nice to get some time where she is getting some enrichment in the beginning since I’m sure she’ll be pretty bored at home when the newborn is first here. I’ve also been wanting to get her into something like this because I think she’ll like it, but I don’t want to horrify her if the baby gets here and then suddenly she’s being dropped off somewhere completely new.
Any experience with this? Advice? Am I overthinking it?

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Season 5 “Exotic Pets”
Episode 2 “Night’s Touch”
He stares at her as Keya’s voice starts to slowly grow louder “I know you have people who can deal with this. This is supposed to be a priority line, as well!” her tone was still flatter than it should be, it was loud but lacked inflection giving it a false impression of cold anger.
“We have arranged previous protocols for similar situations”
“You can’t possibly be so unwise as to not be ready for nonstandard behavior”
“Please find someone with authority or at least knowledge of the situation”
“Yes I am the-”
“I am very much aware of the limitations of our deal, I am asking about a similar but new situation”
“The chief of an exterminator precinct is calling you because an endangered exotic animal requires some form of acceptable solution. I am calling you despite a clear lack of protocols in this specific situation. I am calling you because I have no real solutions and if there’s one species, one government left in this brahking galaxy that CARES it’s you so please, please give me something, ANYTHING” it was disturbing, incredibly so, to watch her inflection just waver and shift like that.
“Very well, I will put you on speakers” finally a reprieve from hearing a one-sided conversation, Keya sets down her holopad in the table at the center of the couches. Santos comes closer, still with one of the hensa snugly stuck inside his shirt while Orran slowly walks over to look, but he doesn’t sit, still holding the female protectively.
In the screen is another human, she is dressed in a very plain black suit with a necktie that’s been loosened and her short hair is disheveled. Clearly, Keya’s conversation had managed to stress her out. The dark-skinned woman scans her light blue eyes through the three visible people across from the call, her direct sight quickly stopping on the small beast in Orran’s grasp “They’re like tiny panthers” she says, softly
After a few more moments she continues “Alright, call me Janice. As I’ve told your boss” she says, presumably trying to aim her gaze at Santos, which isn’t quite possible through a video call “We might have a good solution. But that’s a maybe on the good solution, depends on if I can call on people here. And we have an okay solution, but that depends on what you’re willing to do, Mister…”
At that, the yotul recognizes it’s his turn to speak “Orran, my name is Orran”
“Mister Orran. So, here are the two possible solutions. The worst of them is to simply arrange a transfer for them to Leirn, but that is not an optimal solution. Not only would it take time, as we don’t currently have the logistic means to expedite transport in official vessels and we do not have the funds to find a quick and safe civilian willing to make the trip, we currently have no ongoing deals with the planetary government regarding fauna returns”
“I’m sure I could find a good transport to get there, ma’am.” Orran interrupts “I got them here, I can get them back if I need to”
“That might be true” the woman on the video continues, waving dismissively as she visibly slumps down on the seat “But we still have no official deals with their government regarding wildlife rescues. We have ongoing negotiations but nothing concrete, so in order to get your little fuzzballs over there we’d need to divert personnel we do not have available at the moment to secure a proper location, hopefully a wildlife shelter or similar”
“I could-” Orran tries but he’s interrupted
“Yes, you could go and uproot the entirety of your life again for the sake of those. Which is what we’d ask of you in this case, the best we could do for this worst-case scenario is some bureaucratic facilitation for your travel.” then she moves closer to the camera and puts her elbows on, presumably, the desk and rests her chin on her hands “But we might have a better solution”
“You better not be about to rope this man into some weird quasi-legal scheme” Santos interrupts “Your track record has been real spotty when dealing with anything at this scale”
Janice sighs, rubbing her eyes as she pulls a holopad off from the side “Yes, yes I know. You would fucking know wouldn’t you, Mr. Exterminator. But no, no, the plan is to take advantage of an ongoing research project to find far safer shelter right here on Venlil Prime.” she returns to her slacked pose as she brings her pad up with her, sharing her attention between the two “There’s a variety of projects researching the possible introduction of new species to this planet to increase the resilience of the biomes near the core of the habitable zone, an offshoot of the Cradle restoration research, as well as a bit of a hare-brained little project researching the feasibility of shipboard pets to increase soldier morale” she offers a hand to the camera “We can have your hensa housed in the facilities of any of such projects. This way we don’t need to redirect any voidborne assets, which as you know are all completely committed to the ongoing war, and you don’t need to give up your life here, Mr. Orran”
Santos turns to watch the yotul, who now has a contemplative look. It was always weird when he realized he could read alien expressions that well, a closed eye with the head slightly tilted the same direction and both ears flat towards the same direction read the exact same way as a human looking upwards in thought, apparently he’d grown accustomed to them very much. “And what would being housed here require, and how would they be treated”
Janice takes a deep breath, and can be seen pulling a second holopad from somewhere offscreen “IF I can make this work, and this is an if because it depends on finding a receptive project lead, for now they’d just be housed in the animal shelters those projects have for their studies. Currently the studies are only observational in how they relate to local species, with periodic medical checkups, being held in a few biome-isolation facilities. Should they prove suitable for the goals, and hell that depends on the projects being feasible to begin with, then they’ll be added to acclimated breeding programs.”
Orran looks down at the heavy female on his arms, then looks back at the screen “And should they not be?”
Janice grins “That’s the trick. At that point the UN will have taken over responsibility for them, and now they have an endangered species on hand and a million and one laws on how to treat them. So they’ll be forced to keep them in a wildlife shelter until they can be safely relocated to their natural environment. Which is something that will likely only happen after the end of the war given how bureaucracy works” then she looks down at the holopads and types something down in one of them “And if the war takes longer than that to end, I don’t think any of us will be around to worry anymore, so”
“Isn’t that a bit pessimistic” Santos adds with a raised eyebrow
“You would be, sitting here in this chair” she retorts
He looks at Orran, ultimately the choice is his, given it’s both his little creatures and his life in the line. The yotul spends a few moments thinking “Then please see what you can do. How long until we have an answer?”
“Hah!” Janice exclaims triumphantly, startling all three “I wouldn’t be in this job if I couldn’t multitask this well. I already have an answer, seems like the local fauna reintroduction project has shown interest. Can’t have only one pestkiller species in the same niche, it seems they want to have some competition to keep populations controlled or something” she still has a wide smile when she directly addresses Orran “If that project pans out, your kitties’ descendants will wind up in a competitive space with ours. But that’s for multiple generations from now, it seems. Currently, those two would wind up in an observation shelter to see how they interact with a population of voidpins as well as how they interact with terran cats. Is that acceptable or should I try to find another project?”
At that Orran laughs lightly “Ooh, nightside? That’d be perfect, most hensa are twilight creatures but nightweavers are nocturnal, that’d be the best for them” he gently caresses the feline in his arms “Hear that Lodestar? You get to have some darkness again”
Janice nods on the screen “Alright, then… Let’s see… Oh, oooh that’s convenient” she is tapping at the holopad “How much time do you need to prepare them for a trip? Would you like to come along for the handoff? CnT Freight -that’s an unfortunate name- seems to have a pickup of carbon in the next town over for us, we can have someone take advantage of the trip and come pick your kitties up”
Santos tilts his head to the side “Carbon? That might be over in Long Cliff if I remember the surrounding towns correctly. That’s almost a two hour trip”
Janice nods “Yep. I’ve sent a message to that project’s lead, they’ll get someone in our already-scheduled resource pickup trip and they’ll meet up with you. But we’re working with already existing schedules so… They should be over there in, let’s see… Fifteen hours or so” she takes a deep breath “So if that’ll be all? I got more calls in the queue”
“This will be enough” Keya’s voice is still weird
And with that the other human unceremoniously ends the call “That’ll be around three claws, Orran” Santos offers “I hope you don’t mind if we wait over here?”
The yotul is surprised, taking a step back “W-wait here? Why?”
Santos sighs “Three things. You already panicked once, and fled an entire planet over it” he gives Orran a side glance, which now that he thinks about it wouldn’t read the same for an alien would it? “Don’t want to risk you panicking again and messing yourself up”
Orran looks sheepish for a moment “Second, I want to have a look outside for some things. This place was the location of something very suspicious a few paws ago and this is the only chance I have to properly look for evidence around here” he gives the yotul a shrug “None of it is your fault, to clarify. I just want to figure out where that nixa came from”
And finally, he stands up and grabs Keya by the shoulders “And third, this woman did not sleep and is five seconds away from a mental breakdown” he lifts her off the ground with great effort, takes a couple of steps to the side and forcibly shoves her into the largest couch “And I want her to try to get a full rest before we need to deal with the delivery, because we will invariably be involved”
Despite the annoyed position of her ears and thrashing tail, Keya doesn’t move from the position she’s been put into “Santos, I’m fine”
“No you’re not, you started screaming an hour into your sleep cycle and never went back to bed. Try to get some sleep, I’ll be here” he turns over to Orran “Yes, I’m taking a bit of advantage of your situation, I’m sorry.”
If the yotul had eyebrows, he’d be raising one of them right now “I take it this isn’t a normal situation. If that’s why you need to stay around it’s fine.” he takes a deep breath “Turns out I owe her, apparently, so consider yourselves guests”
And so they waited. It did not take long for Keya to fall asleep, meanwhile Santos sat down on the couch and started fiddling with his holopad. It wasn't a random distraction, however, as he was reviewing the calls on Orran’s little project. Maybe it was just human pareidolia speaking, but something about the calls had been nagging him. It did eat at him doing this to Orran, however. The man was already stressed out enough as it was, and here he was taking complete advantage of what is essentially a hostage situation so his boss could sneak some sleep during a work shift.
As the hours passed he'd periodically get pulled out of his work as he watched Orran come and go, doing whatever his job was. Turns out an agriculturalist’s job also involves a lot of paperwork, it seems, for the man at some point had three holopads out doing who knows what, presumably data comparison. Himself, he eventually found what his instinct had been nagging him about. All of the calls on those little beasts, aside from the very first, were not made from within Blackriver. If his understanding of comms-codes in this planet was right, and if he wasn’t just seeing patterns where they did not exist, those anonymous calls were all from a number in a nearby town. But before he could start making more connections he heard something he was hoping not to hear. He hears Keya’s breath quickening.
He quickly sets down his pad and, after a bit of effort, manages to dislodge the two alien felines that had decided his lap was the correct place for a nap. Then he heads over to Keya and kneels down beside her, causing Orran to focus on him. “Don’t do anything, Orran” he instructs
“What? What’s going on?” he sounds worried, as he should be
“I was hoping she’d wake up to a normal nightmare but it seems like it’s a bad one again” he stares at his boss, whose breathing is getting faster and faster. She opens her mouth and starts making a noise.
Orran steps closer “Shouldn’t you wake her up?”
It’s now that Keya starts screaming, familiar screams of fear “No, not yet. Wake her up too early and she’s going to be in a state of panic for multiple claws.” Keya’s screams start getting worse as she grabs at the couch and digs her claws in, her legs and tail thrashing wildly as if she were running. And suddenly her creaming stops with a choked noise as she brings her hands up to her chest.
Orran takes a step back as the next stage of Keya’s nightmare makes itself manifest in her noises, a choked scream that brought a chill down his spine, a scream that was eerily reminiscent of the sounds he’d heard in an ‘instructional’ video about the greys a long time ago. “Wake her up too late and she’s not going to have any of her emotions left” the human comments, as the venlil frantically claws at her own chest.
She screams for just a little while longer, until Santos forcibly puts his hand over her chest “Boss, I’m here” he says with an authoritative voice “The only predator in this room is me, listen to my voice” he puts pressure in her chest “You’re alive, listen to me” he lowers his body closer to her “Wake up and listen”
The distressed hensa had been staring up at the venlil from the ground, emitting a low, bassy growl all this time in a sign of worry. But when Keya sits up suddenly they both run back behind Orran “I… Am awake” she says mechanically.
Santos sighs, stares at her for a while, then stands up and offers his hand. Keya ignores him and stands up, looking around the house “Cold bastard woke up this time, eh?”
Santos and Orran watch as Keya ignores the question as she looks around, eyes seemingly staring off into the distance. She finally stops “Yes” and then turns her entire body towards a small desk near the front door, and turns her head to face it.
Santos raises an eyebrow at her motion, and he notices Orran’s tail started lightly thumping on the floor and his body was shaking slightly. He’d seen people getting unnerved at the cold bastard, but he had the feeling that if he were a human right now he’d be sweating bullets. He follows the direction Keya is facing, that was such a blatantly human motion she had performed it was obvious what she intended, and sees something.
“Haven’t seen a proper paper letter in a long, long time” he comments a technical lie, a few seconds after Orran had moved to pick up said letter from the desk and shove it into a drawer. But he had already seen what Keya wanted him to.
“Y-yeah I’m… Still fond of some traditional things” the man says, still looking nervous.
He takes a deep breath. He’d already seen it, in the letter, the mark of three crossed leaves. “Alright… Me and Keya are going to go outside to check something. And when we come back, you’re going to tell me the truth, right?” he stares directly at Orran
“What do you-”
“AFTER we’re back” he interrupts “Because this is either nothing worth worrying about, or you were saved from death by the power of ignorance” but he doesn’t let Orran answer as he and Keya step out into the yard.
He looks around at the yard, already predicting this would be a difficult mission. A physical letter with a familiar symbol, Orran mentioned he had a way to bring his felines to this planet and could use it as a way out, those were carnivores as far as he knew so he had to get food somewhere, and the man had those kept in here since before humanity’s first contact so it wasn’t some cloned meat he was using.
Keya grabs his shoulder and turns him towards the shed, every house in this place has the same general structure, including the shed in the backyard. The two of them start heading over there and study it. Those are wooden windows, closed, barring any sight from the inside and the front door had a lock in it, but it was slightly ajar. He looks at Keya, who seems to not notice his stare, and then gently opens the door.
The light from the outside streams in, and the sight is somewhat heart wrenching. This was, at some point, pretty much a cat house. There were shelves along the walls with nothing in them for them animals to walk about, wooden towers and other acrobatic toys, there were plastic toys scattered around and most tellingly some bowls on the ground. He kneels beside the bowls, there’s a tiny scattering of kibble indicating which ones were likely kibble and which ones were likely water, but they were marked with the same signs as the rest of the toys and furniture, deep marks of a nixa’s claws.
“Here” Keya’s toneless voice calls him out, and as he arrives he finds the proof of what he expected. There’s a rather crude metal box sitting there, full of scratch marks and bloodstains, inspecting it closer he finds tufts of dark fur and… Fabric.
Before he can inspect closer Keya hands him something- A plastic bag “Always prepared aren’t you?” he kneels closer to look at it, it’s definitely fabric, torn fabric in fact, with a fragment of the nixa’s claw attached to it. Gingerly he puts it in the plastic bag, looking at it.
“It is not good for my mental health, but it is useful in situations like those” Keya offers, before turning to the door to leave.
Santos stands up and takes a deep breath. Those calls all came from outside, and everything’s starting to make sense. He speeds up to move ahead of Keya as they enter Orran’s house, to find the yotul sitting on a couch, seemingly staring at something but in truth his eyes were distant in thought. “Alright, Orran. The first question, where did you get food for your hensa?”
Orran nearly jumps out of his skin, before turning an eye to Santos “I… I have an offworld contact. They, uhm… They can get some stuff shipped from Leirn for me”
Santos nods, and sits beside the man. Keya, on the other hand, walks behind him and simply looms over, causing the agriculturalist to shrink “Next question. Who brought you here?”
“It… It was the same people”
He crosses his arms “I’m going to take a wild guess and say that your hensa have suddenly decided that they don’t want to leave the house anymore since a few days, I mean, paws ago, right?”
At that Orran gasps “How did you know?”
He leans back on the couch “Your little ones saved your life, just so you know. Whoever it is you’ve got your trip, and the food from… You still owe them, right? And they’re the kind that comes collect” he’s looking at the ceiling right now
“C-collect? What do you mean?” he can see Orran trembling in his periphery
“Fifty seven of the calls on your hensa were from outside town” he turns his head slightly to give Orran a side-eyed stare “And we figured out where whoever it was dropped a very angry and very hungry nightside predator a few paws ago. You know, at the same point in time where I can only imagine your little friends stopped going to their playground out back”
“Wait” Orran seems frozen “That… That was because…”
Santos shrugs “I don’t know who they are. I doubt they’d like it if you talked, so i’m not asking. I’m just going to ask, how much do you owe them?”
The yotul looks down “Five hundred and twelve thousand credits… But I’ve been paying, I swear-” he grabs at Santos’ arm
“Chill out” he takes a deep breath “None of us are related to them in any way, before you get the wrong impression”
“It should be doable” Keya has brought up her datapad, causing the other two to look up at her “It is possible that I can organize a donation drive able to reach the nearby towns. Coupled with a secondary source I have available it is plausible acquire the amount of credits to clear his debt”
Orran stands up quickly in surprise “Y-you’d do that for-”
“Those people have shown themselves capable of causing serious collateral in their attempts at punishment and have shown to be a threat to the safety of the town.” she continues with a toneless voice “You, also, are part of this town. A group capable of smuggling contraband across planets is not a group we are capable of protecting the town from, therefore, the only measure left is appeasement.” she explains like it was a lecture, causing Orran’s ears to droop.
“The condition of this aid is as follows. You will hand over that letter, as I recognize it is their method of contacting you. You will, also, follow the humans to wherever the delivery will take place and you will only return to this town once I have contacted you to do so and you have paid your debts.” she turns her head sideways to direct one of her eyes at the yotul, he takes a step back cowering from the icy stare in a way Santos could never cause “If they make any further attempts at you, they will not endanger this town”
Santos sighs “Yeah, that looks like a wise choice” he pats Orran gently on the shoulder “I know the cold bastard is a lot but that’s a good plan. We’ll help you out, get your kitties a safe new home and nobody gets hurt”
To say the mood in the residence was soured by the experience was an understatement. And yet they were forced to wait even further in the collective company, Santos gently trying to coax some unrelated small talk out of Orran for the sake of the man’s sanity while he could not keep himself from continually building up more and more stress as he watched Keya silently stare down at her datapad nearly motionless.
Ultimately, Santos breaks the stress spiral by convincing the yotul to prepare for the trip. The lack of clothing articles, he noticed, made packing very much easier than it would be for a human. But a few cleaning articles, the remaining kibble for the hensa, a carrier cage that was uncleverly hidden under the bed and a few more moments spent preparing some travel snacks and there’s a knock on the front door.
Who’s behind the door is a distressingly short little Nevok, sent as the person to pick up the hensa. It took a bit of convincing, but under the cold gaze of Keya the woman eventually relents to allow Orran to accompany his animals, just to facilitate the handoff and to ensure the team’s knowledge of them is correct.
Santos and Keya see the two off, but as they return to the car that had been waiting for them for hours, she stops him. She opens the driver’s seat and points him there, takes the back seat herself and immediately brings out her datapad. Santos looks at the strange car, bites down his lower lip in thought and sighs. There’s no use discussing with the cold bastard.
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[Excerpt from the social site Bleat]
#BadParents - A thread for bad parents with unruly pups
[email protected] - Hey guys, I need some help. The guests’ kids brought some weird candy home, what do I do
[email protected] - What kinna candy, is it tasty?
[email protected] - Does it smell funny?
[email protected] - Try it, it’s real good. I think I know what it is. Your kids are gunna get real loud about it.
[email protected] - hay guys, one of the neighbors broke some of the other guys’ toys and now he has to pay it back. But i’m kinda broke, you know how dad is, so I can’t help out. Can we get a pot rolling here?
[email protected] - Oh dear, think I can just give one of my toys up to make up for it? It wouldn’t be a bother.
[email protected] - I can help out, i’d ask my pups to help out too but they haven’t been listening to me for a while.
[email protected] - Same deal but at least I can get something going, I think the guests here would be up to help.
[email protected] - Oh, oh, I think I can get my pups to help, i’ll help out too. They’ve been trying to do good!
[email protected] - Me and the pups can help out too, they’ve been behaving a lot since last time.
[email protected] - Sorry guys, gotta sit out of this one. You know why.
[email protected] - It’s fine, it’s fine. Only help if you can. And no need, [email protected], just help out with the pot.
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What? Did you thinking smuggling a pair of little predators off a planet currently ongoing purge across the stars and keeping carnivores fed in a planet where the mere mention of that kind of food could get you killed was possible without the aid of people you don't want to cross?
Sometimes you do what you have to do.
This is the end (mostly) of the "Exotic Pets" season! Thankfully our little hensa get a proper home, and maybe their descendants might help save a planet. This isn't the last adventure involving a pet, however, but the next season "Fighting Fire" might not end quite as peacefully.
Also I know I got zero schedule, never pretended i'd ever have I know myself. But don't expect anything next week, life sure is hard.

I'm just venting. My husband is doing school and can't really support me like I need him to. My gastro started October of 2021 and hasn't really improved too much, I've just learned how to live with it, although my quality of life has improved.
I woke up today feeling like I needed to vomit. I then took a zofran and figured I'd let it work before trying to drink anything. It's progressed to diarrhea (which I'm nodmally constipated). I have the deepest and strongest ache in my stomach and intestines, and super sharp/stabbing pains to my stomach. My pain is so bad that I'm chilled and shivering under bedding with a heating blanket blasted to 110 under the bedding. I've also had a heating pad blasted in my stomach underneath my sweatshirt. No fever. Just chilled and shivering/shaking which is normal when I'm in a lot of pain.
I've taken 2 zofran, 1 compazine, 2 gabapentin, and 2 vicodin. It's still so intense that I fucking hate my life right now. I'm actually moaning which is insane because I'm a strong "suffer in silence" type. This isn't my normal gastro symptoms but gastro does like to flare a little differenly every so often (in my experience). I'm pretty confident this is what is happening. I'm just not mentally or emotionally prepared for this pain. Fuck GP.
I just needed a space to vent, because I'm walking on a fucking tight rope right now.

Caveat about the vicodin: I see a pain clinic specialist who prescribed it to me for when my gastro pain gets severe since that's my primary issue. I can handle some of the nausea and lack of food, but the pain is VERY intense. My GI signed off on the prescription as well. It's a low dose and I don't take many of them. They've kept me out of the ER during severe episodes, and I've been able to eat a bit more which has slowed my weight loss. It has drastically improved my quality of life and nearly stopped my passive suicidal Ideation. It also hasn't worsened the gastro overall. I really don't want the guilt for taking them ✋🏻 I'm also not saying I think everyone with gastro should take them. It depends on multiple factors and is between you and your doctor.

Can anyone help and tell me which mods are messing it up? Also if there are any major incompatibilities in general and how to fix it?

1. * FalloutNV.esm
2. * DeadMoney.esm
3. * HonestHearts.esm
4. * OldWorldBlues.esm
5. * LonesomeRoad.esm
6. * GunRunnersArsenal.esm
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10. * CaravanPack.esm
11. * YUP - Base Game + All DLC.esm
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13. * Vanilla Enhancements.esm
14. * Navmesh Overhaul VNV Patch.esm
15. * Advanced Recon Tech.esm
16. * Ambient Temperature.esm
17. * FOOK - New Vegas.esm
18. * BraveNewWorld.esm
19. * Uncut Wasteland.esm
20. * TGMIO.esm
21. * Functional Post Game Ending.esm
22. * FOOK - New Vegas DLCs.esm
23. * New Vegas Redesigned II.esm
24. * AWorldOfPain(Preview).esm
25. * NVInteriors_Core.esm
26. * TLD_Travelers.esm
27. * NVInteriors_ComboEdition.esm
28. * vault22FloralOverhaul.esm
29. * enclavebunker.esm
30. * factions reloaded raiders v2.esm
31. * Mojave Raiders.esm
32. * LFSO.esm
33. * CFWNV.esm
34. * Weapon Mod Expansion.esm
35. * The New Bison Steve Hotel.esm
36. * AWOPDeadMoney.esm
37. * NVWillow.esp
38. * Cyberware.esm
39. * Functional Post Game Ending - YUP Patch.esm
40. * Inventory Access.esm
41. * Ragdolls.esm
42. * SomeguySeries.esm
43. * Sortomatic.esm
44. * Advanced Recon Gear.esm
45. * Sortomatic-AWOP.esm
46. * WME - GRA.esm
47. * WME - DLCs.esm
48. * Better Character Creation.esm
49. * WMIMNV.esp
50. * Unofficial Patch NVSE Plus.esp
51. * YUP - NPC Fixes (Base Game + All DLC).esp
52. * JIP MiniMap.esp
53. * Crafting Consistency Fix.esp
54. * EVEM - Crafting Consistency Fix Patch.esp
55. * Vurt's WFO.esp
56. * FOOK - New Vegas.esp
57. * Vanilla UI Plus.esp
58. * The Mod Configuration Menu.esp
59. * Player Combat Priority.esp
60. * PCP Reduced Chance To Attack Doggo Patch.esp
61. * Real Recoil.esp
62. * Real Recoil Tweaks.esp
63. * NPCsSprint.esp
64. * JustAssortedMods.esp
65. * Hitstop.esp
66. * Food Effect Tweaks.esp
67. * CPI Icons.esp
68. * Cloud Shadows.esp
69. * B42Inertia.esp
70. * Interior Rain.esp
71. * Famine.esp
72. * BIS - Brumbek's Inventory Sorting.esp
73. * FOOK - New Vegas DLCs.esp
74. * JSawyer Ultimate.esp
75. * RagsToRiches.esp
76. * FOOK - NVR2 Patch.esp
77. * EVEM - JSUE Patch.esp
78. * ExRB.esp
79. * WME - FOOK Redux.esp
80. * FOOK - YUP Patch.esp
81. * ExRB_Cut-Sewers.esp
82. * JSawyer Ultimate - Push's Tweaks.esp
83. * Vanilla Enhancements - JSawyer Ultimate Push Tweaks Patch.esp
84. * Famine - Flora.esp
85. * Factions Reloaded Legion.esp
86. * FOOK - JSawyer.esp
87. * Mojave Raiders.esp
88. * Mojave Raiders - JSUE Patch.esp
89. * AWOP Interim Fixes.esp
90. * WME - FOOK.esp
91. * EVE FNV - ALL DLC.esp
92. * WeaponModsExpanded.esp
93. * NVR2 - YUP Patch.esp
94. * FOOK - JSUE Patch.esp
95. * CNR_Beta.esp
96. * Lime's BBB.esp
97. * WME - GRA - Complete.esp
98. * Little More Lamplight.esp
99. * DLC Enhancements.esp
100. * Atmospheric Lighting Tweaks.esp
101. * Unique Items & Collectables.esp
102. * BraveNewWorld-FPGE.esp
103. * Unique Items & CollectablesNOBONUS.esp
104. * Unique Items & CollectablesNOPERKS.esp
105. * DNWeathers.esp
106. * Bobblehunt - Cap Bonuses.esp
107. * Bobblehunt - Fallout 3 Bonuses.esp
108. * Bobblehunt - Hardcore.esp
109. * Bobblehunt.esp
110. * Bobblehunt - Hardercore.esp
111. * BraveNewWorld-YUP.esp
112. * FOOK - Mojave Raiders Patch.esp
113. * momod.esp
114. * LVS.esp
115. * GSCH.esp
116. * AWOPDeadMoneyVendorPatch.esp
117. * WME - FOOK DLCs.esp
118. * WME - GRA - All Weapons.esp
119. * FO3WeaponsRestoration.esp
120. * MMDD.esp
121. * Mojave Arsenal.esp
122. * EVEM - Mojave Arsenal Patch.esp
123. * FOOK - CNR Patch.esp
124. * NVR2 - BNW Patch.esp
125. * NVR2 - Mojave Raiders Patch.esp
126. * NVR2 - UW NPCs Patch.esp
127. * Uncut Wasteland - YUP Patch.esp
128. * Mojave Raiders - EVEM Patch.esp
129. * BIS - Dead Money.esp
130. * WMEVE - FOOK Redux.esp
131. * WME - GRA - Just Guns.esp
132. * WMX-GunRunnersArsenal.esp
133. * WMX-OldWorldBlues.esp
134. * WMX-HonestHearts.esp
135. * WMX-EVE-AllDLC.esp
136. * BIS - Honest Hearts.esp
137. * Essential DLC Enhancements Merged - JSUE Patch.esp
138. * BIS - Lonesome Road.esp
139. * Advanced Recon Ranger Helm TWEAKS.esp
140. * Follower Tweaks.esp
141. * Street Light Corrections.esp
142. * CC - Rain.esp
143. * Mojave Raiders Tweaks.esp
144. * Powered Power Armor.esp
145. * SunnyCompanion.esp
146. * NewVegasBounties.esp
147. * NewVegasBountiesII.esp
148. * TheInheritance.esp
149. * Russell.esp
150. * AWOP - Russell.esp
151. * More Perks v3.esp
152. * AWOP - NVR II.esp
153. * BraveNewWorld-MojaveRaiders.esp
154. * Cyberware OWB.esp
155. * Fast V.A.T.S. and Kill Camera.esp
156. * Immersive Primary Needs.esp
157. * JIP Companions Command & Control.esp
158. * Jump Fall Fixer.esp
159. * Nights are Darker - Ultimate Edition.esp
160. * Ambient Temperature - PPA.esp
161. * Alien Companion.esp
162. * WME - GRA - Unique Integration.esp
163. * DelayDLCRedux.esp
164. * BraveNewWorld-JSU.esp
165. * NVR2 - JSUE Patch.esp
166. * EVEM - YUP Patch.esp
167. * Classic Fallout Weapons Remastered v1.2.esp
168. * FO3WeaponsRestoration - Alien Companion.esp
169. * NVMMP.esp
170. * NukaColaOverhaul.esp
171. * Wondrous Canteens.esp
172. * KingOfTheRing.esp
173. * LBBAWOPPatch.esp
174. * UHNV.esp
175. * Strip Lights Region Fix - Uncut Wasteland.esp
176. * LVS_Map_Marker.esp
177. * Simple Explosive Entry.esp
178. * UHNV-More Mannequins.esp
179. * UHNV-Chems.esp
180. * UHNV-Bobblehunt.esp
181. * UHNV-Brighter Lighting.esp
182. * CFW-FOOK-DLC.esp
183. * CFW-FOOK.esp
184. * BIS - Old World Blues.esp
185. * WMEVE - All DLCs.esp
186. * WMEVE - FOOK - All DLCs.esp
187. * BIS - Gun Runners Arsenal.esp
188. * IMPACT.esp
189. * AWOP-IMPACT-WMX-EVE AllDLC.esp
190. * Unbreakable Weapons and Armor.esp
191. * almostPerfect.esp
192. * Friends With Benefits Perk Pack.esp
193. * S6S Perks.esp
194. * dD - Enhanced Blood Main NV.esp
195. * AWOP-MoMod.esp
196. * WME - DLCs Arenovalis.esp
197. * WME - DLCs.esp
198. * Loot Assist.esp
199. * WMX-DeadMoney.esp
200. * Weapon Retexture Project.esp
201. * WME - GRA - Arenovalis.esp
202. * WME - GRA - Vendor Reform.esp
203. * WME - GRA - Weapon Integration.esp
204. * WMX-LonesomeRoad.esp
205. * WMX-ModernWeapons.esp
206. * WMX-PreOrderPackCaravan.esp
207. * WMX-PreOrderPackClassic.esp
208. * WMX-PreOrderPackMercenary.esp
209. * WMX-PreOrderPackTribal.esp
210. * WMEVE - No DLCs.esp
211. * WMEVE - No GRA.esp
212. * CFW-DLC.esp
213. * FPS Leaning.esp
214. * Titans of The New West.esp
215. * Titans of The New West - Power Armor Sprint JVS.esp
216. * Titans of The New West - Power Armor Sprint JAM.esp
217. * Drug Synthesizer.esp
218. * NewVegasTrueScopes.esp
219. * LVL99PEL.esp
220. * Universal Item Sorter.esp
221. * BIS - More Cactus Water Recipes.esp
222. * Dynamic Pipboy Light.esp
223. * zzAlcoholFixes.esp
224. * AidUI.esp
225. * Strip Lights Region Fix.esp

cool little project im trynna work on, located near pavia. if anyone from pavia or any other nation wants to participate add me on discord liferange#9354
https://reddit.com/link/140rh43/video/ma31rkxzm24b1/player

No progress on Monday this week. Wasn't really in the mood when I had time for it.
Tuesday
#12: Pokédex no. 257: Blaziken. Difficulty: 3/10
Humanoid enough to be pretty easy, but gets an extra point for material being hard to find. Pretty much all the good stuff adds boobs to it.
#13: Pokédex no. 153: Bayleef. Difficulty: 4/10
Didn't really like the art of it, but the design's alright. As far as dinosaur-type creatures go I tend to prefer the bipedal ones though.
Wednesday
#14: Pokédex no. 113: Chansey. Difficulty: 4/10
I find its... hair(?) a little ugly but aside from that it looks okay, and I was able to find a pretty nice image. Not too bad.
#15: Pokédex no. 692: Clauncher. Difficulty: 7/10
Kinda ugly, and what was depicted in the one porn image I found probably wouldn't even feel good, but the fact that it has porn at all made it better than the likes of Wingull or Carvanha
Thursday
#16: Pokédex no. 670: Floette. Difficulty: 2/10
One of the easiest ones so far. It looks pretty feminine and I liked the art of it (of which there was a pretty wide selection).
#17: Pokédex no. 407: Roserade. Difficulty: 1/10
Two feminine flower-themed Pokémon in a row, it's like the randomizer decided on a theme for today lol. With the material being very good and Roserade being pretty humanoid in all but size, she's definitely deserving of a 1/10 rating.
Friday
#18: Pokédex no. 313, Volbeat. Difficulty: 8/10
Ewwww. Volbeat is one of my least favorite pokemon, it's ugly and dumb-looking, I just couldn't see it in a sexual way at all. To my surprise there's actually a pretty decent amount of porn of it, but nearly all of it is anthro and the stuff that isn't doesn't really help Volbeat all that much.
Saturday
#19: Pokédex no. 158: Totodile. Difficulty: 5/10
Definitely too small and juvenile for me. Tje porn wasn't that good either. Being a scalie helps a little bit.
Sunday
#20: Pokédex no. 968: Orthworm. Difficulty: 8/10
Starting to rethink the whole "I got over my distaste for bugs" thing, I think that only applies to the really big ones. Orthworm is really bad. It looks like you could kinda use it as anal beads so that's the angle I went with but I don't even like anal beads that much so it didn't help a lot.
#21: Pokédex no. 184: Azumarill. Difficulty: 3/10
Probably wouldn't normally rate it this low but it was pretty refreshing after getting a few bad mons in a row. It's a mammal, fully evolved, not too small, and a Water type (which I tend to find more attractive for reasons I'm not quite sure of).

I found this super interesting. I think Kira really does have a soft spot for all the girls, especially Chloe as she got to know her.
All of us can agree for the most part that Kalani did not go through nearly as much as the other girls did because she was older than them, did not give a crap about what Abby said to her, and she was also not there for nearly as long. Not to say that Abby wasn’t rude to her at times, but it wasn’t nearly as much as the other girls, and we all know this.
So what’s interesting to me is the fact that Kira was really getting choked up watching Chloe recount her experience and trauma from Abby that day when Cheryl Burke was telling the girls to start being more emotionally open with their fear and trauma. I genuinely don’t think that Kira understood what Chloe specifically had gone through, the amount of hate she had received, and what the abuse the original girls have been dealing with for years. This moment that they caught on camera, this was her realizing that. She was really emotional. 🥹
That scene was so so so hard to watch. In fact, I can’t even watch it without crying. Kendall talks about the anxiety and not feeling “good enough” feelings that she has, Nia does a little bit as well, but clearly the one who was suffering the hardest was Chloe based on her reaction to Cheryl being kind to her. 💔 ugh a teacher was finally kind to Chloe. I’m sure that hit her deep.
The way that Kira sat there and listened intently to Chloe talk and cried for her was actually so sweet. She talked about all of the girls when she said “ now that you guys are older, I can see how this has affected you guys” but she was saying it directly to Chloe because Chloe was clearly reliving her deep trauma in that moment. She was talking about how she still feels the need to prove herself to Abby and she still feels like she’s not good enough all of these years later. The way Abby was indented into her mind is so scary. So much abuse.
All of the moms, Jill, Holly, and Kira, during that moment were so kind to Chloe and we’re encouraging her to continue talking about her feelings and not being afraid of crying. And Holly told her that she is good enough exactly as she is. ❤️ and that was also a really nice moment from Jill to tell the girls that the “save your tears for your pillow” days are behind them.
I just wanted to mention this moment because I thought it was really sweet of Kira to show her emotions based on what she could clearly see that Chloe Kendall and Nia had gone through in the past. Kalani was just sitting there perfectly fine (seemingly but this was a moment for the OGs to have together) lol so I’m pretty sure Kira was gearing her emotions toward what she was getting from Chloe’s crying and Kendall got a little emotional as well. So sweet. I’m so glad of the moms all had that moment with the kids.

As AMAB, before questioning I have always seen myself as a male and looked up to men. I have wanted to be a man. I remember having playful argument with my brother about who's a boy and who's a girl and we both always wanted to be a guy. Thought some years later I kinda remember 'settling' for being a girl - but perhaps it actually didn't feel so bad after all.
I liked to look myself after gym when I still was into working out. I didn't have shame about myself (yes I know about butch lesbians and more masculine women). I remember liking the feeling of being strong and powerful man, I liked myself like that.
Now I feel like I've "failed as a man". I no longer work out and have no will to do anything
But what is because of my internalized misogyny I think that "I'll settle for being a woman since I cannot be a real man"? I have no clue. Need to talk to a therapist, but IT'D BE HORRIFYING TO TALK ABOUT THIS KIND OF STUFF FACE TO FACE WITH SOMEONE!
I have always made friends with boys much easier. It has always been easier to talk to them. Girls seemed very distant to me in my childhood, and I had only boys as friends (excluding a few exceptions).
I never understood women, either. They are still quite a mystery to me. I had some chats with girls in my teens and remember being very confused on what to do etc. Thought I have ADHD and many autistic traits so perhaps it could explain some of my social problems.
I kinda wish I had a social life. I wish I had more friends, both guys and gals. I wish I was accepted in my teens, so that I'd get a better view of these genders. Perhaps I could've discovered more about my gender identity...
On the other hand, I have admired some women too in my teens. One I knew fairly well.
I have had this feeling that "If I cannot get a hot and lovely gf, I will become one myself". It seems as if I wanted to become something I cannot get so that I'd "get it by my rules". I also hate myself so I don't really feel that sorry for myself, only a little.
I always answered all polls as a male. I never doubted it a second. It was automatic for me to choose "I am male"-answer. Still, lately I've kinda had mixed feelings about it, but have still went by "male". I also remember creating some accounts and assigning my gender as "I prefer not to say" on those accounts. I always told myself that "It's to confuse people and to protect my identity and privacy", but I have also been thinking if that wa sjust a conscious excuse.
I have wanted to hug my friend, but felt like it was inappropriate bc we are both guys. I have done it earlier to someone else and it was very awkward.
I have always been a "pig" with bad habits - swearing, eating loudly, farting and burping near others on some occasions etc. I have always thought it as cool and manly.
I have had the need to be a "tough guy" who doesn't give a fuck. I have expressed my opinions and words like that. I have very often put up a show to act more masculine.
In reality I am emotional and enjoy deep talks and bonding. I ABSOLUTELY HATE the aggression that's associated with sports and other "male activities". I hate the aggressiviness of men in general. It makes me feel weak, vulnerable. Perhaps it's bc of my low self-esteen and shortness.
This post isn't even about the topic anymore, it's just venting rn and some trans stuff. I am just so goddamn confused. Been questioning for over 6 weeks now. Have tried many feminine things. Some are fine, some are not. I asked my mom to do my makeup (I didn't dare to leave their home). I felt awkward abt it but then decides to proceed. She did it and it was ok. I was able to be around her with makeup on. I was also able to do it with my dad and brother around.
I suddenly feel like I should cover my chest, while part of me tells I shouldn't. I just took a shower and felt like walking out with towel on my chest would be awkward as I had to pass my dad. But I also felt like I had to cover my chest. Well, eventually I left without covering my chest but turned my body so that my chest wasn't visible. I've tried to hide my chest most of the time after starting to question.
I think it's sweet how women take care of their children. I will always be happy that my mom taught me how to calm and help someone in a moment of distress. She is caring and kind, she has a good heart. I will always love her, and her way to love others, how she taught me on how to do it properly.
I am full of anger and grief. I just want peace. I want to be calm. I want to be caring. I want to prove myself that I can do it too.
Suddenly I hate my tiny beard, and wanna shave it all the time, like it actually gave me dysphoria. I have liked it earlier, wanted to grow it more. I liked playing around with my beard. Now I hate the idea of having it bc it feels too masculine.
I have also always had to look angry to appear more masculine. I have done it so many times. But looking myself in the mirror, making a cute face, I actually feel good. Perhaps it's some sort of euphoria.
Growing out hair feels nice. I like the feeling of hair on my upper back.
I have had tranformation-fantasies (sexual or not) for most of my life. I have always wanted to be something else, like a mythical creature or a cyber warrior etc. But it was always abt being a male one.
Yet as I ask myself if I wanna be a woman, I am like "Hell naw I wanna be a strong man and kick ass😎". Then I force myself to say that "No I wanna be a woman, I wanna be smol, I wanna be cuddled by a strong woman or man". Though there's also truth to it 😎.
I have also said terrible, sexist stuff about women with my guy friends - anything that you can suppose an incel would say - literally anything...
I hate being called a boy. But that's probably bc I wanna be seen as a man.
I guess I am a man. I will always be a man. Being a woman feels too odd and otherwordly, unknown.
Yet saying "I am a man" makes me feel how all of my thoughts abt being trans just shatter into tiny fragments. It feels like a small, caring and loving heart was shattered. With it I can hear sobbing and screams of pain and sorrow, like a creature was killed.
So it "being a man" to me only about being emotionless and strong, unwavering. I have always been the exact opposite. Perhaps this also makes me feel like "I have failed as a man".
But what if I am just trying to prove that I am not a man but a woman, while the truth is actually the opposite?
What if I wanna be a woman to just escape myself, my duties as a male?
I am so goddamn lost. Help me find the light, please...
If you read it all, thanks for that. Thanks for taking the time 🙂

this is all probably super petty and it’s very likely i’m just bad at the game i just wanna say that now
playing as sadako feels so miserable sometimes, i bought the game specifically for her and while i do play some other killers sometimes majority of the time i main sadako
she’s such a pain to play sometimes though, everything about her sucks the only thing she sortof has going for her is her demanifestation and even that has so many issues
even when demanifested it feels like survivors see you from miles away, i know you flicker in and out but i swear every single time i’m trying to approach anyone they run off before i’m anywhere close
you don’t speed up at all when demanifested either and you slow down so much when manifesting so now the survivors are like another mile away and i know there’s an addon that slows them down when manifesting but you gotta be like right on top of them for it to work
the condemned is near useless even with addons and everything it’s so crazy easy for survivors to manage it and the “condemned build” that always comes up in conversation doesn’t work on survivors who know how to deal with it no one really ever uses that build
the only time i ever see condemned build up entirely is when a survivor does it on purpose just so they can put the tape back in the tv right in front of you to taunt you
the tvs take a rediculous amount of time to turn back on not to mention they all face in such weird directions like why am i teleporting next to a generator only to face a wall, by the time your actually where you wanted to go with that tv the survivors are long gone,
and again why the hell are the tvs facing such weird directions, maybe they thought “it’s so the survivors have a little extra time and aren’t hit right away” or something but if that’s the case then that would be on them because they can turn the tvs off themselves
the addon to turn the tvs back on after a hit should not be an iri addon that’s way too rare for something like that
i know theres people who are like “just play this killer instead it’s her but better” but i don’t want to play a different killer that’s her done better i want to play sadako and i want her to be a better killer
i don’t know anything ab good perk builds or anything but even if i did i don’t have the money or time to buy every single killer and get them all to prestige one any time soon and regardless i’d much rather sadako still be able to be an at least decent killer without having to know all sorts of stuff like that
again i know this rant probably sounds petty and complainy and admittedly it is a little bit, i had like 8 games in a row where i got 0-1 kills as sadako and that did fuel this rant a tiny bit but even so majority of these complaints are things that have bothered me for a while, idek if anyone will read this but i just hope i didn’t come off as annoyingly complainy ab this stuff
it’s just a bit tiring when the killer you bought the game for kinda sorta sucks alotta ghost balls sometimes

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Appreciate meeting trail name Lucky who hiked the AT through in 66’. Definite trail magic right near Pen Mar park. I accepted the trail name Lerner from him as he surprised me by naming me akin to my moms last name! (she passed this past April) Pretty wild and now I’ve got my momma to dedicate this adventure to! So yes, I’m taking this as a sign and am soaking up any and all information for my trip I plan to start at the end of august. Thinking sobo from Maine or nobo from Maryland and make it as far as I can before it becomes too cold. Then finish once things warm up again. I have a good amount of hiking experience but only a little backpacking. Green thumb for sure. I’m debating taking my 3 yr old pup, she’s a doodle of the golden variety. Any recommendations or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks :p

Started working closely for about half the year with someone 5+ years ago. Families became friends. After a couple years, I started to have a little crush on him. The feelings would come and go. When they would come, I would turn them toward my own partner and marriage. I thought I could kind of sense the same from him, but never knew for sure, but was happy to just be good friends and to have the opportunity to spend so much time together doing what we both love. I sometimes would use it as a little escape fantasy when I needed a break from the day to day work/parent/partner life. I felt like I was keeping it super neat and clean and postive and healthy and was somewhat greateful to not have the confirmation of his feelings to deal with.
A little under a year ago, he let the cat out of the bag. He told me he had had a crush on me for a long time. He said he figured I knew, I confirmed I did. And told him I felt similarly. We agreed we both have very cool partners and we're lucky to get to be such close friends and spend so much time together. And that was it. Then my mind took over....
I started to feel guilty, started wondering if he had told his partner, the weight of having to deal with the reality of my inner fantasies ( long walks in the woods holding hands, seriously) coming to light, it was just all a lot. I spoke with him about it. He told his partner, I told mine. We are all very fond of each other. I don't think anyone was too surprised, no one was upset. He apologized to my partner for causing any stress or bad feelings. We're all pretty caring, loving folks, so we all hugged it out, life went on as usual.
But the realness of everything was still like a ton of bricks on my brain. I have been chewing on this situation, my feelings, and how to move forward nearly every day of all these months. Now, the seasonal work has started back up and I'm working with him every day again and I'm a fucking wreck. We've never had another conversation about it. I'm angry that he said something and screwed up what we had. There are things we did before that gave us a little more time together that now would possibly be suspect to our partners. Like once we went to a mutual friends party together because neither of our partners wanted to go. We went, we had good clean fun, we went home. But now, it would be awkward if we did that. I can say with 100% certainty I have never done or said anything that I wouldn't have if my partner were standing right there. Except the two convos with friend, one where he confessed, one where I asked what the hell and he clarified a little and explained he really wasn't trying to make anything happen/change/or be any different than it had been.
I'm now confused about my feelings about monogamy, commitment, love, intimacy. I'm not a very sexual person. I connect much more with people on a deep friendship level. If it wasn't for the memories of my 20's, I would probably say I'm asexual. This is not a lust situation, it's not NRE (This mutual tiny friendly crush has been going on for 5+ years. It's kind of clear to me what I want, which is just a little dedicated time with this person. But the thought of trying to navigate that with my partner who already has abandonment issues and is super insecure about my love, the thought of causing any pain to him, my very best friend in the whole universe, is crushing. It's not worth it. But is stuffing my feelings and letting myself just be eaten alive inside worth it? I'm still recovering from a year of stuffed feelings 25 years ago, I don't want to do that again. I kind of don't see a way forward without a lot of pain. I have no desire for my partner and my relationship to change. I love the life we have. I love him. Why can I love all my children but can't love two friends on a deeper level? To be clear, I have same sex friends who I feel similarly about, whom I miss dearly, and love, and hold hands with, and hug, and feel very intimately connected to. But I can tell them my heart hurts when I miss them. I can tell them that I love them. I can lay my head in their lap, and hold their hand on a walk. I'm free to express my feelings for them, but if I have that same sort of intimacy with a friend of the gender I've been historically attracted to, it's a betrayal.
What the hell can I do from here?? I really need some different perspectives on this. At this point I'm willing to start having some hard conversations, but I also don't know where to begin, I don't have great language for this situation, and I don't want to fuck things up. Do I talk to my partner? Or the friend? What if his partner is not ok with any of it? I'm ok with that if I know that boundary. I won't cross it and can deal with that. But I don't want to delve into the subject with my partner if it's a non-starter. HEEELLLPP!!
**EDIT to add (from other posting) : Was shamed for having an emotional affair and trying to justify it. I looked up signs you are having an emotional affair, I am doing exactly zero of those things. Nothing has happened after said revelation that didn't happen before. If anything, it's less.
TLDR: I'm (49F) happily married to partner (48M) for 20+ years. Family friend/co-worker of 7 years (50M) confessed long time crush almost a year ago. The feeling has always been mutual. All partners know, everything is good. NOTHING but friendship has ever happened. My mind is in a totally fucked up twist. What to do?!?!? I have to work closely with this person daily for 1/2 the year. Then miss them terribly the other half.

Recently got my first crested gecko, I have never owned a reptile before, but I have a lot of experience handling snakes. I have had him for about two weeks now, and I gave him a while to settle into his habitat. He seems healthy and well fed, I have seen him eat both gecko diet and crickets, so he should be in good shape. I tried stroking him a few times to start off slow and to build up confidence; but he would often get skittish and jump away (he stays very still when I am near the glass or attempting to handle him, idk if that means he is tense or not), I never tried to pet him whenever he would jump away, so he would think I am not a threat. I did manage to have him eat repashy off my finger, but that is as far as I have gotten. He is a little over 1 year old and still quite small, so I am afraid of damaging both him and any trust I might have built up.
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Advice would be much appreciated, thank you!

Current car is a 2015 Cayenne diesel with 70k miles. Starting to think about replacing it as I'm a little skeptical about how the EPA fix may have messed with long term reliability. I am not as wealthy as the car might make me sound. The class action settlement made it similarly priced to a small/midsize SUV when I bought in 2018. It was the steal of a lifetime.
My routine commute varies from 10-50mi round trip, Cayenne isn't the best here. But, I do 5+ long road trips a year which the Cayenne blows everything out of the water on! It loves highway cruising. 30+mpg and 700 miles to the tank.
Wants:
-SUV or truck(dog hauling and ski hauling, would camper shell a truck)
-AWD or 4WD(skiing, I know 2WD can be capable in the snow but California highway patrol disagrees, so 4 is easier here)
-2" receiver with decent tongue weight rating (frequently haul 200-250lb on luggage rack).
-I've towed with the Cayenne 2x in 5 years. So not a requirement but 5k towing would be nice to keep available.
-plug in hybrid intrigues me as it will be great for my daily commute. All electric is tough with the road trips.
-around 200" overall length max (garage constraint)
-would love to spend near 40, could maybe stretch to ~55 for the perfect car
The Cayenne has been a great car and I have no real reason to get rid of it, it's just the longevity concerns starting to creep into my head, along with a little bit of wanting something new and shiney a bit.
Let me know what you think! Or just tell me to smarten up and keep the Cayenne...

My dog was diagnosed with CKD back in October of 2022 and from there I was devastated and tried my absolute best live every single day like it was his last.
We first brought him to the emergency vet in October because he was vomiting and having loose stool. He was diagnosed and given treatment which brought his levels back up to almost normal levels, not normal because he still had kidney disease.
In terms of his activity levels they were normal and if not high for a senior dog until the last week or so of his life. He was nearly 14 and he was still running around, you would have thought he was no older than 7 if it weren’t for his kidneys. He was still super playful, bringing me toys to play tug of war with, asking to go to the back yard to play fetch, going down the stairs at light speed, jumping on and off the couch until his last week, chasing after squirrels, you name something an active dog does, he was doing it at 14.
Fast forward to April of this year it seemed like he was having another spill of bad kidney disease, potentially an acute on chronic episode like the last time or with pancreatitis. He was eating less and drinking about normal for kidney disease, maybe a little less, his energy levels weren’t normal at all, he was lethargic and didn’t want to get up much, he had loose stool, and would tend to throw up when he did eat. Despite his lack of energy and strength he always greeted me, my parents and everyone else at the door, although he struggled doing so.
We brought him to his vet again and was given a 2 week timeline of treatment where the prognosis was guarded, meaning his chances of succeeding with the treatment were about 50/50 I believe. At that time the vet did say if the treatment didn’t go well we should consider humane euthanasia. We went through with the treatment for about a week and saw little to no change.
From there we made the decision to put him to sleep. I cannot help but think what would have happened if we finished the rest of his treatment. Our vet said we were doing the right thing but I still can’t forgive myself. Would he still be here? Would I still be able to hug him? Would I be able to see him? I miss him so much and I cannot forgive myself for what I did.

Been a while since I stopped by here, but I absolutely need to vent this out.
I wanted to visit this girl I've known for a long time. We've been friends for a while, and our last meet-up didn't end too well because she had a mental illness. We're not here for that. Recently, we've patched things up and we want a redo of our trip.
My APs think she is a bad person for leaving me out to dry back then, my AD especially. He tells me he's worried it will happen again, he doesn't trust this girl, I should never trust "the white man" for anything because "We are Asian-American, Vietnamese, they will exploit us in any way they can", and tells me if she wants to meet me, she meets me in my home state instead of me going there. I'm "allowed" to go, they won't stop me, but it will "hurt" them if I do. They'll pay for all of her expenses, they tell me, - and I know this is just a joke and empty promises.
My APs always complain I never go anywhere. Never leave the house. They turn around and spit this back to me, insisting she comes over here and act like this is the correct thing, disregarding everybody else's plans that would make it easier.
We're due to see my uncle in California for his 70th birthday - and I've sort of been roped into it because my work has now been insistent I go over there, too, just to prospect clientele. I know they will spend about 3x what I'm about to tell you, because it's always happened over there.
I did the simple math. If she were to come down here she would have to find some pet caretakers for her cats, she'd be bringing her shiba inu dog with her, and would need to somehow request time off from a fresh new part-time job she's taken to refocus on herself. This would total out to $1,857 Day 0 for her to see me, and this doesn't even count for the food, entertainment, or anything else she desires. $162 + $600 plane ticket and pet onboarding, $918 + $75 for a week at a good and safe hotel with a pet policy deposit, $102 for Denver International parking for 6 days. She cannot stay with us because my parents think every white person is a burglar.
Then comparatively, I would just need $162 for a plane ticket. She would pick me up from the airport and staying in her house is free. At best, I'd likely spend $500 - $600, maximum $700, over the course of a week.
But sure, we're not gonna let the white man exploit us. You get the bad end of a deal because you won't let me go, but we're clearly not gonna let us Viets get taken advantage of.
I throw that to them but logic doesn't apply in their little world. "You need to stay at home for papa after that week because I have work, I cannot take time off work again" my AM says to me. Her work also includes an FMLA clause - meaning that no matter what, she can take time off for any undisclosed reasoning whatsoever in order to take care of herself. She's even taken off time just because she didn't want to deal with a boss that keeps constantly yelling at her, and that was no issue.
AD has been blind since 2022 due to failed surgeries, yet in recent times he's been becoming independent, getting used to his new life as a blind man. He can manage his own eyedrops, very slowly microwave food, read the clock, take a shower, go to the bathroom, etc etc. He does not need me to be around.
Bunch of hypocrites and their excuses.
I am not bending my knee to this. I am going to keep hounding them over this until they agree to let me go. No matter what.