So basically. I was taking weed edibles last night and I assume I had too much because at some point near the end of the high my heart started beating really fast like I could feel it in my chest which wasn't painful but was uncomfortable, and the funny feeling also went a little into my neck. I felt lightheaded and kept dissociating like I was missing the last five seconds, i was very out of it. I also felt very warm and could feel my pulse in my skin, though it was difficult to tell what was this and what was the high. I went upstairs and told my mum I thought I was having a heart attack and she told me it was an anxiety attack and got me into bed where I slept through the night, but I'm really not sure. I could feel my heartbeat when touching my chest and at any regular pulse point but she said she couldn't feel anything. How can you practically tell the difference between a heart attack and an anxiety attack?
For further context, I've been having heart palpitations recently due to anxiety and i've been going through a very stressful time. Even now my heart rate feels a little faster than it used to be
Age - 18 Sex - Female Height - 5'3" Weight - unknown, i'm mid-sized Race - white (ashkenazi) Country of residence - The United Kingdom Diagnosed issues - ADHD and depressive disorder, suspected autism No current medication Drug use - i drink and take marijuana edibles though I haven't got drunk in a while

Step ONE- download Download USB helper from tue official website (GitHub) Download Cemu from tue official site
Step TWO- install cemu
Extract the Cemu .zip file to your Desktop
Do not extract it to any folders that require admin permissions, such as Program Files I higly recommend to put the CEMU and oder cemu-related (like games) folder in documents.
RightClick on the Cemu executable Click Properties Navigate to the Compatibility tab Enable the option "Disable full-screen optimizations" Click on Change high DPI settings Enable "Use this setting to fix scaling problems for this program instead of the one in settings" Enable "Override high DPI scaling behaviour. Scaling performed by: Application" Click Apply -> OK
These options are set to help avoid issues on various Windows versions, and display resolutions. That said, one or more of these options will not be necessary for everyone, but not setting them may result in complications.
Step THREE- Coonfiguring CEMU Open the cemu.exe from your CEMU folder Create a folder in a safe location named "mlc01" Leave the "Game path" field blank Click "Download community graphic packs" Click Next
Step FOUR- Setting up a controller
In cemuClick Options Click Input Setting
Here you can add any controller and map it. if you will use more than one controller make sure they are both connected during configuration
For first on "EMULATED CONTROLLER" one of your controllers (if you have more than one) it must be configured as an Wiiu game pad. If you have only one contoller on "EMULATED CONTROLLER" select Wii U gamepad. On ControllerClick + and select, under API, SDLcontroller and under Controller select teh controller taht is connected to your PC. Once you have do this you can name the profile as you prefer.
IF YOU HAVE ISSUE WITH CO-OP IN SOME GAMES (LIKE MARIO KART 8) SET ALL THE CONTROLLERS AS WIIU PRO CONTROLLER
Step FIVE- Setting Up USB HELPER Open the "USBHelperInstaller.exe" file Click Next Click "I agree" Click next and dont touch anything Click Install and wait until teh program isn't install Click finish On the country selection screenClick Accept the EULA Select USA EVEN IF YOU ARE IN EUROPE (like me ;) ) or in other regions
Now select the folder were you prefer to keep the games (i created a folder in Documets colled "wiiu games")
Here you need to insert the key for downloading the games. Insert: "titlekeys.ovh" Wait for the complete installation
Step SIX- Download games
Search the game that you want to download (on the search bar) and click on his icon Click on ADD on the right Then on download (at the bottom of the screen which in the meantime has lit up in green)
If the game has dlc or updates to download DOWNLOAD them (usually just by click yes in the banner that asks you if you want to download dlc or updates) wait until the download finishes
Now right click on the downloaded games (on the left under Downloaded) ad select Unpack Select a folder where to put the unpacked games (i put it in a subfolder on "wiiu games" in Documents called cemugames)
Step SEVEN- Import games in CEMU
Open cemu an click on "Install game title, upate or DLC" and go to the folder were you have saved the upacked games. Open the "Base games" folder and then open the folder of the game that you want to install. Double click the meta.xml file under the meta folder
DO THE SAME THING FOR INSTALL UPADTE AND DLC
CONGRATULATIONS! YOU CAN NOW PALY WIIU GAMES ON CEMU! But...
---------------------For optimizing graphics performance drastically on cemu:------------------------------------------------
USE VULKAN API Click options and clik on general setting, thet go to graphics panel Choose Vulkan API to enjoy the best performance!
ENABLING THE ASYNC COMPILER In General settings, under the graphics tab go ahead and check the box against the Async shader compiler to enable Asyncrounous compiling.
MULTI CORE RECOMPILER In order to enable the multi-core recompiler, right-click on a game title on the home screen of Cemu. Then navigate to the ‘edit game profile’ section. After opening the Edit game profile tab change the ‘Mode’ under the CPU section to multi-core recompiler from single-core recompiler. Leave the quantum thread at the default value. Enable multi-core recompiler.
Thanks for reading, Alessandro

I'm from the East Coast of the US and would prefer someone around my age to speak with but it's not completely out of the question if you're a bit older, just be 18+. What I'm looking for is someone who also seeks a close friendship and is very genuine about how they are and their expectations, I specifically am looking for that connection that is made when I feel like I can really get to know someone or that we can be friends. Sometimes it's easy to go off of a common basis of mutual interests, but I also like learning about things that I normally don't experience or people telling me about themselves despite knowing they might do something differently than most. At the end of the day I hope that if everything goes well, we can be close friends for the future and be there for one another. An ideal situation would be just genuinely caring about one another and being able to talk clearly about anything, not judging but understanding instead. As for how I think I like to treat people and others? I'd like to say I'm very empathetic and I don't judge anyone regardless of who they are or what they believe in. In my free time I mainly play games and watch movies and sometimes shows, anime as well, I watch YouTube or streams when I am idling or chilling. I also have existing friends whom I speak with a lot that I hang out with, but this is not to say I wouldn't obviously give someone else the time of day to talk to and get to know. I really like psychological horror movies and shows with great cinematography, The shining is my favorite of all time and my second favorite though not horror is the Grand Budapest Hotel. I play games like Dead by Daylight (mainly as of recent) as well as League a little bit, Smite, Garry's Mod, Warhammer, Mordhau. I have other games as well that I simply haven't been interested or don't play as much recently. I would hope someone would take the time to be able to read everything and if all goes well we could likely move to Discord if you prefer, the messenger on reddit is quite buggy lol. I am a bit of a night owl so do keep that in mind, hope to meet nice people :)

I keep thinking maybe this time I’m getting better and it’s not that bad, but then I come back to realize I just can’t get out as easily.
This week, I told myself I wouldn’t drink at all or AT MOST until Thursday (I had someone to hang out with). Well. I drank on Tuesday because I had time alone so my brain automatically went "must seize the opportunity" like a starving animal having 10 minutes to steal food. Acted to myself like it didn’t happen, I had been 11 days sober, the only reason I had alcohol available is because I panicked during grocery shopping but I didn’t buy it too much "on purpose" like usual. So. Okay. Act like that didn’t happen. Sure. Fine. No reset. I’m stopping anyway. No big deal. On Wednesday I wasn’t alone so I didn’t, Thursday (yesterday) went very well, but yesterday night I was very tired and started feeling guilty about the day, how I don’t deserve any of it, how I was annoying, how I make plans with others and get excited but always give up and ruin it all because it’s too hard to sustain mentally etc… I also wanted to drink but wasn’t alone nor had anything, and I thought "I can drink tomorrow" but ended up deciding against it just because I wouldn’t have time to get out to get some, drink and sober up in time, and on weekends I’m not alone (I know if we had been one day earlier I would have). I went to sleep and hoped it would be better by morning because I knew these thoughts were mainly because I was tired.
Today I woke up, it wasn’t as bad but the thoughts are still there. As well as drinking, but again I thought as I only had today there wouldn’t be enough time. But the thought quickly escalated into « just go get it today, even if you can barely drink, we don’t care, at least you’ll have it ready for Monday »
And it makes me so mad. Like I’ve always been between "it’s not that bad I think? I can stop, I don’t actually have an issue and wow who would purposefully label themselves as alcoholic if they aren’t that’s fucked up so yeah no I don’t have an issue I think???" and "fuck I know how (addictions) go with me I’m an addiction magnet I should stop I know I need to stop please stop", but as time passes by I still haven’t stopped and I’m more and more picturing myself taking any occasion to drink and doing it constantly because I can’t last as long as I used to in between "sessions" (it used to be every few months at first, then weeks, and now pretty much every week; I’m basically alone at home during the week but not on weekends, so most Monday/Tuesday/Thursday/Fridays are free to become default "drinking days"…)
I’m "only" 22 and have every recovery thing going for me (as best as it can) as opposed to the 10 last years of my life that were made of chaos, so I should only strive for it? Why the fuck do I keep on wanting to destroy myself? I’m so fucking sad and mad, when will these thoughts leave me alone? How am I supposed to stop drinking, when it won’t stop until I stop, but I can’t bring myself to stop and always go for another day "waiting for the day I will magically have the willpower to quit". I’m also becoming aware I’m heading into "lying to myself (this time it’s fine/I’m not counting this etc)" territory instead of just brushing it off as "I don’t care to stop yet" and it scares me because it "finally" feels slipping off. I knew it’d come. But stupidly hoped it wouldn’t and maybe it’d be different than for literally everyone else before me, yknow? Sigh.
I was set on not going today at least, not caring if I go next week, but now I don’t know anymore, I’m obsessing over it badly. That’s also a trait of my (autistic) brain I just want to take out rip off and tear apart. Once I have something in mind I can’t get it off. I know I shouldn’t, but all I wanna do right now is say fuck it, curl into a ball, cry, then head for that fucking store. I feel so sad.

This is driving me insane, I've been looking for a Bocchi The Rock! post which was a piece of art of all the 4 main characters late at night and I think it was either raining or it just had rained, I believe they were outside some sort of food stall? or some sort of stalll? I think they were holding drinks. it was coloured and looked fantastic, but I couldn't find it again, mostly because to find it I would search something like "Bocchi The rock, art" or " Bocchi The Rock, Drawing" and then I'd have to cost through the billions of not exactly safe art of this show, so if anyone knows the drawing I am referring too, please leave a link of it. Thank you in advance. I remember it was in portrait. if that helps. part of me remembers it said it was done using "ink" but I remember it looked digital, but I do have poor memory. It was definitely done after the anime released due to the updated designs.
(this technically counts as fan art)

Hi! I'm 24F from Philippines, currently living independently away from the province. I've been struggling with health anxiety features since 2020 but it became much worse last year after a major health issue I encountered. Apologies for the length, but I appreciate your patience. Any comments are much welcome.
TL;DR: I'm a 24-year-old woman living independently, dealing with health anxiety that has worsened after a major health issue last year. I underwent unexpected surgery and a six-month medication for a cancer scare, with physical recovery at 90% but mental struggles persisting. Anxiety triggers my GERD and vice versa, leading to sleepless nights and fear of death. I have dextroscoliosis, hyperacidity, and a recent diagnosis of hiatal hernia. Seeking help for persistent back pain, neck pressure, and nerve tingling, unsure where to start. Considering a neurologist for a brain scan or a psychiatrist for mental health support. Financial difficulties add to the challenges. Open to guidance and recommendations.
Just a background, I already struggle with a couple of conditions through the years:
*have dextroscoliosis since I was 14
*have hyperacidity, recently diagnosed with hiatal hernia (Feb 2023)
Everything went down last August 2022 when I experienced chest pain at work and was rushed to the ER. While my ECG was normal, I was advised to undergo a chest MRI due to my dextroscoliosis. Surprisingly, my spine was found to be stable, but the scan revealed a 4cm mediastinal mass near my thymus gland. Initially suspected as thymoma, a type of cancer, I sought a second opinion and consulted a thoracic cardiovascular surgeon. The TCVS specialist believed it was likely a benign tumor but advised against a direct biopsy due to its delicate location. Consequently, we opted for surgery in September. During the procedure, the tumors were successfully removed, and a frozen section indicated tuberculosis (TB) as the cause. As the remaining cysts were benign, they were also excised. After two weeks of hospitalization, a second biopsy confirmed the tuberculosis diagnosis, and I was referred to the TB program for treatment.
Surprisingly, my TB was almost asymptomatic, with only occasional chest pain as the noticeable symptom. It's alarming to realize that the virus can manifest in such a manner. I have been diligently took my prescribed medication for 6 months but I have struggled with the harsh side effects. The initial two weeks were particularly challenging, as I was recovering from surgery while enduring the medication-induced vomiting, body pain, and fatigue. Additionally, the post-surgery pills caused severe acid reflux. While sputum accompanied by acid was common, I experienced blood in my sputum once, but the doctor reassured me that it was normal. I also experienced excessive hypersalivation for three weeks, likely due to stress and anxiety, but that has subsided after a recent follow-up checkup. Overall, I underwent significant physical, mental, and emotional distress.
In March 2023, I completed my TB medication, but unfortunately, it had a negative impact on my gastrointestinal health. To address my worsening condition, I underwent an endoscopy in February 2023 while still on my TB medication. The results revealed that I have a Level 3 Hiatal Hernia and Non-erosive Gastritis. Fortunately, I tested negative for H. pylori infection and received clearance from Barrett's esophagus, stomach ulcers, and other potential diagnoses. My doctor prescribed Pantoprazole 40mg for 30 days, and since then, I have noticed a significant reduction in acid reflux and heartburn.
It is worth mentioning that during the past seven months, I have been admitted to the emergency room four times due to mistaking severe heartburn for a heart attack. These experiences have heightened my health anxiety to some extent.
Currently, I am no longer taking any medication, but I am facing challenges with persistent back pain, pressure in the upper neck, and nerve tingling. I recently had an X-ray and consulted with my orthopedic specialist, who attributed my symptoms to overwork and recommended starting physical therapy within two weeks.
However, things have worsened since then. Over the past five days, my sleep pattern has been extremely disrupted. I manage to sleep, but it's far from the restful slumber I am accustomed to. On workdays, I am grateful for just three hours of sleep. Last night was particularly difficult as I couldn't sleep at all until 7 AM. I constantly feel a sensation of choking and suffocation, even without any apparent trigger. Although my blood pressure and pulse rate are normal, I can't shake the feeling that I might die the moment I fall asleep.
Sharing this here is incredibly difficult for me, and I humbly request your patience and understanding. I'm breaking down as I type this, to be honest. I am seeking guidance on where to seek help. Should I begin by consulting a neurologist for a brain scan, as I'm unsure if my discomfort and nerve tingling are related to neurological issues? Or would it be more appropriate to start with a psychiatrist? Additionally, I would appreciate any recommendations for reputable institutions or healthcare providers, as I am currently facing financial challenges due to medical expenses incurred last year.
Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I am grateful for your support, and I extend my best wishes to everyone for their well-being and recovery.

This is driving me insane, I've been looking for a Bocchi The Rock! post which was a piece of art of all the 4 main characters late at night and I think it was either raining or it just had rained, I believe they were outside some sort of food stall? or some sort of stalll? I think they were holding drinks. it was coloured and looked fantastic, but I couldn't find it again, mostly because to find it I would search something like "Bocchi The rock, art" or " Bocchi The Rock, Drawing" and then I'd have to cost through the billions of not exactly safe art of this show, so if anyone knows the drawing I am referring too, please leave a link of it. Thank you in advance. I remember it was in portrait. if that helps. part of me remembers it said it was done using "ink" but I remember it looked digital, but I do have poor memory. It was definitely done after the anime released due to the updated designs.
(this technically counts as fan art)

Hi! I'm 24F, currently living independently away from the province. I've been struggling with health anxiety features since 2020 but it became much worse last year after a major health issue I encountered. Apologies for the length, but I appreciate your patience. Any comments are much welcome.
TL;DR: I'm a 24-year-old woman living independently, dealing with health anxiety that has worsened after a major health issue last year. I underwent unexpected surgery and a six-month medication for a cancer scare, with physical recovery at 90% but mental struggles persisting. Anxiety triggers my GERD and vice versa, leading to sleepless nights and fear of death. I have dextroscoliosis, hyperacidity, and a recent diagnosis of hiatal hernia. Seeking help for persistent back pain, neck pressure, and nerve tingling, unsure where to start. Considering a neurologist for a brain scan or a psychiatrist for mental health support. Financial difficulties add to the challenges. Open to guidance and recommendations.
Just a background, I already struggle with a couple of conditions through the years: *have dextroscoliosis since I was 14 *have hyperacidity, recently diagnosed with hiatal hernia (Feb 2023)
Everything went down last August 2022 when I experienced chest pain at work and was rushed to the ER. While my ECG was normal, I was advised to undergo a chest MRI due to my dextroscoliosis. Surprisingly, my spine was found to be stable, but the scan revealed a 4cm mediastinal mass near my thymus gland. Initially suspected as thymoma, a type of cancer, I sought a second opinion and consulted a thoracic cardiovascular surgeon. The TCVS specialist believed it was likely a benign tumor but advised against a direct biopsy due to its delicate location. Consequently, we opted for surgery in September. During the procedure, the tumors were successfully removed, and a frozen section indicated tuberculosis (TB) as the cause. As the remaining cysts were benign, they were also excised. After two weeks of hospitalization, a second biopsy confirmed the tuberculosis diagnosis, and I was referred to the TB program for treatment.
Surprisingly, my TB was almost asymptomatic, with only occasional chest pain as the noticeable symptom. It's alarming to realize that the virus can manifest in such a manner. I have been diligently took my prescribed medication for 6 months but I have struggled with the harsh side effects. The initial two weeks were particularly challenging, as I was recovering from surgery while enduring the medication-induced vomiting, body pain, and fatigue. Additionally, the post-surgery pills caused severe acid reflux. While sputum accompanied by acid was common, I experienced blood in my sputum once, but the doctor reassured me that it was normal. I also experienced excessive hypersalivation for three weeks, likely due to stress and anxiety, but that has subsided after a recent follow-up checkup. Overall, I underwent significant physical, mental, and emotional distress.
In March 2023, I completed my TB medication, but unfortunately, it had a negative impact on my gastrointestinal health. To address my worsening condition, I underwent an endoscopy in February 2023 while still on my TB medication. The results revealed that I have a Level 3 Hiatal Hernia and Non-erosive Gastritis. Fortunately, I tested negative for H. pylori infection and received clearance from Barrett's esophagus, stomach ulcers, and other potential diagnoses. My doctor prescribed Pantoprazole 40mg for 30 days, and since then, I have noticed a significant reduction in acid reflux and heartburn.
It is worth mentioning that during the past seven months, I have been admitted to the emergency room four times due to mistaking severe heartburn for a heart attack. These experiences have heightened my health anxiety to some extent.
Currently, I am no longer taking any medication, but I am facing challenges with persistent back pain, pressure in the upper neck, and nerve tingling. I recently had an X-ray and consulted with my orthopedic specialist, who attributed my symptoms to overwork and recommended starting physical therapy within two weeks.
However, things have worsened since then. Over the past five days, my sleep pattern has been extremely disrupted. I manage to sleep, but it's far from the restful slumber I am accustomed to. On workdays, I am grateful for just three hours of sleep. Last night was particularly difficult as I couldn't sleep at all until 7 AM. I constantly feel a sensation of choking and suffocation, even without any apparent trigger. Although my blood pressure and pulse rate are normal, I can't shake the feeling that I might die the moment I fall asleep.
Sharing this here is incredibly difficult for me, and I humbly request your patience and understanding. I'm breaking down as I type this, to be honest. I am seeking guidance on where to seek help. Should I begin by consulting a neurologist for a brain scan, as I'm unsure if my discomfort and nerve tingling are related to neurological issues? Or would it be more appropriate to start with a psychiatrist? Additionally, I would appreciate any recommendations for reputable institutions or healthcare providers, as I am currently facing financial challenges due to medical expenses incurred last year.
Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I am grateful for your support, and I extend my best wishes to everyone for their well-being and recovery.

I never replay games. I’m more of a one and done it kind of guy, but something about ATB’s gameplay and story compelled me to play it not once, not twice, but four times at the time of writing. It certainly helps that the game is short (although I think the universal praise of The Outer Wilds demonstrates that this isn’t a bad thing).
My latest playthrough clocked in at ~35 minutes at the time of writing in order to get the Toot Sweet achievement. Ironically, this exact pursuit of achievements led me to get the Librarian achievement and, ultimately, finally read all the story notes chronologically.
Notwithstanding, ATB is a nauseatingly haunting game on harder difficulties. The monster is deadly, the resources are scarce, the tone is grim, and the darkness encompasses it all. Above all of this, the story is worth telling and I posit that the game’s genre, coupled with the Amnesia brand being notoriously terrifying if PewDewPie is to be believed, will prevent a lot of people from playing it. That’s such a shame.
Without further obfuscation, I want to encourage you to play the game; immerse yourself in its world and discover its truth for yourself. Your appreciation for the story will only compound the more time you spend stalking the halls of the unnamed bunker it takes place in.
For those of you that don’t care to play it, but appreciate a good story, read ahead. SPOILER WARNING.
ATB’s story begins before the player ever takes control of the protagonist, Henri Clemont, a Soldier in the French Army at the Battle of Pozieres during World War I.
April 1916 – Toussaint Beaufoy – What Could Be Worse than War?
On 2 April, 1916, Henri’s embattled unit receives orders to dig their bunker deeper so that their chain of command can laud it as a symbol of French patriotism and eventual victory in the war.
The calamity of World War I, having already wrought havoc on the bodies and minds of Henri’s unit, is only intensified by these foolhardy orders. This bunker is destined to become “a rancid, stinking pit. A void, a hole. Full of men, scared and confused.”
Eight days later, on 10 April, Henri’s compatriot, Toussaint Beaufoy, pens a poem We Whirl the World that reflects on the grim events of the war and foreshadows the events of the game.

We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost in a terrible twirl
Can’t see the sun for all the smoke
Can’t see the ground for all the dead folk
Can’t see the ocean, can’t see the trees
So I stay here down on my knees
We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost in a binding twirl
A snarl in the dark
A sad day in the park
A stone reminder
A horse’s dirty blinder
A child’s empty hand
A friend’s stained armband
The news of the day on the stand
We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost in a bloody twirl
What comes next around the bend?
Maybe it’ll be some kind of end
More likely another shrill, shrill whistle,
Magic that turns men into gristle.
We whirl the world
The world we whirl
It all gets lost and still we twirl

Henri’s unit begins digging and on 30 April, another soldier, Alex Noyer, extrapolates on why the unit has been ordered to dig: the bunker lay atop Roman ruins that extend towards the German lines. The command wants to use these prebuilt tunnels to launch a surprise attack on the enemy. However, Noyer’s interest lay more in the archaeological significance of the dig.
With the dig well underway, the other soldiers begin to experience haunting symptoms. Notably, Beaufoy, who witnesses some horror on the night of 5 May, that shatters his psyche. He refuses to discuss what he witnessed with anybody, yet he revels in it; “I want to go back to that place. I want to feel that way. I want the violence and the ecstasy and the pitch-black darkness.”
May 1916 - Alex Noyer’s Journal - Digging Up a Dark Secret
A week later (9 May), Noyer is presented with archaic texts uncovered during the digging. He begins to read them and discovers the texts are not of typical Roman writings. Rather, the texts are religiously significant repeating the phrase “to cross into darkness and beyond.”
These texts originated from a people that believed they found the key to immortality, a blessing bestowed upon them from some “other world… dominated by darkness… ruled by something…” These damned texts went on to describe this world as “full of spirits, monsters and that the air there was endlessly alive with cries of torment and the sickly rattle of souls near death.”
The tunnels that the men were digging were used by this ancient people as a portal to this “pagan hell.”
This manifested in our world as the need for the followers to commit sickening acts that appealed to the primal instincts of humanity; “blood orgies, of sadistic spirits, of the awful things these men and women would do to each other in worship of darkness” and a magical liquid that would grant the believer’s immortality in darkness.
Noyer enters the tunnels sometime on 14 May, and discovers more of the cursed history of the tunnels. “The Romans used these tunnels to hold sadistic bacchanals, great festivals of cruel combat, torture and worse... held in an arena over a great pit.” His command writes him off as paranoid, and Noyer resolves to enter the tunnels.
On 25 May, Noyer is recovered after screaming in the damp excavation sight until his vocal cords were annihilated – alive but utterly terrified.
June 1916 - Farber - Am I Out of Touch? No, It’s the Soldiers Who Are Wrong.
Noyer warns his brother-in-arms about the texts and truth of the ruins they are excavating. As the truth and panic spread, the Command begins punishing those who speak of the more sinister presence that is permeating the halls of the bunker.
Throughout the month of May, the soldiers are gripped with a waking terror that seeps into their dreams, all the while having to fight a war notorious for its brutality. Noyer writes, “we’re stuck between the Germans in front of us, high command behind us, and some other horrible force that seems to lurk in shadows all around us. I fear we are now truly beyond God’s reach.”
Rumors of the truth that Noyer uncovered begin to spread amongst the men. Despite taking the assertions of the malevolent presence seriously, the command chooses to contain the panic through force.
Incensed by Noyer’s ominous warnings, a rebellion is formed on 28 May with a soldier only known as “Farber” at its helm. The mission is simple: contain the evil of the tunnels by sabotaging the digging efforts with a cave in. Farber notes that each of the five recruits is exceptionally eager to end the waking nightmare, particularly Beaufoy.
Their efforts are successful and the soldiers experience a brief abatement from the ever-present fear, only to be discovered and subsequently tortured by their Commanding Officers, Reynard and Delpy. None are spared the persecution, save for Beaufoy, who is presumed to have been killed in the blast that undoes the dig. The last thing any other soldier saw of him was Beaufoy telling them he had “other work to do,” whilst pointing to his own eyes.
Despite the ordeal, no participant reveals Farber as the mastermind, and Farber is forever indebted to the brotherhood.
The officers of the unit do four things in the wake of this unthinkable act of insubordination: (1) abandon the tunnel, (2) punish the conspirators, (3) send the remaining men on dangerous combat patrols and (4) order more wine. No lesson learned, no warning heed.
Of minor note, on the evening of 30 June, after one such combat patrol, a German prisoner is captured. Small recompense for the men routinely thrown into the meat grinder of enemy machine guns and command tribunals.
July 1916 – Henri Clément – Buddy Fucker with a Conscious
Another such raid is ordered on 8 July, and Henri has a plan to not go. Henri and his best friend, Augustin Lambert, decide that the winner of a game of chance will not have to risk their life this evening and the other will go in their friend’s place. Henri cheats, rationalizing it as a harmless prank, condemning Lambert to endure the battlefield once more. Henri is sure Lambert will return, unscathed, and cannot wait to see the look on his face when he learns what Henri did.
Only, Lambert doesn’t return. As the dusk of 8 July turns into dawn, Henri is wrought with guilt. He resolves to recover his friend. It is here, that the player finally takes control of the protagonist.
Henri discovers Lambert at the bottom of a pit. Not a crater from artillery, a borderline incomprehensibly large depression. Henri makes his way down and renders aid to his battered, but alive, compatriot. Henri gathers water from the pit, and nurses his friend before they attempt to escape.

Patrol Report – 10 July 1916
Odd occurrences last night. Sdt. Lambert, thought dead after his patrol on the 8th, returned to the barracks in fine health. He carried with him Sdt. Clément – severely wounded from an explosion.
Lambert reports the following:
-That midway through his patrol on the 8th he fell into a deep crater and was unable to escape.
-Clément, his close friend, snuck out after him last night, located him in the crater, and carried him out.
-They were spotted and in the ensuing attack, Clément was injured by an explosion. It fell on Lambert to carry him back.
Very odd that Lambert was neither injured from the fall nor the explosion AND that he ended up saving the man who came to save him.
But battlefield luck is an odd thing. In every life, fate’s winds blow erratic.
Judging by Lambert’s description, the crater he fell into seems to have been located very close to the Roman tunnels we unearthed. It may have been a result of work down there.
Recommend a future patrol to investigate and make sure we have not opened a backdoor into our own bunker.

Henri remains comatose for ten(?) days.
July 1916 – Augustin Lambert – The Nightmare Is Only Beginning
Lambert, having dodged death, reflects on the events of his ill-fated patrol. His loss of hope at the bottom of the inescapable pit, and the angelic reprieve he received from Henri. He notes how the water Henri nursed him with “was cool and crisp, with a strange, sweet taste. Never has water felt more nourishing than that, administered by a dear friend’s hand.”
Despite surviving, Lambert’s survival is dampened by the loss of a toy he bought for his son – the toy he believes to be in the pit where he almost lost his life.
Lambert grows stronger by the day. However, with Lambert’s return, so do the haunts that plagued his fellow Soldiers. Scratching at the walls and an overt ghostly howling emanates throughout the halls at night.
July 1916 – Stéphane Joubert – Oh Yeah, The Murders.
The first to fall Reynard on 15 July. Hardly a loss after his treatment of the soldiers, but certainly a catalyst for even further distrust.
Stéphane Joubert, another officer, reflects on the evening of the murder in his journal. He had heard a commotion in the hallway, but assumed it be Reynard drunk on his secret stash of wine. No one was aware anything was wrong until they heard the screaming. He is concerned for the harshness in which his fellow officers treat the men, particularly in the wake of this death.
The remaining officers interrogate the men, after all, a murderer was so clearly amongst them.
Paranoia grips the men, who are the prime suspects due to their contempt for Reynard. But the brutality and sadistic nature of the murder was beyond the pale? The autopsy read:

Body of Sgt. Reynard.
Multiple lacerations. Chest cavity torn to shreds. Every rib cracked. Skull cracked open by repeated blunt force trauma.
Who could have done this to him?

Amid the violence, Farber, driven mad by the resurgence of the haunting presence, resolves to kill it himself to atone for being the only man left unpunished for the tunnel sabotage. When the evil presence, emboldened by the murder of Reynard, returns, Farber is there. He shoots the Beast and it retreats into the shadows.
But it did not forget. It returned ten minutes later and pulled Farber into the wall, “screaming… praying for salvation.”
The men note something familiar about the Beast as it continues to hunt them; like it knows who they are.
The officers abandon the men, escaping and blowing the entrance to the bunker behind them – condemning the soldiers to evisceration by an unkillable force. Joubert, the only bastion of morality amongst the officers, is among the escapees all the same He leaves the men one chance at salvation.

Fournier, our commanding officer!, cowers next to me now. He’s lost his mind to an abyss of fear…
He wants to run, to blow up the exit behind him.. Sealing the demon down here… The demon AND our men.
His constant refrain, it is getting to me… and that same void of terror… it is also overtaking me.
To any of my men who see this: once we’re free of this place, I will get the arsenal code from him. I will get it and I will radio it back to you.
Trapped down here with that beast, the arsenal may be your only hope. It’s all I can do. All I have courage to do…
Get to the communications room in the Soldier Quarters. Hide there. I’ll broadcast the code to you.
-Joubert

The men, responded to such hollow words:

The officers have abandoned us! They ran from the beast and blew the exit closed behind them. Even Joubert…
They called us cowards and traitors and worse… Hypocrites. Now they’ve doomed us.
Whatever hell we suffer now, it is on them. God will punish them for what they’ve done.

July 1916 – Henri Clément – The Game Begins
The game begins with Henri awakening in the hospital bed from comatose state. He doesn’t remember the past, but that’s why we have spent about 2400 words going over that. The gameplay of Amnesia is self-explanatory – gather resources, avoid the monster, escape.
In order to accomplish this goal Henri has several sub objectives that, for convenience, we’ll cover in two parts: Get the Dynamite and Get the Detonation Handle. This isn’t a walk through, every playthrough of the game is different, but you learn the fates of several characters through extrapolating on the relationship between the notes and the game itself. Play the game and get stalked by the monster for the horror experience.
Get the Dynamite (Located in the Armory):
· Located in the armory, Henri first needs to retrieve a code to unlock said armory. The code, you recall, Joubert promised to broadcast to the soldiers. After solving the daisy chain issue in the Soldier’s Quarters and finding the requisite key, Henri makes his way to the communication room. Joubert is true to his word, he is still broadcasting the code. Henri can now retrieve the dynamite.
Get the Detonator Handle (Located in the Tunnels):
· First order of business is to recover a ratchet wrench that allows access into the Prisoner Control room in the Prison section of the bunker. The wrench is in Foreman Stafford’s locker, but you’ll have to find the code. Henri discovers that Stafford made his way to the Bunker’s Pillbox as a means of escape. However, the Pillbox is locked with the only key being in the bunker’s Chapel. Henri makes his way to the chapel to uncover an unholy display of twisted bodies – an achievement pops up revealing this is the Beast’s nest. In the confessional, Henri discovers the priest (otherwise insignificant to the story) nailed to the wall. He recovers the key and returns to the Pillbox. At the top, Stafford is there, a bullet through the eye from an enemy sniper – a grim reminder that you’re still fighting a war.
· The wrench is to help gain access to the Captured German Prisoner’s cell, left abandoned; Geneva Convention be damned. What we want in the cell is a pair of bolt cutters that had been used to torture the prisoner. Opening his cell alerts the monster, whom promptly murders the poor prisoner (although there is a slightly happier disposition in which you retrieve the bolt cutters before the Beast gets to him – are you quick enough to save his life? Do you even want to?)
· The bolt cutters grant access to the chained-shut tunnels. The haunted tunnels. The Pagan Hell. Ghostly apparitions due exist down here skulking the fog teasing you with the evil you’ve read so much about. Impossible rock formations alongside Roman statues and columns, this place is truly unearthly. But then you hear a voice, the first voice you’ve heard since the prisoner you couldn’t understand died. “We whirl the world…” Its Beaufoy, whom has gouged his own eyes out and roams the fog with a shotgun and homicidal intent – still more work to do. He will kill you, so you must put your fellow soldier down. Is it better this way? At least that shotgun is yours now *finger guns*.
· If you explore a little more, after finding the detonator handle, you’ll find a small tunnel that leads to the pit. The pit the game began in, the pit with the small rabbit toy Lambert lost. Shit, what happened to Lambert?
You retreat to the beginning of the game. Hook up the dynamite and blow it. Make your way to escape. You find yourself at a grand arena above a bottomless pit. With the Beast standing between you and salvation. Is there really a boss battle in this game? Winning it reveals the final truth.
Lambert is the monster. Your best friend, corrupted by the water you nursed into him to save his life. Presenting the toy to him prior to the final battle when he tries to kill you causes him to take it, run to his fucked-up chapel nest, and place it on a pedestal. There is still humanity there, and that’s why he recognized those he killed.
But this is a grand arena over a great pit, and losers go into the pit. Use the toy to hold the monster up on the destructible bridges and, while he plays with it, blast the bridge itself – pulling the literal floor out from underneath him – eternal darkness awaits.
Now flee, make your way to salvation. You see sunlight. You breach the rocks and roll down a slope into a pit of dead comrades. At least you’re free of that beast.
As you bask in the light you hear “SCHNELL, SCHNELL” and searchlights beginning to scan where you just fell from.
Fuck, you’re still in a war.
A grotesquely unsettling story of overcoming shitty circumstances and still losing. What’s that like an 8? Probably an 8.

Questions:

• Do some mod types have a higher chance of causing save file corruption?
  
• Other than testing each mod by themselves one at a time, is there a way to ID (or narrow down) which mod is causing a save file corruption issues?
  

Context:

• I had a very stable modset for the last 6 months or so.
  
• Recently downloaded these mods, and now get corrupted save files almost immediately.
  

Scenario:

• I spawn in via Skyrim Unbound. I intentionally die quite quickly - it fails to load as the initial save is already corrupted.
  
• I can sometimes exit the game and relaunch the game and the save files will appear fine, letting me spawn in.
  
• However if I die again at some point, the game wont load the save file, instead just staring at my dead body.
  

I know people often point to the SSE Engine Fixes modto address save file corruption - but its my understanding that this is typically for save files that have gotten too large (certainly not the case in save file that has only existed for a few minutes, as is my case.
Would anyone like to share an informed guess at which of these is causing the save file corruption issue?
I dont believe there are any overlap issues with the different DB mods - but I could of course be wrong.

Thanks to anyone who attempts!

ARMOCLOTHING
Amulets of Skyrim
Garrett Thief Armor
Rugged Rogue Outfits
Silencers Vestments
Simple Thief Outfit

BUG FIXES
Opulent Thieves Guild FPS Fix

DUNGEONS
Skyrim Sewers 4

ENVIRONMENTAL
Statue of Sithis

GAMEPLAY
Edmond's A Change in Managment
Save The Dark Brotherhood

GUILDS/FACTIONS
Dark Brotherhood Reborn
Opulent Thieves Guild
Outlaws Refuges
Thieves Guild Requirements SE

MODELS AND TEXTURES
Dark Brotherhood Tenets
Archet's Dark Brotherhood - Improved Shadowmere
Frankly HD Nightingale Armor and Weapons
Night Mummy

OVERHAULS
Thieves' Night On the Town

PATCHES
Dark Brotherhood Reborn - Patch Collection
Opulent Thieves Guild - Sneak Tools compatibility patch
Opulent Thieves Guild Patch Collection

PLAYER HOMES
Canalside Bunker

QUESTS AND ADVENTURES
Skyrim Extended Cut - Saints and Seducers
The Brotherhood of Old
Your Choices Matter

STEALTH
Realistic AI Detection
Stealth Magic

VISUALS AND GRAPHICS
Enhanced Lights and FX

WEAPONS
DX Faction Crossbows SE
Sithis Armour

• Sendoshi hi
• Hi Mariel, how are you My name is Setoshi Ando I am 17 years old and I study in high school I live separately from my parents I work well, in principle, I can't tell you anything more because I live an ordinary school life and I don't stand out in any way either with academic success or in sports in general, an ordinary schoolboy of whom there are a million around the world and the girl who stands next to me is called Mariel we classmates and friends, she is the best in the class both in school and in sports, plus she is also the most beautiful girl in school, so she is also the class's prizedent
• Everything is fine with you, what is it like
• Everything is fine, by the way, what do you think to do after class
• Yes, as always, first to work, then home, well, maybe I'll go to the store to eat what I'll buy for myself and what
• Yes, it's nothing simple
• Suspicious, but okay *Ding
• Oh, the bell for the lesson well, I'll go to my desk
• Yeah, come on, by the way, what's the lesson now
• Mathematics
• Thank you 15 minutes after the start of the lesson there is a knock on the door
• Sorry for being late, you can go to the place
• I'm late again
• I'm sorry, please -okay, come sit down "Yato my friend was late for 15 minutes as usual, everything is stable he is older than me by a year and a half, but not because because he was left for the second he just went to school a year later than the rest of the children sitting next to me yato is a fan of anime series and movies, but more of course he loves anime, like me, he doesn't really stand out in his studies, but he doesn't go to physical education for health reasons and sometimes when I forget my uniform, we play chess * *Ding the end of the first lesson Hello Hi everything is stable as always you are 15 minutes late Actually, it's 14 minutes and 45 seconds, so I'm earlier today Oh for as much as 15 seconds well that's progress I think Yes, yes I watched anime all night again Well of course how else is it Well, yes, you sleep when at all Sleep is for the weak the goal of my life is to watch all the anime that there is and lack of sleep is not a hindrance to me You know that this is not possible because new titles are released every day Well, what if I still succeed and then I

I'd be glad if anyone have time for to read this and I don't know if this will help but I just said why shouldn't I try to write it down on somewhere so here it is.
As a teenager (20yo in this october) who lives in Turkey and have learned just enough english to write something down in from school and self teaching. I feel like I'm not for this world to live, like, I don't like nor handle people around me If I dont like them. I mean, how do people even work in such jobs that you have to tolerance people and serve them in some way. I can't handle that.
My dad works for his job but his shop is for rent like our home (me, my dad, and my grandma) and we pay our rents by my grandma's salary. And the country is going to be worse next years, turkish liras is getting worthless and worthless day by day. I just can't handle being poor and have no money in my wallet as I see anyone having no issues with money or coming from rich family which you can understand that I'm not that lucky.
For this reason, I've met someone and he teached me how to make money my selling league of legends accounts. As someone who don't have and specific talent or don't want to deal with people I liked this idea to way make money. It was good at first, the money I made was my first earned and it was my money. I forgot to mention that my dad is wasting money on himself as he wishes and we don't have something common, It really hurts that I don't like him and we rarely talk...
So I try to work in his shop but I really don't know if its the worst job ever or am I just autistic and can't handle it. He doesn't giving me money until I mentioned about this money issue but still, ever since I knew him, he was always in debt. And this never changed.
As I made money by selling league of legends accounts, (making it 30lvl and selling it on website) even though I don't know what to spend on my money, I tried to make it more by crypto. I traded in and used "futures", like, the leverage and long-short one. At first I made 40 dollars to 250 around dollars.
Then I deleted binance and kept going on my life without risking it. But, my ex texted me and she was so toxic and bad to me idk why did I texted back to her. We met and went to theme park and had one day together. I spent some money as normally, around 35 dollars. I don't usually spend this much money so I panicked and got back in crypto shit...
As you can guess I've lost all my money and then went into depression for 1 week
Then after 1 month, I was telling myself to not get in crypto again and at least stay with what I lost. But one night my dad came in to my room and saw the airpods I bought for myself and I haven't told him because he'd ask me with which money did I buy it. So I made him believe that it was fake airpods and told him cheaper price and that I saved some money to buy it, he believed but still got mad to me because not telling him.
So I got mad too and downloaded back again binance. had 40 dollars again and made it 500 dollars
Omg I can't really believe that HOW DID I lost that money without ever realizing what could I do with that money it really hurts me because it was my money and Ive earned it and lost it in the same way I know its not the end of the world but it actually is
-I can't hande the same things happening all day all night all week all month all year
-I don't have anything from my family so I have to work on myself
-Turkey and its economy are getting worse and worse, rich gets richer, poor gets poorer
-I have 1 guy friend that I talk to and really thinks for me and there's a girl too who thinks for me but she's studying and will go to college exam so we can't talk a lot.
I guess I'm gonna go in military which is obligatory for 6 months and if you do 6 more months (12 months total) you get paid for the second 6 months which is 2200$ and then I'll see where it goes.I hope I can keep going that far.
Thanks for reading and your time
any comments and advices appreciated...

About me:
I’m married with kids. All live together. Thus the KTP is highly important to me.
New to the life.
I am 100% disabled from my time in the US Army.
Recently got into learning to become self sufficient. Currently growing: Peaches, blackberries, blueberries, strawberries, cherries, raspberries, plums, green onions, red delicious and Granny Smith apples, cherry tomatoes and jalapeños on our land. Looking to grow more.
I’m into video games. Mainly pc.
I also enjoy listening to lectures or podcasts around the following topics: biology, history, animals, physics/astrophysics/astronomy.
Love to watch movies, highly dislike talking through them the first time watching it. One of my favorite places to go is a drive-in theatre.
I tuck in all of my loved ones every night.
I’m a dog person, have two currently. Looking to get another to train as a service animal for me.
If I could have one superpower for a day, I’d choose the ability to open/close portals. See the world for free.
Working on quitting smoking. I also rarely drink. If curious, feel free to ask. Not a recovering alcoholic, I don’t mind when others drink.
Covered in tattoos. Want more.
5’8” dad-bod. I’ve started training to run a marathon.
What I’m seeking:
Someone who is reliable and understanding. Dog and kid friendly. Safe and nerdy. Lastly, hopefully nearby, but not against a LDR. As long as it’s understood that I’m not willing to relocate. Got roots down where I’m at, figuratively and literally.
I am willing to swap pictures as I’m aware that there’s a physical attraction component to most relationships. I also would like video chats, I find it hard to convey emotions through text.
DMs are open. Thanks you for reading this. If you’d like to know more, DM me ‘bubblegum’.

I failed 1st year, basically i was inelligible to write the university examinations for anatomy, and had to write remidial examinations for physiology and biochemistry to increase my internal marks to become elligible for the university examinations.
After hearing that i was inelligible to write anatomy. i was completely crushed. i thought i felt depressed before but now, i felt beyond crushed. So crushed to the point, i was barely able to concentrate fully on physiology and biochemistry universities and I ended up failing both.
I prepared for a month to give supplimentary examinations for all three subjects but at that point i was beyond burnt out. It didn't help that my family was treating me like my world had ended because I already felt that way (my family is made up of non doctors, im the first doctor in my family). Returned to my college to write the exams but the night before all of these exams, i couldn't will myself to study last minute, that's how mentally shot i was. I would spend the entire previous day before the most important exam of my career sleeping the entire day out of my depression and waking up at 11pm to start studying throughout the night until the exam, and repeat the cycle. until the exams were over.
I ended up failing anatomy by 4 marks and biochemistry by 12.
its the lowest i've ever felt in my life. you see, i've hit many low points in my life, i've always had a terrible relationship with my abusive father, i take therapy for that. he spent all the time until i recieved the results telling me he'd always support me and whatever comes comes. and the moment he found out i failed he fully abandoned me and disowned me (this isnt the first time he's done that). so on top of feeling like the worlds biggest failure for sitting with my junior batch, watching my friends go ahead of me, it feels like rubbing salt into my biggest wounds for the next five years all thanks to a stupid exam.
Clubs refuse to recruit me despite the fact that i'm pretty good at giving interviews and have pretty great skills, my friends (atleast not my closest ones) but ones i thought i had good relations with stopped looking at me properly or coming and saying hello.
Its been a month since i rejoined 1st year, and well thankfully thanks to covid, the batch i've joined is only lagging by 6 months compared to my previous batch. so by december i'll be in 2nd year, when my batch started 2nd year in february.
its just hard to get by everyday and fight how terrible i feel and still show up to class. its impossibly hard to not feel like the most depressed af person in the universe right now