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I keep on hearing people say rally scoring discourages risky plays. This is bullshit, and they are all wrong.
Between the risky play and safe play, whichever gives the higher win rate is always the strategy to employ. Sideout scoring does not encourage lower win percentage plays at any point, regardless of whether the team is serving or receiving serves.
Example:Team A (serving) vs B. With a normal safe serve, team A's serves are in 100% of the time, but their chance of winning the point is 35% (due to the double bounce rule disadvantage). If team A uses a super risky serve, it's in 80% of the time, but since they can get a short return and get to the kitchen easier, the odds of winning the point becomes 45%. Let's calculate the expected win rate.
With risky serve: 0.8 * 0.45 + 0.2 * 0 = 36%With safe serve: 1 * 0.35% + 0 * 0 = 35%
In conclusion, team A should ALWAYS use the risky serve.
As the opponents adapt to the risky serve, and as team A perfect their risky serve, these odds will change, and team A has to adapt accordingly.
The same logic applies to third-shot drop vs drive. Rally scoring does NOT discourage a risky third-shot drive. It's all about which strategy is more likely to win you the point.
The only real difference between sideout and rally scoring is: the game will end in N rallies, so there is no time for both teams to dick around with sub-optimal strategies forever.
Last note:Missing a risky serve in rally scoring and awarding the opponents 1 point does not make is a bad strategy. You gotta also look at the upside for when it helps you win points easier.

Rating 5/5
This story spans the time period from 1975 to 2002 threading its way through Afghanistan and America. The story sees the country of Afghanistan peaceful in the early to late 1970s, struggling and haggling under the tyranny of Russia through 1980s and stifling under the overtake and rule of the Taliban. This is one of those countries where going back to a peaceful past is no longer possible. Even those who were acquainted with that period are running in short supply. May God help and provide for the still suffering. There is little that we as spectators know of these countries and the plight of such people unless books such as these - although fiction - are written and Khaled Hosseini is a crusader for their cause!!
This book has proved to be a challenge for finishing in one read. I remember vividly the number of times I gave it a pause, took a break, shaking my head either at the raw emotions it stirred up in me or at the gross unfairness of something which happened in the story. Very sincerely I wished and prayed for a silver lining to appear and for there to be a light at the end of the tunnel for the character Hassan and his family. He has been thoroughly wronged and no amount of guilt - without redemptive action - is going to be enough I felt. The text is easy - as a breeze - to read but the content - loaded with many emotional triggers - is not.
Thinking of countries like Afghanistan, I used to have the notion that its all incessant fighting and Taliban crackling like fire on dry grass which is the country. This book relates the woes of innocent victims to such harshness of treatment and how those who once lived a content and respectful life are reduced to begging and all kinds of deceitful modes of living. Low caste people are treated like scum and ruthlessly swatted.
Coming to the story. Amir and Hassan are tied to each other in a knot since childhood. Amir is the master's son and Hassan in their servant's son. The social distinctions apart, they are also separated by Amir's insecurities and his jealous desire to be the only loved child of his father. Then something really bad happens to Hassan when they are 10-ish and though Amir could have helped him, he doesn't. He runs away and pretends to not know anything. This guilt runs through his life like an invisible strings gnawing at his heart. At a future date, long after Hassan and Amir are separated, he learns something about their relationship and tries to set things right. Undo his past mistake and undo his guilt. Every page kept unwinding in an unpredictable way and I kept wishing and wishing that it would all end well. Well, given the circumstances. And at the end it does. So I reconcile! Very brilliant work. Hosseini painted a picture that overcomes language distinctions and strikes right at the humanitarian core of all. :)

My husband and I have a 2 yo Aussie mix who we got at 9 weeks old. He’s fear reactive towards strangers and dogs. We have been making a lot of progress with strangers on walks, just being neutral. We also just moved a new city and rarely have people over. We had 3 new friends come over to our house today and let me tell you, I couldn’t have been more proud of my little boy!! We met outside, played fetch and walked a little. Asked all guests to ignore him and absolutely no petting/reaching over. We came back inside and I still kept him on leash and close to us. He didn’t bark or snap or show any signs of aggression. He was a cute little happy dog playing with his toys and eating snacks. He even settled down for a short period of time! The guests also got to feed him treats by hand and play with him a little. He’s currently passed out and we’re just taking it all in. We finally feel so good about all the work we’ve been putting in and definitely want to keep this momentum going by having people over more often. I love seeing the success stories on here and wanted to contribute to the positivity. Have a great weekend y’all!

This is the first post on the sub and is fitting because this is usually the main thing people think of when they think of pharmacoPE. A few things I would like to note.
1.) This is a patent, not a medical study. The information gathered in any of the examples detailed in the patent cannot be verified to be accurate and the methods of measurement and the frequency of patient usage cannot be verified either. For all we know, these cases could be completely made up, but probably are not. Who knows though.
2.) In all the examples, the largest growth occured in those using only prostaglandin E1, and not in combination with potentiators for at least the main portion of their growth. This means that these may be unnecessary or can be used in other ways which will be discussed in further posts
Here are the examples in the patent:
EXAMPLE 1
A male patient, age 41, was treated with intracavernosal injections of a vasodilator, prostaglandin E1, on a regular basis (approximately four to five times per week) over an 18 month treatment period. A sufficient quantity was administered to maintain a prolonged engorgement of an erectile response between 40-75% over a period of several hours, generally 3 to 6 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted from time to time in accordance with the patient's response, which was monitored at least weekly.
The size of the patient's fully erect penis increased from 5.8 inches to 8.6 inches in length (about an 48% increase) and 3.7 inches to 5.8 inches in girth (about an 56% increase) over the 18-month treatment period. Following the discontinuation of this treatment, the erect penis length remained stable for two years at over 8½ inches. Treatment was re-institued combining intracavernosal injections 3-4 times per week of a mixture of testosterone (0.5 mg) and vasodilators with low dose oral Potaba (500-1000 mg) 3-4 times per day. After a short treatment period of 2½ months, the patient's erect penis was over 9 inches in length, which means he has gained an additional 0.4-0.5 inches in length (about an 6% increase). The total increase in length was therefore about 3.2 inches (about an 55% increase) in length.
EXAMPLE 2
A male patient, age 30, was treated with intracavernosal injections of the vasodilator on a regular basis (approximately four to five times per week) over a 6-month treatment period. A sufficient quantity was administered to maintain a prolonged engorgement over a period of about 3 to 6 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The potentiator potaba (aminobenzoate) (1000 mg/4 times per day) was administered orally to the patient for the last 60 days of treatment.
The patient's erect penis increased from 5.6 inches to 7.7 inches (about an 38% increase) in length and 3.2 inches to 5.3 inches (about an 65% increase) in girth over the 6-month treatment period.
EXAMPLE 3
A male patient, age 52, was treated with separate intracavernosal injections of vasodilators, Papavarine, phentolamine and prostaglandin E1, on a regular basis, selected from treatments of 0 to 4 times per week, over a 7 month treatment period along with daily subcutaneous injections of a prostaglandin F analogue. A sufficient quantity of vasodilator was administered to maintain a prolonged engorgement of an erectile response greater than 70% for 3.5-5 hours duration. The quantity of medication was adjusted from time to time in accordance with the patient's response, which was monitored initially weekly then monthly once the patient had mastered the IC technique and the responses were consistently of the same duration.
The size of the patient's fully erect penis increased from 5.0 inches to 6.3 inches in length, i.e. about a 26% increase, over the 7-month treatment period. Following the discontinuation of this treatment, the erect penis length remained stable.
EXAMPLE 4
A male patient, age 34, was treated with intracavernosal injections of a triple mix of the vasodilators Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine on a regular basis (approximately two to five times per week) over a 4-month treatment period. A sufficient-quantity was administered to maintain a prolonged engorgement of 60-90% over a period of about 3 to 4.5 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The potentiator, Potaba™—potassium aminobenzoate (1000 mg/3-4 times per day) was administered orally starting 1 month before starting the IC injections of the vasodilators Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine.
After 5 months of treatment the patient's erect penis increased from 6.0 inches to 7.1 inches (about an 18% increase) in length.
EXAMPLE 5
A male patient, age 44, was treated with intracavernosal injections of a quadruple mix of the vasodilators prostaglandin E1, Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine on a regular basis (approximately two to four times per week) over a 4-month treatment period. A sufficient quantity was administered to maintain a prolonged engorgement over a period of about 3 to 5 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The potentiator dihydrotestosterone 5% ointment was administered orally starting two weeks before starting the IC injections of the vasodilators Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine and prostaglandin.
After 4 months of treatment the patient's erect penis increased from 5.2 inches to 6.5 inches (about a 25% increase) in length.
EXAMPLE 6
A male patient, age 44, was treated with intracavernosal injections of the vasodilator phentolamine on a regular basis (approximately two to four times per week) over a 4-month treatment period. Phentolamine was frequently combined with indirect vasodilating effects of oral Viagra to produce and maintain a prolonged engorgement of 60-90% over a period of about 3 to 5 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The potentiator dihydrotestosterone gel was administered orally starting two weeks before starting the IC injections of the vasodilators Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine and prostaglandin.
After 4 months of treatment the patient's erect penis increased from 5.2 inches to 6.5 inches (about a 25% increase) in length.
EXAMPLE 7
A male patient, age 72, was treated with intracavernosal injections of the quadruple mix of the vasodilators prostaglandin E1, Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine on a regular basis (approximately two to four times per week) over a 3-month treatment. The indirect vasodilating effects of oral Cialis and Levitra were sometimes added to the quadruple mix of the vasodilators prostaglandin E1, Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine to produce and maintain a prolonged engorgement of 60-85% over a period of about 2.5 to 3 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The potentiators Potaba 1000 mg 4×/day orally and prostaglandin F topically were also used with the vasodilators. After 3 months of treatment the patient's erect penis increased from 6.5 inches to 7.1 inches (about a 9% increase) in length.
EXAMPLE 8
A male patient, age 47, was treated with intracavernosal injections of a triple mix of the vasodilators Atropine, Chlorpromazine and Papavarine on a regular basis (approximately three to four times per week) over a 6-month treatment period. A sufficient quantity was administered to maintain a prolonged engorgement of an erectile response between 60-95% over a period of several hours, generally 3 to 4.5 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted from time to time in accordance with the patient's response, which was monitored initially weekly. After 2 months of treatment subcutaneous injections of testosterone 14-20 mg into the penis were added as an accelerator.
The size of the patient's fully erect penis increased from 5.2 inches to 6.0 inches in length (about a 15% increase) over the 6 month treatment period.
EXAMPLE 9
A male patient, age 52, was treated with intracavernosal injections of the quadruple mix of the vasodilators prostaglandin E1, Atropine, Phentolamine and Papavarine on a regular basis (using IC medications approximately two to four days per week) over a 3-month treatment. Since the maximum duration of the engorgement of the erection from a single dose was only 45 to 80 minutes, the patient used two to three separate IC injects spaced through out the treatment days to achieve a total i.e. cumulative daily duration of 3 to 4 hours. The indirect vasodilating effects of oral Cialis and Levitra were sometimes added to the quadruple mix of the vasodilators prostaglandin E1, Atropine, Chlorpromazine and phentolamine to produce and maintain a prolonged engorgement of 60-85% over a period of about 3 to 4 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The potentiator Potaba 1000 mg 4×/day orally was used with the vasodilator. After 4 months of treatment the patient's erect penis increased from 5.4 inches to 6.1 inches (about al 3% increase) in length and 4.4 to 5.1 inches in circumference (about a 16% increase in circumference).
EXAMPLE 10
A male patient, age 27, was treated with intracavernosal injections of a prostaglandin E1 on a regular basis (approximately two to five times per week) over a 3-month treatment period. Due to a sensitivity to Prostraglandin E1 causing aching and pain at higher doses, the maximum tolerated dose which produced a comfortable erection was only lasting 90 to 120 minutes. The patient used two separate IC injects spaced throughout the treatment days to achieve a total daily cumulative engorgement duration of 3 to 4 hours. The quantity of medication was adjusted in accordance with the patient's response. The 15 mg of the potentiator Dihydrotestosterone was injected subcutaenously into the penis daily throughout the treatment period. After 3 months of treatment the patient's erect penis increased from 6.3 inches to 7.1 inches (about an 13% increase) in length.

Just trying to learn the situations that could lead to me needing to move at short notice. The other reasons in the legislation are a lot easier to understand (ownefamily moving in, owner selling, etc), but I can't figure out whether turning it into an Air BnB would fall under a legal reason to end things. My place used to be an Air BnB just before we moved in, so a bit more relevant to me than the average person.
The legal reason to end a periodic tenancy that this may fall into is:

The premises are to be converted into commercial premises for at least 90 days by the landlord or owner.[1]

In this Stuff article, someone from Harcourts Queenstown said:

“Changes to tenancy law mean a landlord can’t just get rid of a sitting tenant to put their property on Airbnb any more. They have to wait until the tenancy ends before they can do that.”

But this Crockers page says:

A landlord would be allowed to terminate a periodic tenancy by giving at least 90 days’ notice if the premises are to be converted into commercial premises (for example, to be used as an Airbnb).

The Crockers page was written in 2020 before the bill passed, but the part they are talking about did not change in the final text. I think insurance companies at least tend to consider Air BnBs as commercial premises too.
Is anybody aware of whether an 'Air BnB' would be interpreted as a 'commercial premises' according to the Act?

Read this sometime in the 2010s and desperately want to reread it; it was a short novel meant for roughly middle-school-age kids. Here are the only points I can remember solidly enough to put out as semi-true memories: -The main character (possibly the first-person narrator?) was a human boy who somehow found and was somewhat welcomed into a family of monsters. -The monsters all lived in a house together and were various "species;" a vampire woman, a werewolf man, etc.; I can't remember how many there were or any of their names. -The biggest (and most haunting) plot point was that one of the monsters had been working to create a machine that could "cure" their monstrosity and turn them all into humans. The only specific scene I can recall is him testing it on himself, sternly warning the main character that "no matter what I say/how loud I scream/how much I beg you, do not open this door" before entering the machine. I cannot recall if the machine worked or how the main plot actually resolved. -It was relatively lighthearted but there definitely was narrative tension, and that particular above scene was quite impactful to me at the time. I mostly want to rediscover it to see if the writing was as good as I remember it, honestly.

Nobody posts success stories here but here's mine.
3rd country national currently in London on a short stay visa. Applied for a Schengen with Netherlands - Type C.
I was warned by VFS that this could be disallowed, could take over 45 days blah blah. They even made me sign a waiver that they were not responsible if it was delayed indefinitely.
Got it stamped in 3 weeks. VFS took 1 week for "processing" within that.

I can't go back to the same old misery. I have made that decision I'm breaking out of that dark and cold mist. I'm so sick of the endless pain, sadness and tears. I can't go back.
I went there to find if you were there, because I was of course tempted. I missed you and that tenderness so much. I was so infatuated, obsessed, addicted, deeply, profoundly. I admire you, I appreciate you. And I miss you.
I did not go inside because I should not, I cannot, and, I just can't see anything good come out of it. It felt like the beginning of something horribly wrong. Who were you trying to fool - hanging out late night at a bar, the two of us, clearly feeling that connection. Nothing is innocent, on top of my already overwhelming guilt, and, longing.
So there I was, paralyzed in my dilemma. can't move, can't leave.
Afterall, it is bad timing. Intended as a pun. But you are of course allowed to feel glad that timing turned into cross paths briefly. Not sure whether you meant what I read, but, sure, that's one of the positive perspectives I keep reminding myself of. But it is not fair, how could it be fair. Bad timing, what-ifs. Those are the kind of things that will send one's mind into a spiral. Those things keep reminding you what you do not have, cannot have, the things you are missing in this life. Those are the things I was trying to escape from. I can't go back to the old misery. It might not be fair, that nothing is ever gonna improve for this situation. But life never guarantees fairness. Maybe there is no such thing as fairness in this random universe. The supposed-to-be causations might just be coincidence. Impermanence is the truth of life. A lot of unfortunate pains and sufferings are no one's fault, like this particular misery I am in, maybe. So what's the point of crying "it is not fair." Be grateful to the crossed paths, to the short company, to the good things in you. And that should be it.
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You want to know what's in my head. the thing that is bothering me that I can't tell. You know what, you can't handle it. My craziness, my pain, my guilt, my sin, the things I feel, because of you. Have you ever been loved this way, not to say that's what this thing is. Have anyone ever written you poems, pages and pages of journals, read every bit of you like I did? Maybe not. And I don't think you could handle that, and I don't even trust you with such secret. Also, I have not yet decided what label should I put to this vast amount of tenderness, this nameless thing that has been bothering me since more than a year ago.
Anyway. I'm tired. Need to catch up on some sleep before another trying and tiring day.
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Hi,So, I’m in the US since last 3 years, just got my h1b picked this year, and I want to bring my parents to the US. But there’s a situation.
So, my real dad’s name for this example is Sachin and my name on the Indian passport is as follows
Give Name: Harsh Sachin
Last Name: Mishra
Now, the problem is Sachin Mishra, my biological dad died when I was 5 years old but since then me and my mom has never changed our names because my mom has properties with name Priya Sachin Mishra, and it is a hurdle to change all the property documents and banks, stuff, and earlier she wanted to convert Sachin Mishra property in her name so she never changed it after the demise of Sachin Mishra.
Now, I have a step dad, name Rajesh Mishra (same last name). But my mom on paper never changed it to his name, neither did I. But they’re legally married.In my Mom’s passport the current name is: Priya Sachin Mishra
Husband name: Sachin Mishra
In my step dad’s passport the current name is: Rajesh Mishra
Wife name: Priya Mishra
Now, I want to bring them to USA, but in ds160 my mom and step dad would have to fill up their S/O’s name, so what would be the ideal solution for such a case here?
Getting all the property name change is impossible and we did talk to lawyer as well, but they don’t seem to have other way around than changing property docs and going the long way. They suggested the short way would be to keep going the same way like we have been since past 20 years, and don’t change anything, just give visa interviews separately.
My view: We should not and cannot go as the way it has been going because technically my parents then would be lying in the ds160 form as my mom is currently married to Rajesh Mishra not Sachin Mishra which is not even alive.
Also, when my mom married to rajesh mishra (my now step dad) 20 years ago, they never got the legal marriage certificate, they only got the registry thing which I’m not sure that is. But if they want they can still get the legal marriage certificate.
What would be the ideal solution here?
P.S: I’ve changed the names here for obvious reason, other than that all the info is accurate and i’m seeking genuine advice, Legal ways in India did not help much.

Hello, I think I know what the right thing to do is, but as a any sane person, I shall ask the internet :) tl;dr My husband and I have been together for 6 years in total and have been married for 2 years. I am 26, he is 28. let's dive right into it - honestly, I have fallen out of love with him for a while, but have been to scared to do anything about it. The beginning of the relationship was, as I thought, quite beautiful, I was madly in love. But he has shown signs of controlling behaviour since the start - I was his first serious relationship, but he was not mine. He has shown a lot of attitude towards me not being a virgin, a smoker and overweight. I will get into that later.
We met when I lived in a foreign country and got together when I was really depressed and lonely. I did not see it at the time. We were nicely dating and after about 4 months we moved in together. Quick - I know, but the circumstances lead to this. I think I should add some good points about him, because, like I said, I was really in love with him. Our point of views on a lot of things were aligned and it seemed like our goals in life aligned too.
He was always supportive when I had my low moments and would always hold me when I would be crumbling. I remember, I used to say - I am sorry, I'm a bit broken. He would answer - don't worry, I will fix you. (a red flag in retrospect). He is also good at home - does not conform to the "standard" ideals of marriage - woman cooking and cleaning, which I really appreciate. He is also very handy at home, built our fence and terrace with no training, so that's also nice. My family (aunts mostly) love him, so I guess he knows how to put a nice appearance, however, my mom and sister are not so fond of him.
Now a bit about our marriage - since we started dating my weight has always been an issue - honestly I always had issues with it, but I feel like during our relationship I developed an eating disorder. I cannot say, that he caused me to develop it, but he has not been exactly kind about it. Only recently he started watching curvy girls on instagram and telling me I'm a goddess and that he is sorry that he did not see it earlier. He also basically admitted that only now, after 6 years of a relationship, he fell in love with me. So I feel like I've been lied to and lead on for so long and even got married with a person that did not love me.
Other things he abused me about:

• I used to be a smoker, and a couple of years ago started on and off vaping - at first, when I told him, he used to get so mad at me and be cold and not talk to me until I was like grovelling. Then I started hiding it, lying about it and vaping in secret - he caught me a few times and always threatened me with divorce, even took his ring to a pawn shop once (took it back later with money I lent him, not sure if he gave it back, oh well).
• I started studying for a master's degree in another town and kept travelling to the other town a lot and barely staying at home - we have agreed upon this before I started the studies, but by the end he started to guilt me, that I'm not home enough. I mean I get it, he is lonely, but it's not easy for me either.
• Recently I got a job, where I earn almost twice as much money, as he does. I am very picky about my money, and quite stingy about it honestly, I think it comes from never having money in my life, so I am very protective of it. When I got the job, his view was, that we should pool our money and have the "family money", which I was not comfortable with, so I said no. I did say, that we can put in the same amount of money into the shared account and I can put in a little bit more, because I earn more - that is fine. He blamed me for not being invested fully in the relationship and keeping one foot out the door.
• Not sure if it's abuse per say, but I, as any person I think, need attention and compliments. He would never give me any for the first 5 years, rather subtly put me down and pick on me. He has been trying to give me more compliments lately, but I mean should it require effort if you are in love?
• Something that I don't think is abuse but just hurt me deeply - I have been singing my whole life and I am quite proud of my singing. I always used to get compliments about my singing. He never liked it and openly admitted it. I mean it's fine, you cannot decide what you enjoy. It just hurt me, that my closest person does not enjoy my proudest asset.

Don't get me wrong - I know I am not without faults - I yell a lot, I am messy and quite selfish, but I don't think I don't deserve effort and love. The next part is going to be rough and triggering for some people, so stop here if you want and please let me know what you think.
The triggering part here:
About a year ago, my husband discovered wife-sharing and decided he wants to try it. Partially to spice up our life. I initially said no and kept saying no. The biggest problem for me was that he wanted me to meet guys on tinder and take photos/videos of me having sex with them, because it turns him on. I did it once at first, got a short video for him. It always made me feel icky, but I still did it. I texted some more guys and then stopped because it felt just awful. He was not happy, but he was ok to stop. After a few months he kept mentioning it and I agreed to do it again. And I actually got quite into it - my sex life with my husband was boring and I indulged in his fantasy. I actually went to meet a guy and fully had sex with him and took a picture afterwards for my husband so that he would be more included. Right when I left the guy's home, I wanted to call my husband and tell him all about it. Little did I know, he got very upset and mad at me and told me, that a little part of him hoped, that I wouldn't do it. Long story short, I got really upset because this was his idea, almost broke up with him then and there but after a little while he apologised.
We stopped this for a while and went to a New Year's party, where he got drunk and told about our sex life to anyone who would listen, without me hearing, complete strangers to him - some friends to me. Unfortunately I found out about this from my sister a couple of weeks later. When I confronted him about it, he managed to turn it around on me, that I shouldn't care what people think about me. Unfortunately - I do.
Later on he kept nagging me about more guys, I kept saying no. I would like to emphasise, that I said no many times. He can be very persuasive mind you and eventually wore me down saying, that it won't affect his feelings again. I'm sure you can all tell by now, that was not true. I slept with some more guys and actually started to enjoy myself, but since he wanted videos or pictures, I didn't, he was always unhappy and made me feel bad about it. His latest idea was that he would arrange it all and invite a guy to our home. and he did. He watched a little and of course, like he said, kinda stopped loving me.
That same week (yesterday) I went back to the town where my studies are and we had a big fight over messages. He said, if I want to meet anyone here, then I would have to take pictures or videos for him and I said no, I would rather not meet anyone. But let me remind you, that I already started enjoying it. He said, well, I kinda got my fill already, I think we should stop. I was willing to stop, but just wanted to point out the hypocrisy of stopping when he didn't want it and he got upset about me pushing back. It triggered something in me and I told him we should separate or get a divorce. He said, that I want to separate only to fuck around. I said ok, if you think so - divorce then. He said fine by me.
After this very long monologue - I hope I don't get too much criticism, but I do expect some. What do you think - if he tries to stay together - should I stay?

Long story short, I brought my gf, her kid and her mom to live to my house, I brought all of them from Russia, I paid everything this whole 2022 (ticket planes, airbnb, food...), rent a new apt, buy all furniture she wants, utilities, literally everything she want kinda to make her happy and don't miss her apt in Russia.
5 months ago we broke up, we were fighting a lot for small things, we were not even sleeping in the same bed, so after all I did, I feel just as a partner, a father for her kid, and a partneATM for her.
Also she was demanding a ring to even kiss me or sleep together and ofc have sex...but hey, she is a single mom and ofc she didn't ask for a ring to her ex.
All of that leads to a deadbedroom, not even a common bedroom, not even kisses, no hugs, touching, just partners in the same apt
With all the pain in my heart I left the apt, so I left her decide what she can do, stay here in this country, back to Russia, move to another country, it took 5 months to her to get Visa for NA, while that happen I keep paying everything, amazon, food, apt, clothes, bills, everything, making gifts for her kid.
Every single day I was thinking on her and her kid which I feel as mine, I was crying and I was devastated because I really love that kid and I felt so bad because that kid loves me too.
We talk sometimes, I said Im sorry, I want to fix it...but she continue with the idea of NA.
She just talk me to buy the tickets, help her with some stuffs and so on, because I deeply love her and her kid and I feel responsible for her here, I pay the tickets, for her.
Today when I back to my apt after I left her in the airport, I found like the apt is a complete mess, is dirty, looks like she didn't clean since I left, not even for her kid, it was rotten milk in the fridge, she left me all her meds, old clothes and even clothes which I gift to her, literally I just have receives and small boxes of meds, she even took electronic toothbrush hahaha.
The worst part which brokes my heart and makes me no feel sorry for her is SHE LEFT AN SPECIAL ALBUM I MADE FOR HER AND HER KID, it was an album with all the photos she send me during this years, every photo had an story which I could tell, I gift this to her on Christmas, when she open, she said thank and she even didn't check, back then it hurts also, but I said, well, later we will see together.
But look this album under all garbage she left, It made me realise I was nothing for her, I don't know what was her plan, if she loves me in some point at all, I don't if should I ask why she left this album, maybe she will say it was for me, or she didn't notice or she didn't like it, but she made sure to take pencils and color pencils, draw book I bought for her, what you would do?
I will cry when I will remember the kid and I will see that kid alone, but well, i cannot keep being the stupid man who defends her and protect her, making her excuses for everything she does.
Jeeesus I was so blind, so stupid, I was so in love like I prefer to ignore that behavior and blame myself all the time because I left her in another country.
If you want, share when did you noticed and decide you was right for what you did, what was the trigger.

Looking for some tips on how to network with other APs. I'm not interested in paying for BJA at the time but not opposed to similar.
It sprouts from my play today down a few black chips but I am feeling good about how I played. Spent about two hours at a table today with another player who had been there for several hours before me and was grandfathered into $5 minimum at a $10 table. His eyes seemed to scan cards different then other players so it seemed like he was counting as well. Not to mention his bets seeming to change with mine which iv experienced other people doing while I'm winning... Though being a realistically new counter I am not the best judge. Short story maybe to act as a miss connection for AP Play. -ThirdBase
Basically wondering what I may have been able to do to get his attention to maybe go for a walk and talk or exchange numbers. Obviously without seeming like some creep/perv/weirdo which almost is guaranteed if they are not an AP.

Just want to share my story on how I constantly try to look gay so people would know I'm into women :P
Sometimes, I dress up girly or masculine. Other times, both. Kumbaga baggy pants + "girly" top haha. I'm comfortable naman either way, pero minsan kasi inaakala ng iba na straight ako just because of how feminine I look. Kaya what I did is "level up" my fashion lol konting changes lang naman kasi I've heard how some accessories make you gay.

• What I would do is wear rings (6 mostly, minsan guso ko lahat ng daliri ko meron xD). Converse, (idk, napagkamalan pa kong tomboy kasi lagi raw ako naka-converse haha weird but maybe because it gives off the tomboy style)
• When my group of friends (who don't know about my sexuality) talk about guys, tahimik lang ako at may sariling mundo :]
• I would manspread all the time especially when I'm wearing baggy jeans
• Keeping my nails short and color them black (feeling ko isa to sa rason bat muka kong bakla)
• Caps
• Bracelets (I would wear leather ones, yung makakapal or minsan maninipis)

Not to stereotype, but nababasa ko lang din na some of these give u the gay vibe. If you're not really into these, just wear a pride pin, or anything pride related! I don't wear one, but I'm planning to kasi pride month ngayon hehe (hapi pride!) If you can be open, try it also. Ya'll can soon find someone of the same interest as yours :)
a short story that made me feel things:
Since sa univ namin is no dress code at all, I would try wearing boyish fits, but still adding that feminine side sa outfit ko. One time, may irregular student kaming nakasama sa class. I find her really cute and simple lang, kaya sabi ko " Hala sino siya? Who she" jokingly to my friends. They don't know yet that I'm gay. Bigla na lang sila naging "supportive" na para bang ine-encourage akong lapitan siya at makipag-get-to-know whahaha and they never asked anything about my sexuality. It felt like they just assumed that I'm into women and there's nothing wrong with that :>. Wala lang, usually kasi, people would be shocked af like "Omg tomboy ka?" o kaya "Gusto mo pala babae ah." But this time, inasar pa nila ko kay ate girl and even yung malakas yung loob ang lumapit sakaniya. sigaw pa niya, "Stella (not my real name), wala raw siya baon!" NAHIYA KO NUN GRABE PARANG HIGHSCHOOL LANG AMP. And it went on and on until she left the class (isang subj lang namin siya kasama), sad haha but genuinely tho, I want to get to know her. Ilang beses ko rin sya naka-eye contact (she has vv pretty eyes) haha dahil siguro na-mention na ko nung classmate ko sakaniya :}
But anyways, it was just nice that I give off that gay vibe xD, andami kong nakikitang lesbians dito who struggle to appear gay so men wouldn't hit on them. You can try leveling up your thing, but you do you if it makes u happy :)
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Hi, I want to start stating that I basically don't know any coding.
I set up stable diffusion using this guide on youtube.
Everything looked cool until I uploded a still image for img2img and clicked on interroate clip. It started counted the seconds and it doesn't stop at all.
I tried other features like txt2img but most of my attempts at that also failed, although after turning it off and on again countless times I did manage to generate an image from text but my problem remains.
I just want to turn some short clips into animation like in the youtube video I linked. Can anybody here help? I would be grateful. Thank you!

Can anyone please help me out? I had an issue with the screen not showing anything on my Macbook pro M1. I went to apple store to fix it up under warranty. They said that they found a cockroach inside the logic board and asked me to go to a professional cleaner to get rid of cockroach and then only they can work on it. Does cockroach inside the logic board short circuit the logic board to damage the screen?

Hi guys, i found out that i like the dmr playstyle due to my 60% grade of handicaps and lpvo usage (could be also a infantry guy, but i still like the usage of lpvos 🤷🏻‍♂️) So i found more or less 3 options: Cyma svd, Silverback MDRX and the APS Urban Assault Rifle (Short: UAR )
Pros of the cyma: there are some upgrade parts available and it got a modern + retro style, and obviously has a real counter part
Cons: It seems to be heavy
Pros of the Silverback: it accepts ar10 mags, real steel licensed, lightweight
Cons: almost no upgrading (only motor, and a new 100% cylinder, and maybe a new barrel + hop up bucking)
Pros of the APS: its basically a ak with a bullpup plastic body and accepts m4 mags, A LOT of upgrading possiblities, lightweight, something different
Cons: With the plastic body comes my fears of durability, obvously not really based on anything

Hi, I want to start stating that I basically don't know any coding.
I set up stable diffusion using this guide on youtube.
Everything looked cool until I uploded a still image for img2img and clicked on interroate clip. It started counted the seconds and it doesn't stop at all.
I tried other features like txt2img but most of my attempts at that also failed, although after turning it off and on again countless times I did manage to generate an image from text but my problem remains.
I just want to turn some short clips into animation like in the youtube video I linked. Can anybody here help? I would be grateful. Thank you!